Tuesday, August 16, 2005
"Hello, Allah? It's Me, Siddique."
Even if you're a stringent left-wing, you have to admit Ann Coulter is damn funny. If only Michael Moore had a sense of humor. I suppose Democrats have Bill Maher for that though. He always made me laugh on Politically Incorrect. Did I really watch that when I was 10? It doesn't seem that long ago.
I went to the dentist yesterday and I'm cavity free!! She was really violent with the floss. Damn sadist. She said it's pretty rare for wisdom teeth to grow in without a problem but mine have been in since I was sixteen. There's crowding but at least I no longer have a space between my two front teeth! I need invisiline.
Tony is coming back sometime this month and it really sucks that I can't see him. Maybe I'll convince Laura to let me move in with her when she gets her own apartment. North Carolina seemed nice when I drove through there a few summers ago on my way to Florida. Anywhere would be preferable to where I am now though.
It's recently come to my attention just how much my mother inhibits me and I'm determined to distance myself from her. I'm not about to waste more years of my life feeling the way I felt when I lived with my grandmother.
Make no mistake, I love my mom. But if I stay here for much longer I don't think I'll ever be able to leave. She is the master of guilt trips and knows just how to get to me. A lot of the time I don't even realise that she's guilting me into something. But sometimes I'll feel like shit about something I supposedly did to hurt her and I'll realise what she's doing.
I'm sick of feeling like I'm abandoning her because I want to go to college and have a life of my own. I'm sick of her insulting me all the time when I'm the only one who ever helps her.
I'm NOT a lazy, selfish, asshole.
There are times when she has me convinced I am.