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• Becoming a seme of 2 girls and ONE GUY. He's so cute. Oh yeah. and. I HAVE A SON! <333333
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Sunday, August 14, 2005
Murder...
What makes peoples to become monsters?
You remember the outlandish guy that told me my english is excellent? Martin. Hes dead. Murdered.
Only one of those guys I liked is dead! Killed by hes own friggin friends!! We saw the boxes, but we didnt realize that the red paint in them was blood. He and hes friends are disappearing. Martin. He wouldnt leave without saying goodbyes. Never. Hes not like that. Hes nice. He was the only one of them that was actually nice. We were like friends. He was so handsome. Gentle. Nice. Why does death come to my life like this? First Christian, my aunt, Martin. Now Im starting to fear that someone takes my brother too. And Eric. Ender, Jeff and Will. Alex and July. Jari and Jyri, Joni and Jesse. Whats in it? Why does everyone die around me?
Im not making Lord or Lucifer to take responsible of this. No. Its not their fault. Its humans fault. What makes peoples to become monsters?!
I will never forget the smell of blood. When we went to those peoples houses I smelt blood. Someone had died. Murdered. They had bleed. I knew it was Martin.
Listening Would you love a monsterman by Lordi made me think.
Would you love a monsterman,
could you understand
beauty of the beast?
I would do it all for you
Would you do it all
do it all for me?
WE are the monsters. Peoples. We kill. Slave. Destroy the nature. I will revenge to those assholes for killing Martin. I know the guys. Killing Martin and hes friend. He was also nice.
Yeah, Im in hell big shock. My bro left last night. Those gangs will kill him too. They will. Why is world like this? You gotta learn to kill to survive all this. And now when I need it, theres no-one to hold me and tell me 'its okay' even if hes lying. No-ones even there to call me hun or love or anything. And I still gotta go to city tomorrow. To school at tuesday. Fucking fun. But I wont miss these two days, no shit I wont. I will revenge to the murderers. I will hunt them in my hands and make them suffer for me...
See? This is what world is doing to me.
If Christian would be here he would probably say theres nothing to do anymore. That Im angry for nothing. And hes right.... I cant change it. But why Martin? Why? Just fucking WHY!? Why Christian!? Does everyone I like die? They all get hurted. One got run over by a car, two tried suicide, one is lonely and those goddamn racistic asses are after him, someones are just lonely and dont got friends....
Wekoronshei. I know you were lying. I didnt find the breeze, because there werent one. But I know my goddamn meaning. Im gonna make this world better, no matter what it costs. Im gonna get rich by all those novels I've wrote, then put up some thingy for gaypeoples and start fighting against racism, help poor peoples and take care of the ones that are attacked by gangs. Someone has to do something. I dunno if I will ever help enough, but I can try. I can save few peoples. Yeah. And few poor animals that has been treated badly. Yep.
Neji-kun, you need me to smile? Okay. I smile. If that makes you feel better, I will smile that long that I cant get the smile away from my face anymore. Smile. Yep. Im gonna take a pic of my smile to proof it. Im gonna put it up tomorrow. Smile. I WILL smile.
World is horrible enough now. I gotta go. Im gonna go write that last novel of mine to its end.
And hey. Yesterday my ranking was 452. Now its 454. I cant do this without your help. So whats the prob?
And visit XUzumakixNarutoX hes cool. Really.
Adopted a hedgehog.... I always wanted one.... It cheers me up a little....
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