Thursday, July 28, 2011

Mood: Sleepy/Hungry Music: Rumor Has It - Adele Time: 4:50 a.m. CENTRAL Bless Your Soul. Haha, thanks guys for the comments. That's actually really unexpected. @Kels: OMG, YOU'RE THAT GIRL ON MY FB? I WAS WONDERING WHO THAT WAS. And no, I'm not really looking to reconnect, though it doesn't sound too bad. I know that sometimes I'm way to stubborn for my own good, and change is good sometimes, you know? I like that this place is kind of empty for some reason now xDD I can say what I want, and it not really mean anything. @Crystal: I didn't mean that I was striving for other people's expectations, because I really don't care, I just hope that they can look at me and see that I am successful in my own right. I'm lucky to have a family that doesn't really judge that much. But thanks for the advice. It's good to get whatever I can. That really bugs me about the whole coding thing. I like to code D: WELL, my ex and I are talking again. Basically he thought I stopped being his friend just because I wouldn't sign onto Skype -____-. God, he's such a dumbass sometimes. I mean, I'm supposed to be his best friend, but he can't even like, hit me up on FB or send a text or whatever. Urgh, it's annoying. You know, I may be being really stubborn, but I feel like since he was the person who fucked up our friendship in the first place, he should be the one to take measures to fix it. You can't expect the girl who's heart you broke to just go back to telling you her deepest darkest secrets and shit right away. I needed some space, yeah, so I wasn't as chatty as I used to be. But I needed some healing time, man. It's just aggravating that he wants me to be there, but doesn't want to put the effort forth. Ummm, I played some Halo:Reach today. It was me against two people because everyone on my team decided to quit, and I beat them 36 to 27 ;D BY. MY. SELF. I felt really accomplished xDDD After thaaaaaat, I just sucked it up really bad. Ohhh welllll. One of my friends, Peyton, is going out of town Saturday, and wants me to go with her to drop her off where she's going. I kind of want to, but kind of don't. You ever feel that way about things? Also, I wish her luck on this trip, because what she has planned is, errr, not something to take lightly? And is also something that rarely goes as planned xDD I would say what it is, but you know, if she were to stroll across this page and see that I just have it stated for the entire internet to see, she'd probably be pissed xD I really don't know why I'm updating. I'm just kind of bored, and not ready to sleep yet. Maybe I'll go re-heat that soup that's in the fridge. Later! Char ~ ♥

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Sunday, July 24, 2011

Woah. Yeah, it's been like a year, buuuuuuuuuuuuuut I did say I was going on a Hiatus. I can't say that I'm officially back, but life has definitely taken a positive turn (well, kind of) since I've last updated you. I'm starting college Aug. 25th. I'm super excited, fer sure, but there are also some last minutes stressing things - especially since I don't know if I can get a dorm, annnd I'm going to have to tell my best friend that I've decided to room with someone else instead of her. It's for the sake of our friendship, considering there have been things that have happened (that I won't go into because I'm more or less over it now, and no sense opening old wounds) that have already put a strain on our relationship. Not necessarily in everything that we are as friends, but it's taking a lot of effort on my part to forgive someone whom I trusted so dearly. And I can still trust her and I know that she never intended it to play out the way things did - but they did play out the way they did. Maybe I'm just being cautious, as I had a double whammy hit me at basically the same time, and it's taken a while for this little heart of mine to piece itself back together again, but I am getting there. Better safe than sorry though - This girl is important to me, and I don't want anymore strain on this. But I don't know how to tell her and her believe that this is my reasoning - because I don't necessarily know how she feels about all this mess. Um, the past few months have been a living hell, and it isn't until recently that I've been finally able to get back to my old self and be happy; I'm not necessarily happy with who I am completely (is anyone really truly happy with themselves?), but I hope to grow into someone that my loved ones will be proud of knowing. I've done a lot of soul searching and I know that the experience that is lying ahead of me (college) is a critical one. I lost myself in love, and I hope to find myself again. But there are some hard good-byes that I have to make in the next two weeks :/ I know that it's something that's been coming, but I just never expected it to be here, you know? This and this are my current ear-sex. I want to play Child of Eden so badly! The music is so addicting O____O;; Also I got a new laptop! Ummm, and I've done a lot of getting drunk this summer - though that was never my intention. Ehhhh, what'errrr xD I want to get back into coding, and MyO use to be the most free place for coding, but I can't change my intro at alllll. I was trying to change the song, but that didn't work out so well. Anyways, I don't expect anyone to comment on this, but it's nice to get everything out. Mucho Love! Char~♥ PS: And for the person who felt the need to leave a rude comment on my last post, though you really don't deserve me wasting my time on commenting on that, I will say that you don't know shit about me and I did make some close friendships - you just weren't there for them. Excuse the fuck out of me for not having every conversation with a person laid out on the public fucking internet for everyone to see.

