Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Gah...Life sucked yesterday.

It is 10 after midnight right now. About. Yeah well, I was extremely depressed yesterday. Nothing new, if you know me. Blech...so no sympathy wanted, please, not that I think anyone has any in the first place. I felt like repeating the past, putting it vaguely, but I found the strength finally to resist. So that kind of helps, knowing that I have the ability to do that...we were SUPPOSED to go to the Asian Buffet, b/c my dad called from work to tell me to get ready to go, and that made me REALLY happy b/c when he called I was, well, as I said before, really down. But he ran later than expected b/c this idiot at his work delayed them from going home before 9:00. And the A.B. closes at 10 pm, so it was kind of pointless. That got me REALLY pissed off b/c it had made me happy in the first place to be able to go, and I had changed into some nice clothes and had done my hair and makeup, etc., then suddenly I couldn't go. But we'll go again soon...hopefully tommorrow. I get angry over some weird things, ne? *shakes head* I pulled an all-nighter on Sunday night, stayed up until about 6 am. I tried to stay up longer b/c I didnt feel tired really, until I layed down on the couch to watch TV. Damn my lack of common sense, NEVER lay down if you're afraid of falling asleep! Tip for life, people! Gah....oh and I found my necklace ^___^ Yay. I was SOOOO bored Monday, I wanted to scream! T_T No one was online to talk to and I was not in a fit state to be seen outside of my house b/c I was a bit too lazy and unmotivated to get ready to. *sigh* I looked up the code of conduct for the *insert curse word of choice here* school I must attend next year (Ryle High). And I must admit, I am going to be miserable. My happiness levels would increase tenfold if I were going to Boone (better high school, SO much better!!), but my parents don't want to drive me there every morning nor do they feel they should have to lie about where we live to do it. T.T Ryle sucks...badly...Grr...the ruels are so controlling and not ONE of the classes or clubs interest me. Boone on the other hand, has an anime club, has ALL my friends from middle school, not to mention I know a lot of older students there (i.e. Sakura-chan's brother, Jen, Rachel, Hannah, etc.) so Boone feels a lot safer to me. I hate life right now. I honestly do. Thinking about Ryle is like thinking about a gigantic pit of boiling, living acid, just waiting to melt your flesh and consume your bones until you are one with the liquid. No exaggeration. XP I wonder what would happen if I got expelled....o_o I'd probably be sent to a fucking catholic school...nuns scare me...and I'm not even a christian....okay that idea is out. No expulsion. Nope. No nuns for me. WAAII!! WILLY WONKA, JOHNNY DEPP STYLE!! Gomen, the commercial was just on, lol. T___T I wanna see that soooooooo bad. I love Tim Burton's films and Johnny Depp makes ol' Willy look H-O-T, lol. In case you don't know, I happen to love Johnny Depp to the death, lol. Ask my friends, I have a folder full of magazines with interviews not to mention the poster/pics on my wall XD it's reminants from last year when I was TRULY obsessed with him. Scary, ne? Mwahahaha, looks strange does he not? I think I liked him better as Edward Scissorhands. Well...that is it for now. If necessary I will report later. baibai! (Haido-san! *purr* *rubs face on screen* .____.;) (Natsuki-kun!! ^____^ I love this little weirdo...I love him so much. lol) ~Areina-chan

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Monday, June 20, 2005

Thanks all ^__^

Well, first, thank you to Yume_sama, sango18, gothic_kaiba, and Gray-Nightmares for voting, b/c the pic I posted today was chosen by you guys. *squeezes* Arigato gozaimasu. Honto ni. ^__^ Anyway, before the fabulous pics of magicalness come up, I'll post. Not much to talk about b/c, as usual, it's early in the morning. I.E quarter after 1 am. Yes. Well, I got really bored and since there IS a trampoline I never use in my backyard, and it was dark so no one would see me, I went outside to try to break my neck on the thing (no, not literally XP). I won't go out in daylight, or if the shades are open. I hate people watching me, perhaps it is evere paranoia or something. *shrug* but anyway, I took off one of my favorite necklaces (a sword with celtic dragons swirling around it, I like it T_T *sniff*) b/c it was long and bouncing around (WHOA that sounded more wrong than intended XD) and being the LAZY BAKA that I am, I threw it over to my porch, meaning to pick it up on my way in. Well not five minutes later my dog started barking at me b/c she wanted up on the tramp, and I wouldnt let her so I got pissed off and dragged her inside, completely spacing the necklace until a few hours later. I couldn't find it even WITH a damend flashlight so now I have to wait until daylight *sigh* See? I have no life, lol. But I did upgrade my photobucket albums and now the Malice Mizer and Dir en Grey albums are enormous, thanks to a great little site I found with tons of pics, if I ever find that site's creator I'll hug them. ^__^ So much Jrock...heh heh heh. I'm sad T.T There is no good TV on at night on Sunday's besides Degrassi but after that it's all shit, and my TV tortures me, b/c there is one channel called nicktoons that plays Invader Zim, and it shows up on guide, but we don't have it available. So when we first got the tv stations up, and I first saw it, I flipped, thinking I could finally watch IZ, but then it crushed my dreams and I shriveled up and died when it wouldn't play. Okay, a bit of an exaggeration, but it's close enough. *sniff* I miss Gir... Anyway, here are the winning pix I promised, you shoudl be able to tell who they are ~.^ Totshi-san in all his amazing sexiness ^__^ Shinya-san looking...pink... Kaoru-san....*licks computer screen* Die-san...now what could he POSSIBLY be asking for? heh heh... Kyo-san, looking adorable ^.^ (Sshh...don't tell him I said that o__o) Dir en grey in all it's glory...eating like cows...aren't they perfect gentlemen? ^__^ Now what's Diru without a little yaoi? *hentai grin* Okay, that's all you get, lol. I was tempted to put another set of the members, but nah, I think I'll keep my greediness ^_^ lol Bai for now, guys! ~Areina-chan

