Sunday, November 2, 2008
The Beginning of an End - Maybe the Past is Catching Up With Me?
I've put this off for quite a while now, and While i was watching Neon Genesis Evangelion just moments ago - I had the urge, the feeling and the immediate incentive to do what it has taking what has seemed like forever to do: to post here on myotaku once again.
This post will be long, i cant escape that. Things have been brewing in my mind, memories, thoughts- past and present, and it is due time that i let them out with no restrictions just as i use to in the old days: right here on Myotaku page. There will be plenty of rambling thats for sure, and ill be able to post images at free will as i go, so hopefully you all wont grow too bored as the post moves on. ^_^
This post will start with today. I woke up last night around 11pm. When i woke up it felt as if i had slept for an entire day and when i looked at my alarm clock, i thought it was 11 in the morning instead of 11pm of the same night that i had fallen asleep lol. I got up and cooked some pizzas because i was hungry and sat here in my chair and began to play Final Fantasy 4. Those of you who have been following my World on Theotaku will know that i was right at the end. Well after about 2 hours of playing and eating, I finally completed the game. The final battle was tough, but i was prepared, just as i knew i would be and it was a fitting end and a breath of finallity to finish the game that i had been putting aside for a few years now. Afterwards, i played a wrestling game for a little bit before i got tired and turned of my playstation 2 lol.
Shortly afterwards, I was sitting here in my chair browsing Theotaku and i looked over to the side of my computer desk where my box set of Neon Genesis Evangelion sat. Im currently on disc 5, and before then, i wasnt aware that it is the final disc (disc 6 has the directors cut versions of episodes 21 - 24), So i knew these last few episodes would take it's toll. I had already watched episode 21, so i fiured id just watch all of disc 6 since it has the same episodes, just the directors cut versions. I would have to go back to disc 5 though in order to watch episodes 25 and 26 to finish off the series. I wont go into detail in fear of ruining the experience for those who havent seen the series, but episodes 21 - 23 were pretty crazy and everything that was kept in the dark was blown all out in the open. The directors cut versions of the episodes explain things a bit better i believe, and now that ive taken the time to watch each episode of the series one by one, ive grown to understand the series as a whole better in general.
Now the final few episodes remain, as well as the 2 movies which im sure will explain things further. Here are some scans i took of the dvd cases from the Evangelion box set that i have. I scanned these covers a few years ago shortly after i bought the box set, they have some pretty cool artwork :)
Here are scans of the dvd cases of both movies :)
As i was watching the episodes earlier, i experienced alot of different emotions. I thought of the past alot, which is something i do alot anyways, but i guess the episodes put alot of it into persepctive. An episode that followed a situation with Asuka (the red headed female character) kinda got my attention, I guess because i use to have a girlfriend that was a red head. It's funny how little things can spark the biggest emotions and how well you can remember things so well during that moment of emotional thinking. You remember things that made you smile and things youd rather leave forgotten. But i suppose eventual happiness doesnt come without a dose of pain along the way right?
I remember when i created this myotaku page - I use to be so distraught over how lame the size of my collection was and how lacking my knowledge of anime was in general. I wanted to be the best and i wanted to be a beacon in the world of anime as we know it lol. I wanted people to know me and i wanted a reputation that was absolute. When someone saw my collection, or figures or cards, or posters or magazines, i wanted them to say "ive never seen that before" and ive really loved growing here as an anime fan, thats for sure. Eventually I stopped trying to be the best and started being happy and enjoying the time with you guys, which is really what ive found to be the most important aspect of being a part of this community. Ive loved using the Yamcha screen name here. Ive always considered myself an underdog in everything, but i never give up and i knew i could use that name to make something im really proud of, and i really have. Ill continue to use the name Yamcha as long as i live, to share with you all the stories and experiences ive been able to be a part of while being a part of this universe known as anime ^^
The Old Days - The beginning of my collection :)
As for friends, Ive seen alot of friends come and go thats for sure. Especially here on Theotaku and Myotaku. There are a few that have stuck with me over the years - The first of which comes to mind is Enin. I remember of years past when he and i would stay up for hours at a time and chat about anything and everything that happened to be on our minds. We would go on to form a close friendship or brotherhood of sorts which i wouldnt trade for the world. We've managed to hold each other up through some pretty harsh times and through the different and unexpected trials that life can toss towards people, and im proud to say that ive grown stronger as a person for knowing him and i sure look forward to many more years of our collaborations through life ^^
Ive also recently found myself meeting some new friends, and the first that comes to mind is Bulma. She's such an outgoing and bright person. Ive found myself enjoying chats with her as well, whether its about silly things like how cool we both think Yamcha is, or real life things that may be troubling either of us. She's a soldier for having to deal with my ramblings thats for sure and she is a thrill to be friends with. It's really hard to find good people like her in this world thats for sure, and i certainly look forward to plenty more chats with her in the future! :)
two of my favorite posters ^^
Lately I havent been sleeping well, and as strange as it may sound, I think it is because i dont have one of my favorite posters hanging on my wall. About a year or so ago when i re-arranged my room, i took all my posters down. When i finished rearranging, i ended up only hanging up the Castlevania poster up because of lack of space. My "Revolutionary Girl Utena" poster was kinda hung out to dry so to speak and out of laziness since then i havent taken the time to find a spot and put it back on the wall. Maybe my lack of sleep and the downed poster is just a coincidence, who knows - I know one thing: When i finish posting i will be going through all of my posters in order to find it and hang it back up to see if it'll help lol. I may even put up a few other posters as well ^^ Ill be sure to keep you all updated on that situation lol.
Revolutionary Girl Utena Poster - it has powers i tell ya lol
Well, to be honest, ive worn myself out on this post lol. It felt really good to post here though and it felt really good to just ramble about junk that usually goes through my mind in a day. I hope you all understand and i hope it can help you all understand me a bit more or anything at least lol. It always feels good to be notalgic if you ask me lol.
I thank you all for visiting and i hope you enjoyed the post :) I hopeto chat with you all real soon ^^
Yamcha / Jason