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Thursday, September 23, 2010

Wow. I think I've out done myself. Three, almost four months. Holy shit. I think the day has come, guys. I don't know if there's anyone out there to listen anyways. I am officially taking my leave. It was a nice four years (or, I supposed it was a nice two years, and then Adam had to fuck it up.) But all good things, as they say, must come to an end. Let's be honest. It's inevitable. Since the split, it's been amazing that all of us have been able to stay this long. Those who are even the most faithful don't update as much as they used to. And I remember when 12 comments on a post was normal. Now 6 (looking at Kelsey's post) is a lot? What the hell is that shit? I mean, I'm not on here to get comments, I'm on here for the people, but that just shows that no one is on here. People get on by chance, and gah! I just remember how close the entire community was. Maybe they were all able to make the transition to Vibrant, but if it had to come to this, I would take our old TheO back in a heartbeat. I miss all of the things that this place had. You know, what I think I'm trying to say is that this place felt like home. It was familiar and (for the most part) a place with open arms. When everyone left, if felt the same way it did when my mother left me to fend for myself at sixteen. It became a sort of Zombie apocalypse, where there are a few settlements across a vast desert. I love this place, and I love you guys. I'm not saying that this account is forever abandoned - hell, maybe Adam will remember this place one day - but as of right now, I make no promises to update. I feel like I'm talking to empty space, and of the few people that do care, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm a horrible friend and I suck at keeping up with things. At the very least, I could have signed in and commented on your posts, let you know that I do still think about you and care and I'm alive. I feel like I'm a let down in the respect. And I guess that's why I can't just completely abandon this place. I love it enough, that I care what the people here think about me. So this isn't goodbye, just an indefinite hiatus. Maybe if I can get myself to do anything besides school and sleep, I'll start making a habit of commenting on here to see how the world is. Till then my sweets, ttyl. ~Char ♥

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Wednesday, June 9, 2010

I Go Crazy Because of You

I have been dead for so long, I should probably just keep in my little hole of the world and stay quiet. I figure that everyone would be mad at me, all two or three of you. It's my own fault really. I should update (or at least comment) more. OR, write all of my updates on Notepad like I'm doing right now so that if I have to leave for something, I can always come back and finish it. That's a problem I have. I never save my posts, and then if I have to leave before I'm finished, I lose the energy to come back and post later. Well, I have three good things to announce. One: I am now on Summer Vacation! So no school (or less school, in my case. I have AP Summer assignments for THREE classes this year. This time 'round, we have to submit them online by their due dates, and then we get a new assignment. So we actually have homework homework. That blows) to get in my way! On the other hand, I'm picking up more hours at work so that I can get more monetary income since I'm the closest thing to self-suficient that a sixteen-soon-to-be-seventeen year-old can be without a car. This means I can stay up late more often :) Two: My mom has declared the computer to be moved into my room to keep it away from the EIGHT. MILLION. CATS. that have free reign of the house. Go you, Mom, for finally coming up with an idea that I've been trying to sell to you for two and a half years now. Three: My birthday is Thursday (The 10th)! I will be basically a legal adult in Texas. (I don't know what it's like in other states, but you can do everything in Texas at seventeen except vote, buy tobacco, or buy alcohol. Basically, we can't do all of those federal laws or whatever.) I will no longer have a curfue (which, I don't follow it know anyhow) and go see rated R movies. My aspirations are so. damn. high. You know what I find extremely curious though? I can't buy cigarettes because apparently, the year between seventeen and eighteen, I'm not mature enough to know the dangers of them, but the age of consent is sixteen. So that means I've been legally aloud to have sex with whomever I wanted for an entire year. Go you, legal system, putting it into the heads of millions of teenagers across America that it's okay to be stupid and get knocked up at sixteen. On the other hand, I'm going through a crisis because I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life, what directions I want to take, and I will soon have to be completely dependent upon myself. This may sound extremely pathetic, but I've always wanted to stay six years-old forever. I never found the secret serum to do so though ;~; I also, strangely enough, don't want high school to be over. I feel like I haven't taken advantage of all the things it offered me, and I'm regretting that now. Now, I must get off of the computer, as my brother is insisting that he must spend the next four hours of the morning (Midnight to 4 a.m.) on Facebook. In my room. I think the lack of privacy is what's going to bother me the most about this change xD With love, Char. P.S. I do hope this layout isn't too annoying. It's been up here for ages. I should change it. Project? I do think so :3 Also, would anyone like to tell me WHY THE FUCK MY INTRODUCTION WON'T UPDATE? It keeps saying it's updated, and then I go to look at my page, and it's exactly the same. I even deleted everything in it, and it just popped back up. This is making me angry.