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Sunday, June 19, 2005

*yawn*

*yawns again* nnn...I just woke up, it's around...*looks slowly at clock* *blink blink* 12:30 in the afternoon...yeah...I had missed S-Cry_ed last night so I had to stay up to watch it the second time around even though I got tired early, then I realized I had tivo so I just hit record and I'll have to watch it today, lol. I AM a smart one, ne? Adult swim was good last night, I didn't really pay much attention to Inuyasha, it was a little boring...Trigun was good also, one of the funnier episodes. I think we were supposed to go out to eat breakfast today...heh ^^; yeah right, it's a little late for that, now isn't it? So now we have to go out to eat dinner *sigh*. I don't like going out to eat for one reason. I usually overeat there b/c the plates have a lot of food or if it's a buffet I'm stupid and don't pay attention to how much food I have until I sit down. And it's even worse at the A.B. (Asian Buffet) b/c I'm usually checking out the waiter or the cooks and then I REALLY don't pay attention to what I'm eating. lol, I'm so pathetic. XD Anyway...Last night my mom took me to go buy a card for my dad, which is the reason why I missed S-Cry-Ed, I was gone for that half hour and AGAIN forgot to record -.-; I coudlnt' decide on what kidn of card to get him though, a sweet one or a funny one, even though all the "humor" cards were stupid. I couldn't find any sweet ones I felt comfortable with though, I don't know I guess I'm weird but I read the words inthem and it didn't feel right to give to him, it was sweet to say, but my gut feeling was just...it was wrong. You know those feelings? It is difficult to explain. Lol, Jen (Katie's sis, remember) is learning Mandarin Chinese now along with Japanese b/c she wants to say something to the Chinese guys or know a little about what they are talking about. She sent me this online site that teaches you some basics just so I could see what she was doing and maybe add in some small Chinese words into my vocabulary. The thing is, even if I learned it I would NEVER have the guts to talk to them in it, I can't even talk to them in english. Gah, it sucks being a teenager sometimes -.-; I feel so cliche, lol. Though I did learn how to say hi, don't I feel special. I'm sticking to Japanese though, I don't want to do 2 @ once because knowing the efficiency of MY brain, I'll get confused. My picture of the day: It's Ruka from Nightmare! ^___^ He's so sexy, isnt' he? lol. I'll post another pic tommorrow, but I want you guys to decide what it shouild be b/c I have trouble making decisions, lol. If this goes like usual and you decide that you are too good to vote for it, I'll bite you. (there's a rock solid threat, eh? -.-;) 1) Dir en Grey 2) Hyde 3) Pierrot Okay...yes out of those 3. ^^ I'll personally thank you in the next post for voting, so then you can feel special. Now... DO IT OR FEEL THE WRATH OF MY TEETH! *ahem* I mean if you have the time *innocent eyes* lol, I'm an idiot, gomen nasai. ~Areina-chan

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Saturday, June 18, 2005

time: 12:52 am ; Whoa o_o

I'm watching Degrassi, again. This is the most intense episode I've ever seen, poor Craig... I teared up while reading a Kami-san bio a little earlier, it was so sad. And then earlier than that I was reading a hide-san bio and teared up. T.T So much death, so much grief. And I read that Kami-san died when he was 27, and that is when Kurt Cobain died, along with two other american legends. Weird, ne? I finally got my photobucket albums organized and now I have more room on my hardrive b/c I oculd delete all the pix off it and upload them ^^ Which means my otosan won't be as mad when I DL other stuff. And because I'm not gonna tell him...o_o; bai for now, not much else to talk about. Heh heh. ~Areina-chan

