Thursday, February 1, 2007

   A Request From 'A Fire Within'. Poem: Straight From The Heart
when i was just a little boy my dady left me and my mom and my grandma use to scream

it was over stupid stuff that made me cry

and to me it use to seem

like i could make them stop if i would only try

so one day i just cracked

i asked my mom y they always had to yell

my grandma sed that it was mom's fault, that she didn't raise me right and wen my mom tryed to say it wasn't her fault she got smaked

i went sick to my stomach like when theres a bad smell

i didn't know what to do

i loved my mom but i loved my grandma too.

then mom took us away

we were in a new town with a new place to stay

and right when i thought everything was getting better mom gotta new boyfriend and we had to move

we went to chill at his place, i didn't like it but to my mom, there was nothing to prove

then he left us for some crystal meth

my mom was out of her mind and i could smell the weed on her breath

we moved back in with my grandma and it all started agin

my mom got a new boy friend and my uncle just got out of jail, thats when my whole world really started to spin.

mom and her friends were a lil to loud out in the front yard

my uncle came out with a baseball bat

mom just said 'dont worry he's just being a retard'

but my uncles a beast, he got real serious, and he was about to nock some one flat,

thats when all my mom's friends left

all my family started taking sides and when it was my turn to choose it was just to much for me to heft.

but i took my grandma's side

my mom almost disowned me and she didn't think i loved her anymore, she almost said she hated me

when i heard it all it hit me like a huge wave in a high tide

after a while i really thought i was finally free,

but it started agin and i almost lost it

i was hurting so much i just waned to throw a fit

so i locked my heart and threw away the key

i bottled up all my emmotions even though they would try to tell me.

they said it was bad for my health and eventually i would explode

i couldn't feel anymore, i couldn't even love

all i could do is hate and the hate was a torrent that never slowed

it was the only way i knew how to deal with it all, when push came to shove.

now my hearts rock hard

i cant feel but theres still a distant pain like i was stuck with a glass shard

im so lonely now with no one to look to

but im so hard now that if they offered help it just wouldn't do

i would say everything is fine

then my only chance at a connection would snap like a fishing line

ive come to like the things i use to hate

i figured if ur mizerable then take mizery on a date

but ive got a future and ive got a plan

but only if i can walk this mizerable path for one last span

what if i break under the pressure before im done?

doesn't my life just sound so fun?
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Decisions to be Made
I had a new idea for the way I would submit my fan art. I was going to submit one drawing per day and at the end of every month I would submit a drawing I had been working on since the beginning of the month, that way I could work on my quick drawing skills (which suck at the moment) and then still have something good to surprise everyone once a month. then agin i could also post my drawings a week at a time, or I could post daily and weekly, or I could post daily, weekly, and monthly. Or I could just submit monthly. I'm going to let the choice be up to you since your the one who is going to have to look at my fan art, just remember that the less I have to do the better the drawings are going to be. So let me know what you all want me to do.
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Theme
Hi all. im going 4 a zidane theme 4 a biit from final fantasy 9. ima b on ff9 4 a bit but ima change which chars are my theme. prolly bout every 2-4 weeks or so ill change the theme
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Monday, January 29, 2007

Another bit of random info
hey there all. i now have a 131 out of 250 msg quota, 34 site visits, and 11 gb entries XP lol. wishing i had a scanner, urz truly







~Tyler~
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Thursday, January 25, 2007

my anime
hey all. i'm working on some new stuff 2day. haven't been in the mood l8ly. also im way low on request lol so stop being shy and gimme some ideas.
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007

something random
wow wot a drag......still no printer/scanner. i need to go make me some $ and buy 1. hmmm. hey i no! i'll call around and ask 4 some $! XP lol wot a great idea. y didn't i think of that b4? *looks through a recent newspaper and seez an add that says "position open, pays 500K (K=1,000) per year* lol sweet ima call these ppl up. *calls # in the add* *ring* *ring!* RING!!* *picks up* "hello and thank you 4 calling the nasa space center, to speak to a secretary about a new shuttle designe plz press 1 now.....to discuss and/or propose a sponcership plz press 2 now.........for assistance with the new job offer plz press 3 now. *presses 3* "plz hold and an employee will assist u momentarily" *5 minz l8r* "hello this is the employment agency, which position do u plan on going 4?" "oh hey there. yea...hi. well i wanted that 1 that's in the paper u no.... that 1 that pays 500K per year. "o yes. i believe u meen the super computer technition and first class engineering position?" "ummm. sure, as long as i'm makin 500K a year. so were do i go to get my money?" well u will be payed 2X a month or every 2 weeks. after puting in a 175 hours of active working time at the verry least. u get 1 sick day out of ur whole carear with us. and u'll be tested for drugs and the like. of course we will need to see ur colledge and grade school records. any questions?" "..........wow didn't no there would b a drug test..... or that u would need my school records......specialy didn't no i had to work 4 it. no wot. im only 13 so ima have to get back 2 u on that 1 in a few years *hangs up* or not" "wow didn't no bout all that. guess my lazy but's not git'n a scanner much less a printer/scanner....mabey a broken 1 but i guess that doesn't count. o well, guess we all gotta w8 a few more weeks" lol XP. idk i was bored. i kinda made up the answering machine with the shuttle designe and sponcership thingy lol. hope u have a great time. enjoy the site and don't 4get 2 sign the gb or checkout my friends sites 2. if ur new to otaku then a big warm welcome from me and if u need a few friends or site tips lemme no. lol XP l8er all.
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