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Sunday, April 4, 2010

Back from MIDDLE EARTH, HUZZAH

^--Random title is random. Hello Everyone! Sorry for the late update! My internet ended up being canceled, so I've been without it for a while. We'll go into the details of that in a minute, but I want everyone to know: Thanks for commenting on my last update, even though that was a while ago! So, as you know if you read my last update, I'm now employed at Subway. I expect that I'll be picking up more hours because someone just quit last weekend, and then someone else got fired Friday morning -____-;; So we're short two people, and on top of that, there's this creepy guy that was hired there the week after me. He's been hitting on Bestfriend (he works at the same Subway I do), and Bestfriend is thoroughly freaked out. Out of the blue, he came up to him and asked him if he was gay. I mean, it was the first time Sean had ever met the guy, and he just asked him! Not only is that rude, but that's extremely unprofessional. AND we're sixteen (well, Bestfriend turned seventeen in January) and "The Creeper" is TWENTY. I'm not trying to read too much into the eight-million questions that he asks Sean every two seconds and the fact that he follows him around, but if it were me, I would have already filed a complaint. I GOT FINAL FANTASY XIII. I LOVE IT. I know a lot of people don't, but I find it thoroughly enjoyable, and even if you're skeptical about buying it, I would definitely recommend renting or borrowing it. The first disc is a lot of tutorial, but it's only about six-to-nine hours depending on how fast you play (don't worry, the other discs are WAY longer), and there's a save point ever five to ten minutes. School sucks. It always does. Right now is about the time I start cramming everything in right before the end of the six-weeks. Tomorrow is Easter! I've never been that excited about Easter, but I do realize that a lot of people enjoy the holiday, so Happy Easter to you! Hell, Happy Easter to you even if you don't celebrate it just because! I'm going to my Grandma's, not really because I want too, but it's what we do every year. There's grilled food involved, so it should be good xD On a side note: I feel like that I've lost touch of my roots in a sense. When I was eleven, twelve, and thirteen, I used to live, eat, and breathe Anime and Manga. Anything I could get my hands on, I read! But now, I just never have the time to sit down and watch any, and even before I never had the money to buy Manga (man, that stuff is expensive -___-;;). I've read some of the online scans, but the translations are kind of rough since it's not actual translators, and just fans. I just wish I had 524524685321854 dollars to buy Manga with, because I've always wanted to be a super-ultra-mega-awesome Otaku with Manga lining the walls of my room and merchandise all over my bed and floor. I know, my aspirations shoot high -_____________________________-;;. I don't know why that came up, but it did. Hmm. I guess it's never too late to start! So that's about it. I'll try to comment around now that the internet is back up, and I hope that you guys have a WONDERFUL DAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~♥ -Char EDIT: I totally forgot to talk about the internet xDDD Man, it's 3am where I'm at right now, so I'm tired xDD Well, we're trying this "Clearwire" service. Has anyone else heard of it? Right now, I'm not really the happiest camper simply because it takes forever to stream videos and to download things, which are the two main things I do on the internet xD I did modify the configuration of Firefox to load everything faster and it is working to some degree better than my other ISP, but I miss the fast downloading and the instantly loaded videos T____T The couch is calling me...ohhhhhhh sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

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Thursday, March 4, 2010

I SWAER DAT IM STEEL ALIFE O:

