Wednesday, August 29, 2007

   BORING!!!
i am so bored...also tired...

Work always kills me but i always have energy to talk to friends and wake up the next day to redo the same shit...and never whine...its just...i feel as if i am suck...where i can get out but only if i had some help..and the help isn't there...but hey i'll live...i got this far...

U guys have great days while i work my ass off lol

Holla Back!!!
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Monday, August 13, 2007

To add to the pile of depression...
I just found out 4 days after it had happen...my grandfather died...it sucks so much and i really hate myself for not telling him i am trying to be on my own and be a man about everything...now he is gone...and now i will never have the chance of telling him he was a great grandpa and a great man...

He was a WWII bomber and he was a really great man...he love us all so much...he gave us all a great deal of respect ...and now he is gone...

I miss him...i just wanted him to be proud that i am making a forward effort in making something out of me...

Damn it...why does everything sad...depressive and all hatred to me..it kills me to know that i will never see him again..

or the fact...that i never get to show him i am a great grandson and now i am very depressed and now i just don't know what i am going to show him...

He was a great man in all ways...i loved him and i never got to tell him...god Show him what respect he rightfully deserve...show him that u love him and that u are for him for all eternity...

PLease have my grandfather in ur prayers

His Name was Randall Grant Sands...yes the same name as me...that one reason i love him...and i will carry his name proudly and show him that i will be there for him..

and pray for me to know that i will be even a fifth of what he was...
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Sunday, July 22, 2007

   ....what can i do....
My life so far is going slower and slower into a hole...more money debt...more depression problems and yet nothing better...

My GF doesn't want to talk to me...becuz i think she is cheating on me..and so far that will be the 5th gurl to throw a hatchet into my heart....

I barely make enough money to feed myself let alone pay my rent and bill i freg. get...

i just never get a break...

i just want to be helped...
I know some of u guys don't want to hear this...but u guys...

I am really at state of depression...and i don't think i'll be able to get out of it...

I mean if u guys know my friends...u would know i am a very out going guy...very funny...and is a pleasure to be around..

but in my time by myself...i have depression problems...its been like this since i moved away from my parents...

the responsibilities doon't help me when i am in the state that i am in...i just can get away from them....

i just feel like i an never be happy but i try around people...other people make me happy when they laugh...not at my jokes or humor releif..but when they are happy...

just to be around aperson that will be ther for me..would also help me...not just a GF but a person that would care for me just a little...not that most people around me make me feel like shit by telling me i will never progress in life and u'll never be better then what u are now...

I just want ya'll to know that i am feeling really horrible atm..and i am hurting bad...and deep....

i just need a little love...that all..
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Saturday, June 30, 2007

   What a bind i am in now....
Well all good things come to a end when u do something stupid...i lost my car...got it impounded...ya i rather not talk about why...but i will live...

Well i have a good job now and it pays good enough..and hopefully i make it out of the hole i am in atm...soon...i will be hapopy once again..again i will be happy...
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Thursday, May 10, 2007

   Well...good things always come to a end
Well lets start on a bad note..

I found out my GF is cheating on me...and not becuz she doesn't love me..its becuz she just doesn't know when to quit...
She swore to me that she loved me...and idid the same...she just didn't keep her side of the bargain...

To the lighter News....
I get paid tomarrow and iamgoing to visit some old peeps of mine...
And also go shopping for my new car..New Petals and a new stereo brace (The screw holes on mine are broken...Go Figure) and a few other things...but hey i'm happy about it..

Well Everyone...just keep me in the prayers and i'll do the same for u :D
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Wednesday, May 9, 2007

   Well Damn...
I feel great...what could i doto make others day better...Visits? hang out with them? bah...i need to get gas for my car first >_< i'll live...stay at home and watch television or draw something...

So lonely here...no ones ever home..everyone else is at work..and all i can do is sit and wait...But i'll live...

I want to go to the mall..but no one would be there any how...malls over rated...lol...god that sound so bad...i feel like a snob now LOL...does someone want to hit me with a nerf bat? seriously...i am terribly bored oUt Of mY MiND!!!

Well i am going to do something stupid or worth my while...Bye Churwin's (Children for u rich white kids)
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Monday, April 30, 2007

   SUCKA!!!
I hit a 100 post...thats all for now :P
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Friday, March 9, 2007

   I feel dirty!!!
Oh My God!!!

I am such a flirt at work and the women love it...and for some reason..i can't stop...i need to...cuz its something call Sexual Harrasment.....That is they like to charge me with it...lol i told u a feel dirty... lol

I drove my frav. Car today..lol

Suburu WRX STI...Twin Turbo Bitches....lol oh its was fucking nice...comfortable and fast as shit...but i hate to say it...i won't buy one...Cost to damn much....

lol well i am out of here...hope u guys love they pretty days ahead of u guys...see ya later kitties!!!
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Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Uh OH!!!
Almost a 100 visits...this is getting exciting :D
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Wow
Work was fun...but i got one day off for week...yay...i never get a day off...

I drove a 745i BMW today....funzzors took itfor a drift run at the nearst parking lot....hehe its a great car...well i am off to help friends and loved ones

Love,
Randall
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