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Friday, June 17, 2005

I like this shirt o___o

http://www.akadotretail.com/shop/shop_showbook.php?id=yaoitm (copy & paste link into browser) XD I need this shirt, I would get stared at everywhere. That is the link to it, b/c the pics are kind of hard to see. But I'll try to post em anyway, cuz I just like it that much. front of shirt: back of shirt: haha, I love it. *grin* Watching Samurai Champloo...rerun (of course, it's Thursday, what should I be expecting?)... Aack! My dog's tail is lethal T.T It just bit me...or hit me..wchich ever you prefer. *sigh* I feel so weird today...I don't know why, I guess it's just loneliness getting to me...that is probably it. I am goingto try and order my Duel Jewel shirt again soon...maybe tommorrow. I hope it works *tear tear*...if not I'll ask if I can order the CD that came out in February instead. I just feel so bad for not supporting my favorite band...*sniff* hit me please. *bows head* *yawn* Ugh it's not even that late, why the hell am I tired?! It's only 12:42...T_T that's just wrong...Well I suppose I should go to sleep soon...then I can get up earlier to go out and walk the dog or something. Blech, I hate exercise, but it's the only way. *sigh* Damn my conceited nature...does that make me conceited? I mean to always, constantly be worrying about my weight? I would think it's semi-normal but I kind of overdo it... I guess I just feel bad b/c I don't feel worth anything, like I'll be alone all the time. Even if I ever get a boyfriend I'd probably feel guilty b/c I don't deserve them or something...and I'd feel like they deserve someone better. My relationships are all going to be in jeopardy. Stupid, ne? *shakes head* baibai! ~Areina-chan

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

Listening to: Buck Tick ~ Aku no Hana

*yawn* 3:18 pm...I only woke up about an hour and a half ago...*scratches head* you know those days when you have the sneaking feeling that you're late for something? Yeah well, last night I dreamnt I was going to bed and had to setm y alarm for 6:00 am to go to school...and then after I went to sleep in my dream I woke up in reality. And I came downstairs, still drowsy, then looked up at the clock and freaked, thinking I was going to be late for schol, until I remembered what season it was...smart, ne? *shakes head* I'm too delirious in the morning...afternoon...whatever it is right now... I'm getting around to drawing more finally, or at least getting the urge to want to. I haven't drawn a picture in a couple months which is saying something in my case...too caught up in the infectous boils breaking out on the surface of my life...*sigh* Hm...I need to go buy my hair dye...but where to buy it from...*ponders*...I still don't think I have gotten a straight answer from my okasan about it, but I know I can dye my ends XP nothing compared to what my otosan agreed to about my WHOLE head but, meh...better than nothing I suppose...What do you guys think? Should I try for purple? I want red and I think that's the safest way to go with my psycho 'rents, but if I can get away with purple I'll try it. *mischievous grin* Reminds me of Kaoru-san, lol. My hands smell like peaches...T.T Damned scented lotion...it's making me hungry...advice for life, if you're attempting to eat less, don't buy food-scented objects (i.e. lotion, candles, etc.) lol. Especially if you're will power is as low as mine, temptation is terrible with me XD Whoa the song changed...o_o It's Berry by Dir en Grey...*eye twitches* I am not entirely sure why I adore this song so much...it just makes me laugh and back away in fear at the same time, you know? lol. *pets Kyo-san's fluffy muffinhead* ^.^ What a ferocious little monster. So kawaii though (I hope he never hears me say that, I happen to want to live past fourteen, lol) Departing! baibai ~Areina-chan P.S. What the hell, have a pic: Haha, I love the MiyavixPanda pix ^.^

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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Food...@____@ *stomach rumbles*

