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Vitals

Birthday
• 1991-02-13
Gender
• Female
Location
• Kentucky (soon to be Tennesee...)
Member Since
• 2004-07-20
Occupation
• 9th grade High School student
Real Name
• Alayna [pronounced: Uh-lay-nuh]. (tolerable) Nicknames are: Chibi Excel, areina-chan, bara-chan

Personal

Achievements
• saw/touched D'espairs Ray (best night of my life so far); maintained a reading/spelling level 4 grades above my own since elem. school
Anime Fan Since
• third grade when I met my 1st anime-crazy friend
Favorite Anime
• many many, but my favorites would probably be...Yu Yu Hakusho, Ayashi no Ceres, Kare First Love, & Samurai Champloo
Goals
• Attend a Duel Jewel concert and hug every member ^.^; widen my japanese vocabulary until I can read/speak it more fluently; go to Japan (in whatever way possible); learn how to make a kick ass site and conquer this evil computer!! *clutches keyboard*
Hobbies
• -drawing -writing -listening to visual kei/Jrock -looking at pics of my favorite bands -playing my guitar -playing the violin -playing my keyboard (with as little skills as I have ^^;;) -updating my sites/profiles
Talents
• obsessing (but who can't do that, lol); writing poetry/stories; drawing (in the right mood of course...); complaining *shifty eyes*

myOtaku.com: defectiverose13

Monday, September 12, 2005

Uggghhhh

I'm at home today so I may have time to update the theme. Refer to yesterday's late post please b/c im not explaining again.

I'm staying home for the reasons I said in my last post that made me unable to update, and b/c I think I may have strep throat.
-___- Joy, isn't it?

Yes well...nothing exciting so far and i dont expect anything exciting...
I'm trying to install soulseek, can anyone help? I know my Jen-chan can help but she isn't online as often as I wish she could be...

Mmm...okay rant time...
I really hate living here.
I hate the location.
I hate the people around here (with the exception of the cute little babies ^^)
I hate the school.
I just can't stand it.
I've tried to make the best out of it and it seemed to be going good for a little while, but now everything is just falling apart. All at once. And I can't take it for very much longer...
I dont mean that as in I'll go kill myself, I've learned that that is hte dumbest thing I could do, and it wont help anything.
Besides, I have goals I need to reach and will truly make me happy.
To other people they may seem like stupid and common goals only fangirls would have (i.e. meeting Duel Jewel is one of my biggest goals, but they are my idols and it would overjoy me and I have never been as happy as I know I could be.) or just a teenage thing and I'll get over it, but if I dont have goals that I know I want to achieve and I KNOW I will be happy once I do, then it keeps me going. Yes, Duel Jewel is not just a band to me, they keep me living, for real. Pathetic, isn't it?
But whatever helps, I hope people can understand that.
I was actually disappointed when things didnt turn out the way I wanted with the incidents that occured..and to the people who know what that is...is that wrong? To be disappointed that it didnt happen?

Well I guess I should just say it since you guys are probably confused...
i wont go into detail for privacy's sake but..
my parents were going to get a divorce, or rather, my otosan was leaving, and thus I was at Katie's all weekend like my last post said. I dont know if its going to happen now because we just found out my mom is bipolar and that is why she is such a freak sometimes.
But I feel kind of horrible to say this...I wanted it. I really did want it because I guess I just wanted the freedom. My dad said if it happened that me and him (yes i would go with him) would move so that I could go to the high school i want to go to, if we could.
I was so happy about it and I (like the idiot I am) got my hopes up...
Because I really hate this place so much that I'd do anything to get out of it.
I'm so selfish sometimes...
It's not that I dont care about my mom's feelings at all, that, in fact was the only reason I felt bad about the leaving thing... I mean yeah I dont get along with her but its my mom, chemical bond, you know?

*sigh*
Well I said i wouldnt go into detail and i really didnt do it much...there is a lot more to it...
I'll try to change the theme later.

~Areina-chan

::EDIT:: New theme is Kiwamu-san from BLOOD, like it?

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