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Birthday
• 1991-12-17
Location
• Finland. Unfortunately
Member Since
• 2004-11-20
Occupation
• Heavy Hippy
Real Name
• They call me Jay

Personal

Achievements
• Becoming a seme of 2 girls and ONE GUY. He's so cute. Oh yeah. and. I HAVE A SON! <333333
Anime Fan Since
• Since I saw Ginga. Aboute 4 years old kid.
Favorite Anime
• Currently... Naruto, Ouran High School Host Club or... I don't know.
Goals
• To make Omen A ((Our band, Im the drummer and the leader-sama)) to succeed
Hobbies
• Drawing, collecting manga and candles.
Talents
• Drawing, cooking, messing up

myOtaku.com: xSakurax

Saturday, August 6, 2005

Theres so coinsidence in world. Only thing that is there is Hitsuzen ~ Yûko-san
First of all Eric-kun! If you read this, youd better be on today. Im gonna be on today and I wanna see you *narrows eyes*

Dads talking with an outlandish guy... He wants hes money back from 2 day from staying here because they dont have enough money to go home and their leaving today tho they were gonna stay at monday. Awww I feel like I should pay them myself.... I would but I need my money more than they do.
Aboute that anyways: it costs 400€ to go to America if I leave before winter but after winter it will be 800€. Why wont mom let me!? It will just cost least to her.... I got 200€ I could pay the half goddamn but I need someone whos 18 with me and then she will let me go.... Fine I'll take my ex with me. The 46 years old guy. *nod* If thats the only way....

Anyways....

I was thinking aboute it today morning. The happiest moment of my life were when Eric told me he loved me. I still remember what he said. I told him I had a crush on him and that now he will probably start hating me. He said 'I never hated you in fact I love you'. I almost felled from a chair. Hmm. I always feel good around Eric-kun.... He reminds me of Christian so much.... Its weird. I mean hes alot like Christian, the one they said that is destined to me. Now I just gotta start thinking if Eric gets shotted too, huh. Ironic....

Yeah so aboute Kurogane: I think its finally over. It makes me sad. He was a great friend. He came to the dates, yeh, but 2 hours late and said he has to go to babysit hes cousin. 'Scuse me their both 14. I told him 'Fine. Im gonna go home then and - something. Cut my wrists' And that was meant to be sarcasm. He took my wrists and told no, and slided hes hand under my shirt. I stopped him. He just said 'Im sorry but I have other things to do. I got works to do, cousins to babysit and you to fuck'.

NOW HOLD ON A SECOND!!

First of all, Im still a fucking virgin! I NEVER were in bed with him!! NEVER!! I always told him no! And now I DO feel myself like a prostitute, I mean thats all he wants!? It always happens to me!! I told him that and he just sighed and said 'I choosed the wrong words'. Then he told me hes leaving too, just like Loki. Excuse me, are brothers REALLY that much alike!? Yeah well I could've said goodbye to my pride cuz I started crying in front of all peoples. He told me that Loki loved me and he started yelling at me which werent nice. I didnt actually listen to him. I was sad from losing another friend, and I decided something. I will NEVER lose another friend like that. I will never date a friend again. No matter what my heart says. I have seen what it does to peoples. It never works.
But I WILL get my revenge. I promised him that I will get Loki back. I will get him back. And thats my plan. Those two can feel the goddamn pain I have felt in my entire life. I will act like I love Loki, be a dream girl and do everything he wants, and do it front of Kurogane so he has to just watch it. Then just leave Loki by going front of him and kissing someone unknown person who I clame to be my boyfriend (Hey, I think my friend would be good at that stuff.... Or Doug) and laugh at him asking 'You really thought I loved a loser like you?' *laughs manically* YEAH, I know, thats mean but they will suffer as much as I did my whole life. THey will feel how it feels to watch aside when their beloved is with another, they will feel how it is to be dumbed. Be betrayed. Its gonna be FUN to look at their desperate eyes.

I was awake the whole night. Always that my thoughts slipped on something bad I thought aboute Eric. Nights like that I start remembering him. Well, it actually only causes that I start feeling myself lonely but at least Im not depressed anymore. And I end up hugging a pillow or something.
Well anywayz, last night I was drawing again. One was an Angel with wings on fire, second was a kitty that I drawed for Logan from forgotting hes birthday. One was for Darsha and one was for Telk to hes birthday. Yeah thats close too, 18th of 9th. I always remember important persons birthday. If I know them ofcourse.
Aboute Darsha anyways, I gotta make a fight up with him. Yeah he does hes tricks but I dont care. Hes a friend still.
Hey waite. Just realized something. I have only 2 gal friends in MyO. I mean like closer friends. Gals are Goldwolf and Grinner. Other closer friends are Supertoilet, Aetruy7slip, Amerill, Telk27 and ofcourse Eric. Hmm. DO I just get along with guys too well or what is it? I DID spent my whole childhood with guys and my first girl friend was my best friend.... Hmm. That may also be why I am little guy-ish. I mean I love frogs and mices. My friends hate them (still cant get why) And I love playing video games. My friends hate it. Well whatever at least I get along with guys duh. Not lesbian guys like Juho *laughs manically* Hehe. He must be a gay. Everyone said so. Besides he didnt protect me when my old classmate said Im a fugly fatty. He gave a cigarette to Juho and everything was okay again. Huh. This why I HATE smoking. Well yeah along that I get sore throat when I breath smoke. Then it starts hurting so much that I cant even breath without my eyes tearing up. Humphhh.... Well at least I have a good reason to say 'No' if someone tells me to take a cigarette. 'Sorry. I die if I smoke that. Im astmathic' Hehehe..... *chuckles evilly*
Hey peoples, Im open for requests! Once again. Tell me something to draw. Hey Supertoilet, tell me whats your faivorite anime and I draw something for you! You too Aetryu7Slip. ^^ So yea take care all of ya.

Hmm. I gotta go now. I dont like that fly flying around my coffee. *narrows eyes* Hmm. Take care.

Awww SHIT! Why do I always forget that I have a fish allergy...? I ate fish and now my throat tickles and I sound like a frog T__T *sob* Someone give me new brains....

Hey hey hey!!! Waite! I found pictures!! ^____~ Theres my crazy best friend AND my godchild! And a gal thats interested in me.

SHe has ineters in me. AInt she pretty!? ^__^

My best friend x_x

And...
My godchild!! ^__^ Aint she cute?
Yeah she is my godchild. And she likes me. She does. She cried when I leaved my best friends house *Sob* Shes so cute..... Just like Eric....

MWAHAHAHA!!! look at those eyes!! XD Im evil!! >__<

Take care

Awww SHIT!! Mom said that we may not come to her restaurant tomorrow or day after that >:< ASSHOLE!!! This one weekend when Eric's supposed to be on..... That bitch is dead....

And yeah, Love ya Eric-kun. Your always on my mind. Hasnt gone a day without me thinking aboute you. If you wanna chat at iteenchat sometime Im on with names SakuraBlossom, ConstantineTenshi and Ayanami. I still love ya hun.

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