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Thursday, December 15, 2005


   Sleepy, sleepy, sleepy
The house is finally moderately silent. Before the kids were over here all of the time I used to take this silence and early morning for granted. Boy, do I appreciate it now!
There is nothing going on. I guess I could eat breakfast. Ever since Blas got that kidney stone, I am tring to get him to eat better. Organic, like I do. I don't understand though why people think organic means no flavor. I think what I am going to do is find the organic version of a food he likes and then just slip it in on him and tell him afterwards. After eating organic for so long, I can taste the chemicals in normal food. It sucks though, since there are a lot of foods that I like that I can't find organic here, and to eat them gives me a stomach ache afterwards because of all of the crap in it...Hell, I am going to try to get the whole family eating my organic stuff. I bet the boys wouldn't have to take their ritalin so much and the little ones wouldn't be as fussy. I guess it is just one of those side effects of being raised by hippies, eat natural. Do pretty much everything natural. Even cigarettes, lol.
Well, we are going back to dad's this weekend, and I am scared to death that he isn't going to like Blas. He isn't white, I think that will be the biggest thing. But dad can't say shit, my step brothers and sister are half mexican. If he says anything, we'll just leave. Plain and simple. I don't have the time to be looked down upon by people who are closed minded about race. He can smoke pot all day, but I bring someone home who isn't white and the shit hits the fan.
My arms hurts.
I'm off to eat something before I drop from low blood sugar. So I'll leave you with a video to watch for now. Laters!

V.



Really Rich Italian Satanists

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Tuesday, December 13, 2005


Lil old me
I found this, and I thought I would share this with everyone! This was taken at Gradnite at Disney when I was 17, I think. I am on the right of Stitch in my old goth get-up that was the uniform of my high school days, lol. On the left is my friend Heather, who on that night became "Heath" to see how many straight girls she could trick into thinking she was a guy and possibly making out with them. I love my Hearod the Gayrod!


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   Good Morning Sunshine!!
Gods it is cold, lol. Even for Florida, it is cold as hell. And since my house was built in 1962, we don't have an attic or central a/c. No heat, full tile floor, I just want to wrap up in a blanket and sleep all day.
I lost my soda. Vonnie needs caffeine.... And it was the last one too.
So how has everyone been? Everything has been blah here. No christmas decorations. I think we are one of the only houses on the block without. I don't think I want to do a big christmas thing this year, because it is going to suck. This will be my last christmas with my dad before he moves to Colorado. I don't want him to move, but the living expense down here is too high for him to make next to nothing a week and then have to pay a ton of bills, that my step mom doesn't help with at all. He has never seen her check, so all is on him.
I don't have much to say right now. I still need to unpack the stuff I brought back from dads. i still have a bunch of boxes at his house that I have no clue what I am going to do with. I think I will get the important stuff out and just take the rest to goodwill or something. I haven't seen it in months so it mustn't be too important to me or else I would have wanted it by now!
Ok, I'll post more when I think of more.

Laters,
V.

