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myOtaku.com: CosmicSailor
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Thursday, March 25, 2004
This Just In
 | This report just came over the wire to me direct from myself. I'm back to verbally rip myself to shreds again, not that anyone cares or anything. I've done this often enough that I don't even take myself seriously anymore. I'd be lying if I said I believed that. I do take what I feel seriously even when no one else will. Tune in to live full coverage as it happens. The loser is loose and spreading chaos in his wake.
That's what I think of myself now, plain and simple. I do well on offline projects, but online I'm just a ridiculous, failing, foolish, loser. I'd go on, but even I have to stop somewhere before I crack and go truly mental. The pounding of the neighbor's music is already annoying me enough for that on it's own.
I don't have anything else to say, and won't here. When I can get my art accepted somewhere, you can ____ well bet it won't be here, then I'll be less self demeaning. Until then, I have nothing nice to say about myself. I'm truly the one at fault if the garbage I think is art isn't posted I guess. I and those around me must think too highly of my skill to see it for the low class, generic, and downright awful junk it is. But I can't say that for sure without having other people see it and tell me what I can to to improve myself as an artist NOW CAN I? All I know is what I tell myself, and that is it's good enough to try, should be good enough to see. It's my delusions I suffer from, delusions of actually being good at something, when the fates have already told me I'm not supposed to be good at anything.
Look If I'm just wasting my time here, let me know and I'll leave. I make it a point to never stay where I'm not wanted, and if that's the case here tell me already so we can move on with our lives in peace. I'm to stupid to recognise it myself so you'll have to speak up.
Anime Nightmares to myself and Anime Dreams to everyone else. We all deserve what we get.
~Cosmicsailor | |
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