Time: 7:56 pm
Mood: Well It could be good. But its kinda bad. To tell you the truth I'm so full of emotions that I can barely talk without tearing up. -_-
Music: World- Sick Puppies
Hawaii was fun. I want to go back. But I'm not going to for a while...if ever. -_- I could be the happiest person in the world right now. But I'm not. Today I was shown more than 10 times that I was loved by people. I got 10 hugs from people. And about 50 people tell me that they missed me. And about 75 people ask me about Hawaii. It just goes to show that the things you want most are closer than you think. I'm feeling a little poetic this evening. That's good and bad.
I'm having some trouble. And I should be thinking..WHAT THE CRAP IS WRONG WITH ME?! YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT!... but I'm not. I really want to talk to Kate. But she's not on when I'm on anymore. Cause I sleep at 8:30! She stays awake till freaking 1 in the morning.
I was so happy this morning. And in some sense I am. I'm very happy. But What could be my matter that I'm upset on this night? Why This Thursday? Why at all? Why? To tell ya the truth....I have no idea. T_T I'm so hard to figure out. I don't see how the people who are close to me deal with me. I have the weirdest changes EVER... I'll go from happy to sad in .00000000003 seconds flat.
I guess it kinda started when I didn't get on last night. I went to bed. I was tired. And I wasn't feeling good. And then The only person I was talking to got off. I figured I would sleep. It would make me feel better. But today I haven't talked to anyone worth talking to (cept for Kate, Michelle) And Guess what? My site won't let me PM people cause ITS STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm tired. So I'm going to bed. -_- Hopefully things will be better tomorrow.
*looks at the bright side* Tomorrow's friday.