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Monday, January 29, 2007
Current mood: Lifeless
Physic condi: Okay
FAve song : Broken to pieces
Site : not working on
Today:
I can dream all I want But I know it will never happen,
Ohio otaku,
Today I was woken up to get back on here by angelbest dream, to be quite frank I didn't feel like it... I've been feeling quite bad lately.. even though I want to hide it, especially from my mom she wouldn't understand, and
ontop that I feel shitty, I also neglected my sisters, shishou and steph, my friends lyt and silver, I feel horrible... about everything about myself, I didn't want to turn 17... I don't even want to be here,
I like it when I sleep, when I can just leave this place behind even if it's for a few hours,
it's awfull, I'm rather asleep then awake, because I know I'm not good enough to be what I want,
I'm a bad friend, even though I want to be a good one, I'm a terrible sister, even though I'm still so glad I got siblings now, I want a job to make my mom happy but I can't find one, I want to do good in school.. but I'm a complete faillure, I feel terrible and the only way I can get out is sleeping or drawing.. or watching anime and forgetting everything around me,
it's almost lyt's birthday, I'm gonna get her card ready tomorrow, but first I need to get her adress again, I cant'find the paper anymore I wrote it on.. *sigh* antoher bad part about me
I hate myself... I hate the fact that I wastn there for my big sister when she needed me.. and thatI'm not able to be there for her when she needs me... and I can't be there for my smaller sister.. I feel useless... alone.. I feel so much everything but good...
God it feels good that that's finally out...
thanks ab.. vor making me come back, I shall try . and be more on here... for my sisters and friends sake, if they still want me that is..
even though I have been neglecting you all.. I still love you all.. dont'forget that.. pleas...
Ja ne,
cati <.> Iris
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