Birthday • 1992-08-03 Gender •
Female Location • Canada (Montreal, Quebec) Member Since • 2006-04-08 Occupation • Grade 9 Real Name • Haidee
Personal
Achievements • Award of Exellence in Drama and Visual Arts. Anime Fan Since • 1999 Favorite Anime • Can't choose ONE Hobbies • Drawing, painting, singing Talents • Anything Artstic
myOtaku.com: Ayumi Chan
Welcome to my site archives. 10 posts are listed per page.
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
I'm sorry I hurt you.
I'm sorry these words cannot heal you.
I'm sorry that my arms could not provide you shelter.
I'm sorry...
I'm sorry that I was so blind to you.
I'm sorry that my tears will never reach you.
I'm sorry I didn't hear your words.
I'm sorry I made you feel alone.
I'm sorry my smile hurt you.
I'm sorry that I never told you...
My true sentiments
My dear...
I'm sorry
>< it's really sugar coated and stuff XP something that is rare to come out of me :P
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
So as you may have noticed I have a new layout XD
Wow, I must say I have broken my own personal record!
The last layout I had on was kept there for the longest time in all my "layout history"....it's really sad to be honest heh-heh ^^
Anyway, the dead children crawling on the walls are talking to me again o_o;; heh-heh just kidding, but honesly-I think that I might be scitsofrenic (gosh, I really can't spell :D ) I keep on hearing, seeing, and feeling things, that to the "normal" person would never be there, or be heard, or be felt...and it's really creeping me out, and I also might be suffering with anxiety (did I spell that right? o.o) further more-I get self consciously lost, I find my self crying alot, not knowing what to do, and blaming myself for everything. I also am afraid of being "alone" not in the sence of a relationship but in terms of the very root meaning of "alone"...
Alone: a&adv on one's own
(Source: Oxfordfrench dictionary)
-I translated it to English
I don'tknwo why it is Iv'e grown such a great fear of it, but it's there...and it's eating me from the inside out.
So...you may know or may not have known that I um...try and write poetry...so I wrote this:
Reconstruct
Reconstruct the broken me
The empty one
The one who hides behind a mask
The one who smiles to hide the fearful her.
Reconstruct.
Bring me back to life
Let me speak
Let me laugh
Let me cry
Let me smile a true smile.
Help me learn that I'm not alone
Help me take off this mask
Help me see through the dark
Reconstruct....
The happy me.
The Naive one
The one you laughs and smiles
The one who's true colours shine
(incomplete)
Yeah...heh-heh, it isn't really finished and in my opinion it needs refining ^^;; I'm sorry...heh-heh.
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
First thing is first..sorry that my last few post have been rather "self hatred-ish". ._.;;
Anyway, I saw the fanalie to the fireworks thing I was talking about ^^...I got back home a 1:00am..so you can imagine How tired I still am. I went with a bunch of my friends, all the rides at Laronde stopped and stuff...it was fun I guess...I mean when we were going home it was already 11:42pm..and the metro closes at 12:00...so when we got on the metro we were looking at the time consistently XD...well yeah
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
Hello everyone,
thankyou for all your comments ^^;;
I really appreciate them, anyway...nothing much is going on ._. although I am so bored I started to write "I hate you" on my beyond knee high floresent pink socks X3...I'm weird XD
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
Hello everyone,
Remember yesterday when I was suppose to go see "L'International Des Feux"...well I didn't it was raining, so my arents said that they would probably cancel them....I was a little upset because I really wanted to go...but I guess I'll just go see "200e Feu"...it's the fanalie ._. yesterday was France...this as the list of events:
L'international Des Feux:
-Samedi 17 juin/Suisse
(Baguano)
-Dimanche 25 juin/Italie
(Pirotecnia Soldi)
-Dimanch 2 julliet/Argentine
(Cienfuegos
-Samedi 8 juillet/Afrique du Sud
(Fireworks for Africa)
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
Hello everyone,
I'm in a uber uber bad mood today...everyone is being really bitchy and it really pissing me off.
So, I'm glad to leave the house today...I don't have to deal with the 'crapulence' and other such things going on at home.
Anyway, I'll try and ignore everyones bitching until I leave at 8:00pm...so....I hope everyone is doing well overall, I'm working on my Tales of Symphonia video...I working with only pictures and music, so I'm trying to be creative...but the most ican do with the pictures is like ease in and ease out and a bunch of other stuff that look crappy XD (I hate you Windows Movie Maker *glares*) and I'm also working on another deviant for deviantart. It's going to be ToS chibi but with giant pocky boxes and well pocky.
Well...yeah...Iv'e got to go now...
Take Care everyone!
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
Hello everyone,
I'm happy to say that...I'm still alive XD I know it's been a few day without no posts but yeah..I'm alive X3 Summer seems to be really short this year for some reason o_O I mean it's almost August!
Anyway, I'm going to "L'International Des Feux" Tomorrow night...and I'll probab;y get back by 12:40pm or 1:00am...so you can image how tired I'll be @_@.....I really don't have much to say today, so I'll try to get to everyone's sites and leave a nice long comment ^^ I'm sorry that my post have been...rather...short o_o;;
Take Care Everyone
Remember thoes award thingies I said I would make way back when? Well, I deleted them so I could make animated ones XD (sorry) I learned how to work with Image Ready so...I want to make them there ^^;; sorry for the delay...it's been a loong time hasn't it? And take a look at this...I thought it was hilarious XD Happy Shampoo?
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
Hello everyone,
This is odd...but I think I'm going vegitarian o_O
I seem to really dislike meat alot now...it's like Iv'e lost my taste for meat products, I don't know why it is that I ramdomly dislike meat...like I said before, it's rather odd.
On anther topic, I can't spreak spanish without obtaining a french accent XD I tried speaking it but I have such a strong french accent X3 My friends who is spanish laughs at it ^^; even with english my french accent comes out to a certain degree (not as much as Spanish but more or less) which is something very odd to hear. XD
Well today isn't as hot as it was for the ast few day ^^ which is good!
November 13, 2006
Been a while since I've made anything other than abstract themes. Surprisingly enough, this layout doesn't have an FF12 inspired title, which is too bad. For those who have Hikari in their hands, remember to follow the terms and enjoy the design. It's not always I steer away from monotone - or try to steer away for that matter.
I think I'm going to die.....it 43"C which is like 100"F or something like that =[ I hate ths heat...it burns xD;;..so...um..I went to Laronde today...it was okay I guess...just really hot and I feel realy sick right now @_@...meh, I feel old xD I'm only 2 years away from CEGEP *mummbles* it really depressing actually ._. ....I don't want to be old xD...well I don't have much to say today..