My dad is making shrimp pasta....it's wonderful aroma is compelling me to eat it... I just returned from Katie's house ^^ It was quite fun I missed being over there. I spent the night, as usual XP lol At first I didn't think I would have to annoy anyone with another encounter of the hot peope above her apartment, bu just my luck, something happened ^__^. Not really anything big, though. It was almost RIGHT before my dad got to her house to pick me up, we looked outside (to see if he had come for me yet) and saw the pretty waiter (^.^ *faints* lol, j/k) walking down the sidewalk with a box. Heh heh heh...can you feel the excitement in the air? A box, oh so very sexy X_x lol Again, I'm going to say it, visit Katie's site! Especially if you are a Jrock fan b/c she is my Jrock-fanatic-best-friend, hehe. ^^ okay, my apologies. Gomen nasai, lol. Erg, I'm glad I am an only child (okay, not really, my brother lives in Utah though so he kind of doesn't count...) b/c I wanted to KILL Katie's little brother *demonic glare* He's seven years old and has the WORST temper if you don't give in to his annoyingness (new word...hehe)*jaw twitches* I don't mind Jen (Katie's oldest sis), I love Jen XD, even though Katie kind of...has that sibling rivalry thing BIG time with her. o___o But anyway, young ones can be so...flustering *-* unless they are tiny chibis, I like tiny chibis ^^ Okay well, damn it all I hate being female right now ;__; and I'm going to hate it for a few days *hint hint* lol. I thought I should announce that to this entire community, so everyone would know XD Also it's kind of crucial because remember my fiery temper I told you guys about before? It's a bit more...unpredictable now. So no worries about slightly more bitchiness, okay? ^^ I'm losing weight!! Yes!! Woohoo!! Party!! Only like ten thousand eighty-seven more before I'm as skinny as Miyavi! XD I'm so bad about this, gomen. You must excuse my constant complaining about my appearance if you are not used to it by now, lol. Okay, well, here is my departure! Sayonara! *~*~Areina-chan~*~* (<---oooh...sparkly things... ._.)

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

*sniff* ;_;

I woke up to a rather saddening scne in my room today. Shrill cries of agony from a half-dead baby bird as my dog ran the cat off from finishing his dirty work. I panicked and jumped out of my bed and picked it up in a towel. It squawked for a minute or two and I had to wake up my mom to ask her what the hell I should do with it. It calmed down when it finally realized I wasn't going to hurt it, but then I got to examining it and almost cried when I found injuries to it's head...I won't explain them it kind of made me sad and htey were pretty nasty. Anyway I took it outside b/c there was two pretty angry robins out there (I'm assuming it's parents b/c they fucking divebombed me when he made a sound -.-;). But then a cat cam from next door and I'm really soft on hurt animals so I took it back in. The point is it died, in my hands, and I'm a big baby I know, but it was sad! T^T Oh well, at least it can pass on to it's next life now... See?! Drama over a bird! It's the curse of my life, guys, lol. On a happier note, I'm watching a rather amusing moviw called "The Barbarian and the Geisha" or something like that. It's a late 50's film and it's so....fifties-like, you know? lol. But every time I hear a word I understand in Japanese I announced it to my mom, she probably wanted to kill me XD It stormed sooo bad today. And only for about ten minutes too...thunder, lightning, hail, rain. Then it just stopped. Kentucky weather is just weird... Well, since Yahell is being a total bitch to me, I have to change my name, at least until it decides it's going to let my old one work again b/c I liked my old one T_T THe problem is I don't remember all the names on my list and I can't log onto YIM to find out in the first place. Is there a way to find ur list on yahoo.com by any chance? We all know I suck with computers, so assistance is needed! Thanks to Dark_Bloody_Heart for trying to help me, btw. ^^ *sigh* baibai ~~*~~ Areina-chan

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Monday, June 13, 2005

AACCK!!! ;___;

YIM is being a total fuckhead and it won't let me sign in on my s/n. Any other s/n entered in it will work, but not mine. Wtf is it with htings hating me?! Ideas anyone? ANYTHING? I've restarte my computer to see if it worked but alas, I am still without instant messenger. T_T If it does start working, I will inform in the comments, okay? So then anyone who DOES have the ability to help does not have to bother. Again, if u can help, thanx sooo much! *bow bow*

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Argh!!! *smacks head repeatedly on desktop*

Yet again, I'm locked inside this prison of a house for another week or so b/c my dear friend Katie's okasan won't let anyone over again nor can anyone leave to go to any of their friends' houses. I flipped for about an hour and was extremely pissed off ( I get mad easy sometimes ^^; bad habit) but I turned on Kittie and started putting up more anime pics on my wall and looking through some old drawings and stuff, and picked up my floor a bit so the carpet is actually SOMEWHAT visible now. I found some great drawings Katie did, damn I am jealous of her. I'll try to convince her to scan some to her site ^^ lol Listening to Ash, I love this song, it reminds me of DEG yaoi XD If you've ever seen the infamous clip you'd know what I was talking about, hehehe. Gotta love Totchi-san, ne? Oh, like the new theme? It took a while to find the BG *drool* but it was well worth it. tell me you can see it!! If you can't I'll cry b/c it is a sexxxy background!! ;_; Well, I doubt anything new will happen, remember, locked in the house all day and week! *sigh* I'm too lazy to go outside and I don't want to make any friends with people around here, they'r not my type of people, you know? So lonely... .___. All I have is my kitties and this DAMNED KOINU to bite my things and body parts -.-; joy, ne? lol Baibai! ~Areina-chan

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