HELLO DEAR FRIENDS OF THE INTERWEBZ. HOW ART THOU? BEEN DOING GOOD I HOPE? YES, I REALIZE THAT READING THAT SENTENCE MUST SEEM LIKE I'M A GARGANTUAN REDNECK. BEING SOUTHERN WILL DO THAT TO YOU. BUT I DO HOPE THAT MY USE OF THE WORD GARGANTUAN WILL CHANGE YOUR MIND. OR NOT. UP TO YOU. I realize that at this point, Adam probably updates his MyO more than I do. *goes to check list, just to make sure he doesn't* In all honesty, school has become more hectic than ever, but all this busyness actually makes me feel more alive if that makes any sense. Being bored makes me depressed, and I get bored really easily. Tru Fax. Just to prove (not that I really need to prove anything) that I've been busy, last week, I had a SEVEN PAGE ESSAY OVER THE GREAT DEPRESSION DUE, and we hadn't even covered the Great Depression yet -__________-;;; School has been really great though. It's been keeping me sidetracked from home-life, which isn't so great. My mom has a new boyfriend. It's not really that big of a deal to me because, um, she's had boyfriends before. It's just this one tries too hard and thinks that he can tell me what he thinks of me when he doesn't even KNOW me. He told me the FIFTH TIME THAT I HAD EVER SEEN HIM that I had no ambition or burning desire to go anywhere with my life. Um, excuse me? Who the fuck are you? And yeah, I'm pretty sure I have some burning desire - the burning desire to punch you in the face. Anyways, because of him, my mom hasn't physically stayed home in over a month. That's a month of me playing mom to everyone else. Fantastic. But I also get to go to bed when I want, and I go out when I want. It's a new freedom that I'm partially enjoying as well as dreading. Oh, and I have a job! I'm a Sandwich Artist at Subway. So now I have school, work, home-chores, homework (which I only rarely do anyways xD), and then the occasional baby sitting. Yep. But I guess that's life. I really do feel bad for not making time to at least get on here and comment. I think I need a planner so that I can remember everything and keep track, because I'm so scatterbrained... FINAL FANTASY XIII COMES OUT NEXT TUESDAY. UNFORTUNATELY, SIXTY BUCKS IS AN OBNOXIOUS PRICE TO PAY. Also, are there any games that you guys would suggest for me to try out for the Xbox 360? I need new gamage. SO I'M GONNA SAVE UP MONEY TO GO TO SCARBOROUGH FAIRE THIS YEAR. I'M MAKING MY OWN COSTUME. BOW AT MY LACK OF AWESOMENESS. I swear, Scarborough Faire is probably one of the only upsides to living in Texas <3 Anyways, I have some homework to finish up, but I'll try to comment everyone (updated or no) when I'm done! BYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYE~ ~Char [♥]

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Thursday, November 19, 2009

I can't think of an accurate title for this post.

Mood: Blah Music: Chocolate Love by f(x) Time: 4:36 p.m. CENTRAL SO HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~♥ It seems that every time that I get the urge to update, I'm sick D: This is getting a little ridiculous. The last three posts, I've been sick with the same symptoms. Anyways, It's okay, because I love you all so much that it doesn't matter :'D So Tuesday, I stayed home because I had a fever and body aches. I felt like someone put me through a wood chipper, which isn't a pleasant feeling at. all. Now that I'm starting to feel better minus a never-ending runny nose, I'm losing my voice. Geez Louise. Things in the family compound aren't going so well. Some stuff with my sister Crystal happened, and basically the whole family is to her rescue. I don't mean to be cryptic, I just don't really feel like explaining it. Now, my nephew Joshua has a lump on his neck. They're doing tests and they've been saying it could be a bunch of different things. Right now, it looks like they're trying to suck out as much money from the insurance company as possible instead of help us find out what's wrong with him. Josh has been acting normal, but we're all still really worried, especially since he's only three. Good news, I passed all my classes! Even better, THANKSGIVING BREAK IS NEXT WEEK! WOOOO~ I'm so excited about having a break :D I hope to go bake cookies with Abby! That's our equivalent of "Girl's Day Out". We bake. That's degrading to women's rights everywhere xD Anyways, I'll try to comment ASAP. My dad is telling me to wash the dishes, BUTTTTTTTTT, I don't think I'm going to do that O: -Char♥

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Tuesday, November 3, 2009

SO, What do you know?

Mood: Sickly/Relaxed Music: Aisu x Time FEAT. RIP Slyme by Ai Otsuka Time: 10:44 AM CENTRAL So I'm sick again xD I'm not as pissed off as I was in my last update though. I went back and read it and it was strangely...a lot like me, but not what I usually post on here ^^; So, AP History is still stupid, but I've learned that Thomas Jefferson was an Anti-Federalist and Alexander Hamilton was a Federalist. And there is your history lesson for today :D I rented Star Ocean: The Last Hope. Let me tell you, I LOVE IT. I already had to take it back, but you know I got 15 hours on it before I returned it. Damn Black Eagle kept kicking my ass. I would get his health all the way down before he could even land a hit on me, and then three hits later, I'm dead. ARGH, I HAVE A GRUDGE TO SETTLE. ANYWAYS, besides the sick and AP History thing, I'm guess I'm good. Halloween sucked for me, but I'm not going to go into it, mostly because it'll turn into a rant. You just need to know that I only got to Trick-Or-Treat for THIRTY MINUTES. Yeah, just a little bitter -_________-;; Do you think you should stop Trick-Or-Treating after a certain age? I say no, because it's about how young you are at heart, and if you're not embarrassed by it then you should just go out and have fun. But I know a lot of people find it childish, and I guess it really is. I believe people need to be a little childish to retain a sense of their childhood because it keeps us from being too serious. A bunch of kids were calling me lame at school because I still dress up for Halloween, and I was wondering if it's true or not. I mean, even if I'm lame, I'm still going to go regardless. Hmmmm. SO I'LL COMMENT IF I DON'T BECOME SIDETRACKED WITH RE-TEXTURING SOME HAIR FOR THE SIMS. Speaking of, I unistalled my TS3 again, simply because I don't play it and I needed more space on my computer. Once I save up enough money for an Alienware, I'll install it again xD