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Monday, December 12, 2005


   Blah blah blah!
Thanks for stopping by and leaving comments for me to read! I just got back from my dad's last night, and I had time to answer a PM before I fell out for the night in my comfy new blanket! :-) My dad and Kathy got me a down comforter for my birthday. It is the greatest! It got really super cold that night (and last night) so I couldn't have gotten it at a better time. I feel really bad though. They forgot to take the price tag off, and they paid $180 for the thing. If it was me buying for myself I wouldn't have a problem, but they already have money problems so I feel simply awful. Just a card or something would have worked. And my big sissy gave me a really pretty ring with three hearts on it. One for me, one for her, one for dad. I met her roughly a year ago, so I nearly cried when dad told me what it meant. Teresa and I are super emotional, lol. I guess after spending my whole life not knowing I had a sister, and her spending her life not knowing where her dad was...Just a big mess of tears!
The stay at dad's was great except for the worry. I was almost in Bartow (just passing Alturas I think) when Jeremy called to tell me Blas was in the hospital. I was already about an hour and thirty minutes away from home, ready to turn back. He is fine, got out the same day, but they gave him some sort of super strong meds and he was out like a light for the better part of saturday. I was a nervous wreck.
Ok. About me and my grandmother. Well, she has never liked my dad. Since I am a lot like my dad, she doesn't get along with me. She is the type that likes to have everyone under her thumb, and when they rebel she gets her knickers in a twist. I have always been like my dad's side of the family, free spirited almost borderline hippie. I feel that if there is a natural way, take that over anything. Well, she has, for the lack of a better term, the "good old boys" mentality. Things have to be done in a certain way or she doesn't like it. It started when I was little when I started getting more into natural healing and education instead of wanting to do beauty pageants or twirling. I told her I would rather sit and read a good book than go out in front of a crowd caked with makeup. I may be the youngest grandchild, but I was by far the smartest. Then I started openly practicing paganism. Now in a Southern Baptist home (mom's side), that was the work of the devil. My dad didn't give a shit, my uncle and aunt on his side have always been doing things like that! Ok, so granny and I had a little love/hate relationship that maintained until I graduated. When I was born she started a college fund for me which I was counting on so I didn't work for a scholarship in high school. She got pissed about that and told me she would only give me enough money for a few classes a semester. Whatever, I worked full time and that was all I really had time for to begin with. That was before she found out I wasn't majoring in law or medicine. She jerked all of my money out from under me, so my aunt and I ended up going together to get the $500 for my classes, leaving me to take care of my books myself (roughly $100). That was just for two classes, one of which I had to drop because of work. That caused even more family drama with granny. She has always compared me to my other cousins, and it has gotten on my nerves. I was the pretty smart one, she basically wanted me to be the pretty dumb one and do things as she wished. I am not saying I have done the best out of the whole family, by a long shot. Two of my cousins are in the medical field. One is a hair dresser, which now she is pushing me for. I love art, but I can't do my own hair and makeup let alone someone else's. I mean, I have other cousins that are doing far worse than me. One has served jail time recently, another hasn't worked for a year. I haven't had a job for six months or so because the job market here in Okeechobee isn't worth a damn. That is besides the point. The real clincher, I am dating a mexican. I am the only person in the family to date someone who isn't white. Every white man I have ever dated has ended up treating me like shit, so I have found dating latin men works out much better for me. He may have been into some bad shit, but he didn't have anything on his criminal record until his lisence was taken (because of his ex-wife who got three tickets in the van which was in his name). It's a big mess, and my fingers are tired from typing it all, lol.
And as for who the man in my last post was, it is King Sexy Man Jonathan Davis, the lead singer of a great band named Korn. Oh, my first love, lol. And damn good live! Especially when he comes out dressed in that kilt...
Ok, enough babbling for now. It is cold, I need to take a shower to warm up and actually be productive today! Christmas shop and job hunt, what a combo!
No picture today, my computer is a bitch. I turned it off before I left, and my account got deleted somehow so I lost everthing but my shared folder from limewire. So I need to go find some more stuff to share.

Hugs,
V.

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Saturday, December 10, 2005


Over the river and through the woods
...to grandmother's house we go!! Not actually, my grandmother and I have a love hate relationship. I love to be myself to piss her off, she hates me for doing it.
Anyway, I am going to my dad's today, by myself. Because my boyfriend's ex wife is so dependent on him that she can't find another babysitter to watch the kids so she calls him instead. I swear, half of the time she calls him for the most rediculous (sp?) things. I am waiting on the day she calls him to ask which shoe goes on which foot, or how to button her shirt. Possibly even ask how to turn on the lamp. She never ceases to amaze (and annoy) me. I am just tired of having kids five out of seven days a week. I can see it now, I am going to be one of those mom's that hands the kid over to daddy in the evenings and say "Ok, done playing mommy now, I'm off to the bar!!" My dad used to pull that, lol.
I was just really set on my dad meeting Blas. I feel they are going to get along famously, but I will never be able to find out if she keeps giving us the kids every weekend. I told him to tell her that next weekend we are going to my dad's, and if she can't find a sitter she is shit out of luck. Don't call my phone. I've already given my warnings. She calls my phone or swings by here, she is going to get a piece of my mind. And possibly a foot in the ass. Depends on how I feel at the time and what shoes I am wearing. Last night I was truely upset. The only thing the pissyness did was help me beat Jenova while on the cargo ship on the way to Costa del Sol. Then I got stuck in that damn casino...that's besides the point. I was completely livid.
My mom took my car for some reason. Her's is right next to mine in complete working order, yet she takes Yetta. I need my iPod to charge it so I can have music on the way. I don't get the good Tampa and Orlando stations until I reach in between Lake Wales and Bartow, so I need music, lol. I was watching this thing on TV yesterday, and I never really realized how twisted people in Polk County are (no offense to anyone from Polk who by chance will read this). There was this guy who poisoned his neighbours in Alturas. I didn't catch why, but he was a self taught chemist and put some sort of poison in their sodas. They got him, but that is a sick fuck to want to do that to his neighbours. He even killed the woman, but the two sons survived. Sick, sick people. Just terrorize them with loud music and pain in the ass loud dogs. Possibly house parties at all hours of the night....Not poison them. I used to bribe mine. With pizza. My neighbours kids used to take their skating rails and ramps out in the middle of the road and I have nearly hit them on a number of occasions. I just bribed them with a few pizzas and threatened to haul off the stuff if I ever hit it. Problem solved. Haven't seen the ramps in a year. But that could also be because of the new skate park in town...I dunno.
Gods I'm tired. I slept like crap because I was so upset last night. And now I have a good two/two and a half hour drive ahead of me.
I'm gonna go eat before I go into some sort of shock from my hypoglycemia.
See everyone in a few days!

