Birthday • 1992-06-20 Gender •
Female Location • Earth Member Since • 2007-07-02 Occupation • A Student/A Believer In God/Inspirational seeker and giver/Flower and Disney fantatic Real Name • Meagan
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Achievements •Making it through life this far! ^_^ Anime Fan Since •6 years old Favorite Anime • Chobits, Lovely Complex, Ah! My Goddess, Kobato, CLANNAD, Air, Hanamaru Kindergarten, and Saiyuki...and many more. :) Goals •To live a life helping others Hobbies •Reading, playing video games(Final Fantasy, Zelda, Chrono Trigger, The World Ends With You, Okami, and KH are my FAVS), and Analyzing Talents •I play the trumpet, being a DISNEY fantatic, the ability to sing somewhat decent, and giving people adivce^^
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Sunday, December 2, 2007
Hello there everyone! How is your weekend going?
....I think I'm getting worse...I don't know whats wrong with me....yesterday we were supposed to go shopping but that went down the drain. But we did go out to eat with the family. Anyway, my Mom started talking about money....and were not doing so good. So at the table I'm like, "Do we have enough money to pay for the bills? To buy food? Do I need to see if I can find a job to help?" My Mom being the way as she is just smiled and said we were perfectly fine. Well i started crying....again. Right in front of my whole family in this really busy restaurant. And then later on that day I started crying again. My Mom came up to me and had this really worried look on her face. "Meagan...what's wrong? You haven't been yourself lately." Well I kind of blew up right in her face, I just started yelling, "DO I NEED TO HAVE A PROBLEM TO CRY?! CAN'T WE JUST CRY WITHOUT A REASON?! I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M CRYING!!!" And then I pretty much broke down. She said we needed to talk....*sigh* I have just made her worry more about me...she might take me to the doctor here in a few days, I just don't know. Haven't been feeling good healthy wise as well. Yesterday I tried my best to be happy and smile for everyone, but each time I just felt tears come to my eyes....
Anyway, thank you all for the comments yesterday. My mood is really uncalled for and I apologize. I just feel so sad and lonely....and it worries me that I feel this way. I have felt like this before, but not for this long. I don't think anyone notices this, but my Mom of course. If anyone does, they don't really give a damn. It seems like everyone I know just likes to say, "I'm worthless...my life is filled with drama!" So I try to help them out, but then here I am, and no one is helping. -__- Haha, my Uncle said to me yesterday, "Meagan, your an angel...angels shouldn't cry..." haha, yeah right. Me being something like an angel is like hell freezing over. lol
I am sorry again for my mood...please forgive me. I will try to be better! So thank you for visiting me. You are all so kind....I wish you all the best. Take care my lovely friends....
much love,
Meagan
