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• 16 Years of Life and Finding true love and having the feeling be mutual...
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• 2003
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• Cowboy Bebop, Trigun, Angel Sanctuary,Hellsing, and some other ones as well
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• To be a Forensic Pathologist and to Marry Chris
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• Listening to music, Reading, and writing poetry, spending time with Chris
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• I play the piano and write poetry
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Who is that girl I see stairing straight back at me?
^^^Which one is the real one?^^^
You know, a good point was finally made very clear to me the other night… a lot of people have tried to tell me this and I just never wanted to believe it. Chris is the one who finally made me see that I really don’t know exactly who I am… does that make any sense? I really don’t act like my true self, my mom, my sister, and now Chris have all tried to point that out to me, but I just didn’t want to admit it. I’ve been putting on a front at school just to please people, and it’s just not me. I suppose that Chris would know best of all, he has spent time with me outside of school, and so he knows how I really am. In all actuality I am nothing like I act at school. I mean I know that you people on the otaku wouldn’t necessarily understand what I am talking about because you don’t know me, but it’s just really interesting. According to Chris, I am a very caring person, I Love kids, and I’m just so much different. And I can finally admit that now, I guess I don’t honestly know who I am…. I don’t fit in with any of the stereotypes that are common to highschool, I mean honestly I’m not a punk, a skater, a jock, a goth, a prep, a loner, not a single one of those labels can really describe me, and I really don’t think that it is a bad thing you know?
So now that I’ve told you that, let me tell ya’ll who I really am… well where to start? I’m a very shy and quiet person, I don’t know why, it takes me a while to warm up to people, I’m even like that with my own family sometimes. I’m not very outgoing and sometimes it takes a big push from someone to get me to try new things. I have a horrible fear of being in front of a lot of people (I guess you could almost consider that stage fright) I Love to get attention, but then again, I hate being the center of attention. I’m very affectionate, and I know that it may sound a bit cliché but I think love is the only reason to live for. I have always been a hopeless romantic if you will, I have always dreamed of the fairy tale romance where everything is perfect, but hey what can I say? I’m a girl ^_^ Now since I have such strong feelings about love I have been criticized, a lot, especially by a certain friend of mine. I Love children, I always have, and I have always wanted a family of my own, once again I have be criticized about this as well. I have had more boyfriends then I can count on my fingers and toes, but the majority of them were just little flings, but from everything I have learned so much. I hate being alone, I don’t even really like to be in my own house alone, I mean don’t get me wrong, I love time just to myself, but I hate feeling alone. I am still afraid of the dark, I have to sleep with a nightlight still. I’m actually really easily scared, I’m afraid of so many things, spiders snakes, clowns, birds, “The Exorcist” scared the crap out of me and I refuse to ever watch it again. I’m also very emotional, I cry about EVERYTHING! I’m such a cry-baby. Almost every single movie that I watch anymore, I can find at least one thing in it that will make me cry. I cried the whole way through “Ladder 49”. I an also be a raving bitch, I’m brutally honest, sometimes to the point that I don’t really think that people like to talk to me. A lot of people think that I am a bit strange, I have I guess what you could call an obsession with death, that is what I want to do with my life, I want to work with the dead. I know that some people might think that that is somewhat morbid and disgusting, but I don’t really care, because it’s what I want to do, I could care less what everyone else thinks about it. I really am kind of a nerd in a way, I absolutely love to read, I do fairly well in school and bring home decent grades, In a way you could consider me a goody goody, I’ve never done anything bad or risqué in my life. To tell you the truth I’ve live a somewhat boring life so far. I’m a spoiled rotten little brat as much as I hate to admit it sometimes, it’s the truth and I can’t escape it no matter how hard I try, I’ve never had to work a day in my life and I’ve taken that for granted in the past….
You know, I could go on for ever, but I’m sure most of you who maybe reading this are already sick of it, so for now, this is just a little insight to the real me, maybe at some point I’ll post more, but for now this is enough….
~Adios!
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