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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Log See, No Time. Stop. Reverse That.

Mood: BLARGH Music: Save Me From Myself - Christina Aguilera Time: 4:38 PM CENTRAL ZOMFG JESUS DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG IT'S BEEN SINCE I'VE UPDATED?!?!?!? Tomorrow would have been exactly a month. It feels so much long, yet like it was yesterday. I hate that feeling. I really need to learn some time management O: So, I read my Horoscope today, and it said: "You need to take extra time with all the little errands that are starting to catch up with you -- even if you're feeling panicky about getting them all done! The details really count right now." My first thought was MyO. Who actually follows their horoscope? I usually don't but today, I DID! Amazing. So I'm going to use the same old excuse that everyone else uses too and say that I've been running around in circles with the stuff that I have to do for school. I've been so busy, and I don't even know where to start, except to say that AP History has ripped me a new vagina. Not very comfortable, to be sure. Basically, that's it. And I'm having trouble even staying on top of that. I'm supposed to have read all the way through Chapter 7 in my AP History class by Friday, and I'm only on Chapter 3. I was supposed to have a working thesis for both History and English by today, and I have to finish Hospitality/Pre-Cal/Physics homework. ALL WHILE I'M SICK AS FUCK. Oh, and today I took the PSAT. Four hours in the same room that was freezing balls is not what I call "entertaining". I had to to wait an extra hour to eat lunch, and I barely make it to my normal lunch-time without being bitchy. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So while I seem really pissed off, I'm actually just really exhausted, which fuels the pissed off-ness. I have a permanent expression of rage/tired. It comes out looking like a Stink Eye. Haha, best movie reference ever. And on top of it all, I volunteered for the Art Float in the Homecoming parade tomorrow. Don't know what the hell I was thinking (or the lack of), but I have that to do for like, two hours. YES. Sitting on a float; in the cold temperatures; freezing my butt off. LIKE MY HAIKU?!?!?!?! It actually fits the syllable rule xD Alrighty, I'm signing out. No promises, but I'll try to get to commenting in the next lifetime. TTYL!!!!~♥ -Charlette

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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

WOAH, School is BEYOND retarded.

Mood: Tired but Happy/ HUNGREH O: Time: 4:30pm CENTRAL Music: None THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE COMMENTS >3 I appreciate them Oh-so-much! I'm glad that you guys show so much concern, but I'm alright right now. My Teefies haven't hurt since the day I posted last xD I do realize though, that regardless of the fact that they don't hurt anymore, I still need to go. I'm still waiting. So, school has been hectic. AP classes are so HARD O: GAH, what is the point of making something so hard? Mostly it's US History that's been kicking my ass, but Pre-Cal is hard too. I'm making it though, and I guess that's what matters. I've been so busy with school, that I haven't relaxed. So today is my day! I'm gonna sit back and take a breath. And sleep good tonight. I've been having to stay up late to finish Homework T__________________T It seems though, that I missed everyone. I looked on my list, and NO ONE has updated. T________T I was going to comment today. Oh, well. I guess I'll just have to look at the dates. @Sinny: YOU LIVE IN AUSTRALIA?! HOLY SHHHH that's cool. Does that mean that you have an Accent and everything? I love Australian accents. They're so cool. I want an Irish or a French one. Since I don't get on very much, you can try to get a hold of me on Xbox Live if you have an account. The Gamertag is Roo Roulette. I don't have any friends because my account isn't gold so I can't do multiplayer. My brother's is, so I was helping him on all of his Achievements. BLOWS, since I have to start over O: So that's about it. SO I'M GONNA ASK QUESTIONS. OH, WHAT NAO? 1. If you would want to have an accent, which one would you want? 2. WHAT BE YOH FAVORITE COLAH, FOO?! 3. What's a favorite past time? 4. What's your favorite desert? Alright, I'm out. PEACE! -Charlette

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