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• 1992-02-19
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• 2004-09-09

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• Supporting my lil brother as his legal guardian
Anime Fan Since
• 1998
Favorite Anime
• Fruits Basket (2019 remake)
Goals
• To own an aviary and board parrots of all kinds
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• Ornithology, reading, music, games of all kinds, and crafts.
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• I have a really good selective memory




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Thursday, September 3, 2026

Going the distance.



I've gone from aching knees to signing up for a half marathon. Training has already started since I've found good joint support for my leggies. This week, I've run 13 miles. I'll continue to progress until I can run 13 miles in one go. It will take some time, but I want the challenge and I want to become stronger.
The exercise will help me with my anxieties. It will help me with my breathing issues. It will help me sing. I've been invited to join a choir, and I'm hopeful to do well for it.

Mentally, I am rested. I've taken a full week's time to stay remote. It's allowed me to sleep peacefully and avoid traffic for a while. I've made a slight reconciliation with a person with whom I'm at odds at work, and I am hopeful to move forward with a clearer mind.

I want to do better and feel better and be better and be well-rounded and be intelligent and happy and hardworking and (financially) stable and all of those things that were promised to me when I was small and stupid enough to believe that promises weren't real and people weren't prone to letting other people down. Coming to the conclusion that the people who I admired, the people that I thought knew the answers knew nearly nothing. I am now the age they were when I believed in them.

And now I have myself.

Can I believe in me?





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Monday, August 24, 2026

Control yourself. Take only what you need from it.



I know it's only 8:30pm at the time I'm starting to write. But it's my bedtime. My face is tired. My back is painful. My ears are ringing. My eyes are heavy.
I stayed at work late today to make up some time; sweet Jarvis had a vet appointment to get some antibiotics for an ear hole infection. I'm pretty sure it's otitis media, but the red, squiggly line on this draft has me feeling not-so confident. I'll just blow right on through it.

I was scrolling my phone thinking to share some neato birds I've seen recently, when I came upon a specific photo. While I was at the con last month, I met a number of really talented cosplayers who design all of their own works and props. Above briefly will be a model chocobo that I fell for instantly. Its beak is wired with a bike break so it can open and close, and it's precious. I wish I had the talent to make my own. My chocobo in FF14 is lotus pink, and I am hopeful one day to commission someone to draw a nice piece of my OC and my 'bo. One day, I'll invest in it. :)

As I sit here lamenting bedtime and knowing that the cycle continues, and the show goes on and all that, I just itch for more time to focus on myself while I still have both of my hips and knees (my knees are still cracked out from last month, which I'm not sure about given that I've been invited to run a half marathon, and I said yes because I am stupid). I suppose all I can do is put one foot in front of the other.

A lot is going on, and I'm powerless to stop it from going on. My passions pull me in a different direction from my work; my work, from my hobbies; my hobbies, from my responsibilities at home. I need to hire a nanny to take care of me, so I can take care of the rest of it. Yes, this is a rant now. Welcome to my rant.
It will all turn out. And I will always do my best. End transcription at 8:45pm.


KWEH!



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