Oh, before I forget, the word of the day is brought to you by Jon Davis. Just look at his hand!

V.


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Friday, December 9, 2005


Latest happenings
I don't know why I titled this latest happenings, since nothing has really happened lately. My life has been just as boring as ever, and I don't really have anything to talk about.
Well, I'm going to my dad's this weekend come hell or high water. There is this kick ass comic book store in Lakeland that I want to go to, if I can find the damn place. It was really cool, and they gave me two different mangas for free. I can't remember what they are now off the top of my head since I don't have them here. I keep things at my dad's for entertainment, since I never know when I am going to end up there for a full week instead of a weekend. Like during hurricane Wilma. I thought I would be there for two days, I ended up there for five. I need to bring my DVD player home from there, that way I can stick it in the living room for the kids to watch movies because they have another thing coming if they think I am going to put the PS2 out there. The two older boys nearly broke one of my controllers fighting over it, and if it would have gotten broken I would have kicked some major ass. Sure, I only paid $50 bucks for the thing from a pot head in the Haven, but it was in perfect condition, I got two controllers and a couple of memory cards out of the deal. I fed his addiction, he fed mine. Enough said. It is my baby and I will hurt anyone who hurts it. I don't have the money to go buy another one and I am in the middle of FFVII. I also have to keep the memory cards away from the boys too, or else they will erase them on "accident". Blas had nearly everything in FFX. I mean everything. Every little secret, the sphere grids filled for everyone. Some 150 odd hours. The boys accidentially erased it. They hid for about two days, I think. Blas saw red. Gods, we are nerdies, lol.

I was hunting through my old stuff and I found an old icon I had started but never did anything with, but I thought it was cute anyway so you are going to see it!



If anyone has any ideas of stuff to do to it, lemme know.

Ok, I am done rambling for now. Just another little tidbit:
This parrot has ceased to be!!!

Laters,
V.

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Wednesday, December 7, 2005


   Anybody want some kids?
The kids are being so freaking difficult tonight I have now clue what to do. I want to give them all some kids tylenol and put them to bed. The baby won't stop crying, the other little one won't keep her voice down to calm down the baby, and the other boy won't shut up. Stupid questions 24/7. I want to medicate them all or take them back to their mother. I know blas is getting angry. They are getting on his nerves as much as they are mine. Grrr.

V.

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   Dedede
I just thought about this. My computer may be half apart (lap top, mind you) but it looks really cool. I think I may leave it this way! It isn't good for the inner workings, but damn it looks nifty! XD

V.

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Tuesday, December 6, 2005


   News Break
Bit of breaking news, we now go live to Diane being a bitch. Diane.

Oh, and this Vonnie found her car keys. They were in an obvious place, where I put my usual keys, but they were underneath the bandana I usually wear over my hair when it is being naughty. I can lock the door of my home again!!!

V.

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   Losing my freaking mind
I swear I am ready to go completely batty. I woke up late this morning, yet still managed to get everyone wherever they needed to go. But I can't find my keys. I had to take my spare from my boyfriend so I could drive. So now I don't have a house key. It is on my normal key ring which has gone MIA. So now I am going to go on a complete and total cleaning spree of the house to find my keys. If one of the kids got them and carted them off, there will be some hell to pay and some asses kicked. Or just popped enough to get the point across. You know, one good whap. So now I am going to have the damn house spotless while I am searching for these keys. Grrrrr!!!!
Oh, and for some reason I got a Shonen Jump (which I haven't gotten for a year and a half) and there was a Hikaru no Go DVD in it. I haven't watched it yet, but I have read some of the manga. I hope the anime is good. It had possibilities in the manga. I just hope the voice acting is good. I hate it when you get a show you really liked in Japanese and when you hear the english dub you are disappointed as hell. It is Viz, so it is probably decent.

Just for the sake of being random:


Isn't he great!!

One last thing before I tear the house apart looking for my lost car keys:
Every sperm is sacred. Every sperm is great. If a sperm gets wasted, God gets quite irate.

Just a little something for you Monty Python fans out there!

Hugs,
V.

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