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Thursday, March 5, 2009

why can't anyone just say what they really think, what they really feel?
Why is everyone so fucking demanding?
why does everyone keep setting such impossible goals?
I hate this.
I'm not okay with how things are.
And I'm sick and tired of having to hide that fact.
I don't know what I thought would happen,
or how I though it would be.
But this isn't how I want things.
Nothing is how I want it.
Nothing.
I don't want to do this.
I don't want to do any of this.
What happened?
I used to be happy.
I used to love life.
But now I'm just living it for other people.
I'm not happy with my life.
I hate it.
I hate not seeing my mom.
I hate having to face everything alone.
I hate not seeing my father.
I hate knowing I won't have him for much longer.
I hate how I'm losing everyone I love and there is nothing I can do about it.
I hate not being able to go and do the things that I want to do.
I hate not being able to tell my secrets.
I hate this person I've become.
I hate everything about myself.
The only things I do that are good are things I do that I don't want to do.
I hate hurting others.
And I hate being a failure.
I hate how I can look at something beautiful and not feel a thing.
I hate how pathetic I am.
I hate everything I do.
I hate not being able to reach the standards others set for me.
And I hate knowing that people don't care about me.
I could die and only a few people would miss me.
I would be forgotten, and the world would move on.
I hate not being able to cry.
I hate having to hide everything.
I hate how my sister was stolen from me,
and that things will never be the same.
I hate how Jenna still affects me.
I hate how I have never and will never mean anything to her.
I hate how Reba has always cared more about her than she cared about me.
I hate how I've lost everyone.
And that it's all my fault.
I hate how afraid I am.
And I hate the tears running down my face right now.
I hate that none of my relationships were real.
That none of them cared about me.
I hate how much I cared.
but most of all,
I hate how I am everything that I hate.
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