Well the critisism keeps coming but more harsh, and now I am forced to take action. Not the best way to start a new year but I guess you have to do what you have to do. Hate that things have to be this way but it can't be helped. As the "Knight's Code" calls for, A knight will never start a fight, but he will return fire when anything threatens him or that which he has vowed to defend. And since the first stone was cast at me, I decided to become aware, but now they keep coming. Like this little Jewel from a long time friend Tessa.Somebody wants you. Somebody needs you. Somebody dreams about you every single night. Somebody can't breathe. Without you it's lonely. Somebody hopes that one day you will see that somebody's me.
"I am sorry but I can not trust you to do that, but by all means go ahead and kill your self. I mean hey your drinking too and that kills your brain in a way..
besides it does not matter what I say you never listen, and I could never stop you anyway I was just trying to be a good friend ... But that does not matter I guess, so go ahead live your life the way you want too I am not stopping you."
It's a pretty crappy message but if that is how she feels, after I told her to trust me, then I have to take action. Luckly I have a unique tallent, I call it "Pulling a Howl." I have an uncanny ability to dissapear off of radar without a trace. It's simple for me as long as I feel cut off from the person, not saying it doesn't suck or I don't miss the person but I will not be around for you to channel anger around and through. Life is to short to have any grudges, and this way they can move on with life. Plus, no bridges get burned, just get unused for a while or in the worst case, never. But a time will give her and a few others time to clear there heads and make them realize I have committed no crime to be persecuted.
I hope to tone down the negativity in the next post or two, I have less then a month before I am on a plane ride home to see my mom, dad, brother, and closest friends. I am stoked, so to get ready, I have been ordering lots of magic cards and a new cell phone because mine is El Broko! So we'll see if I see it before we "Land Ho" Hawaii in a couple of weeks.
Well that is all I have for now, keep on rockin' in the free world and never stop being you! Life's a garden, dig it! ^^ And hopefully the next post or so I won't be in fighting knight mode.
Current Song: The Future Is a Lion's Heart by Darren Hayes
The Dark Rose Enigma ~~<@