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Friday, April 10, 2009


How is everyone doing today? Well, I hope. Iím excited because the herbs I planted in a little pot are growing! Itís exciting for me because Iíve never planted anything in my life and to see them actually sprouting and growing makes me excited. So lame, I know but gotta appreciate the wonders of nature now and again.

So, on a semi-serious note I went to the doctor on Wednesday to talk to her about my moodiness, aggravation, getting pissed off for no particular reason, being sleepy all the time even when I sleep almost 10-11 hours a night, not wanting to do the things I love to do, losing weight, and well, constantly feeling guilty whenever I was actually happy. Whelp, Iím depressed! Duh, should have figured that one out. My doc couldnít believe I waited so long to come and see her about this because Iíve been feeling like for almost a year and had to get passed my stubbornness to finally go and do something about it since all the things I tried to do myself, would work maybe for a few days and then Iíd sink right back down. Oh, I hid it well, obviously but itís becoming harder and harder for me to mask it and Iím just plain tired of not feeling like me.

My doc put me on anti-depressants and I must have misunderstood her because she told me the symptoms I would most likely be feeling while I adapted to the medication would settle in about a week. Ney, what I didnít understand is that it would take about a week before the symptoms would stop. Itís literally changing around the chemicals in my brain and one of the side effects is muscle cramping and I just figured just a little cramp here and there but oh. My. GOD was I wrong. It literally felt like my muscles were contracting to the point that they wanted to bust through my skin. My mind was going a mile a minute and I just couldnít hold still, I was literally just doing circles around my apartment, murmuring to myself, Ďitís just the meds, itís just the meds, itís just the meds.í Thank goodness my doc prescribed some mad hard-core pain killers/muscle relaxers that calmed me down after I took it. I still feel like my neck is tighter than all ghetto but I can deal with thatÖand my hands are shaky too but I can deal with that as well. lol! But I do feel betterÖin the head anyway.*snicker*

Anyhoo, I hope you all have a wonderful Friday and weekend and for those lucky souls that actually have Sunday off, enjoy your Easter.^_^

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