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Wednesday, January 6, 2010


Alright, so winter semester started up today. I can say that this semester should be quite interesting.

Starting off with my first class, Art Appreciation. I thought it was going to be more difficult, seeing how she assigned an actual art project where we recreate a mural or sculpt something, but I think it may actually be fun now. The teacher on the other hand. . . is completely odd. From the side, you would assume she's in her 20's, but you can see her real age in the face (about late 40's). She has this way of taking role that I don't think even kindergarten teachers would do. She assigns seats and then takes a picture of you. . . then she makes a visual seating chart to take role. e__o Yeaaaaah. I find that disturbing. Think I can deal with it though.

Then I have Spanish II! I'm gonna love that class so much (I think) because there's only 7 students in the class. Sadly, most of them are rednecks with crappy humor. Hm. I was thinking about getting my friend to switch from his Spanish II to mine. <__<

Sociology is going to be the most interesting. I'm looking forward to the class meetings. Luckily, I have some humorous people in the same class, which they make lectures not boring. What's more uplifting? Remember that Psychology paper I absolutely killed myself trying to do last semester? (It's the movie analysis.) Well the teacher decided to "listen to our outcries" and make the project a whole lot easier for Sociology. Instead of individual papers, we're getting together in groups of 8 to 10 and doing a presentation. It's still a movie analysis, but the jobs are split. One person does a synopsis, one does the background on the theory, some talk about their research, etc etc. Me, I plan on proofreading everyone's work, and maybe typing up the presentation. I hate making public presentations, and proofreading seems to be my specialty. Got to find something helpful to do or else the group will give me a bad grade. Don't want that. Oh, the project won't be given til the end of the semester. Before, he had it to where it was due a day before mid terms.

Anywho. . . I've got Intro to Computer Concepts (Cause we all know how much I suck at using computers), and World Literature II. I hate literature and suck at it sooooooooooo badly. I rather take 10 Comp classes. T^T

In non-college news, I have a feeling Dad hates me. =| Everyday he's pissed at me for something! Last night, he was feeling depressed because he was feeling "old," and I tried to cheer him up, but when I went to go play the game he got infuriated and gave me the cold shoulder the rest of the night. Today, my brothers' presents arrived, but I put them in my room til I get everyone else's presents. Dad asked what it was, in front of my brothers, and I told him, they're presents. He flipped me off and yelled at me when I tried to tell him about it. Fortunately, I was able to shrug off his bad mood; I was still angry about it, but I didn't get all flustered or upset.

I did realize something with him though. He's doing the same exact thing to me as to what his Dad did to him. His Dad was pretty mean to him too when he got older. It hurts, but I'm getting better at shrugging him off instead of letting me get to me.

Just one more year. Then I go bye bye to senior university.

Anywho. I'm off to do stuff. Hopefully my night goes peacefully, but I doubt that.

Love you guys!

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Monday, January 4, 2010


Well, stupid things have indeed been occurring.

I thought I had work today, but the boss made a new schedule conforming around the approaching winter school semester. I can't say I exactly got my hours cut. They really just bunched and rearranged. Instead of working 3 hours on Monday, Thursday, and Friday; I now work 4-10 on Thursday and Friday. Problem is, I don't get out of Karate classes on Tuesday and Thursday til 4:30. Also, she cut my weekend hours. Instead of 9 to 3, it's now 11 to 3. I guess I'm okay with that since that means I can sleep in a little later. I asked her for Tuesdays and Thursdays off, seeing how I don't get out of Karate classes til 4:3o ish, but she told me she already gave Thursdays off to two other people. Oh if it's the new workers, I'll be p.o.'d.

*sighs* Really I'm just very worried that the hours won't be enough to pay bills and buy groceries. The job my dad's friend was suppose to grab for my Dad was really just b/s. My oldest brother put in lots of applications, but he hasn't gotten one call yet. My brother's girlfriend is saving up so she can move out to Las Vegas. So, finances are very tight. I hate it when it's tight, feels like I'm suffocating from stress. Aish.

Not to mention, my sleep has been quite disturbed. Over the past two weeks, I've been going to bed at 3. Friday night, I went to bed at three, but I couldn't fall asleep til 6:30, after I went, ate a sandwich, and drank a glass of milk. Even when I did fall asleep, I kept waking up thinking it was time for work. After 3 hours, it was finally time for work. Surprising enough, I didn't feel exhausted or anything. I was actually able to work fine til 7:30. Last night I went to sleep quickly at 2. Thing is I slept all the way to 2 in the afternoon.

Anywho. Did online shopping for the family. I figured that since I'm too lazy to drive an hour to the capital, I'll just online shop, which turned out the better choice. I bought my twin brother a Blue Samurai katana. Bought my oldest brother a very nice samurai shirt. I bought my Dad a Blue Morpho specimen frame. (He loves Blue Morho's.) I have yet to buy my brother's girlfriend a present. I can buy her an iTunes card and a DVD for her collection from Wal-Mart. She keeps buying me Japanese Cherry Blossom shower gels, lotions, and roll-on perfume. God it smells so good.

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*sighs* I have such a headache. Classes start up Wednesday. I think Thursday is gonna be canceled because of snow. I still haven't bought my snow boots and a belt to complete my outfit.

Oh the joy of life.

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Wednesday, December 30, 2009


It's funny. Life can be ironic in the most messed up ways. I was talking to a friend the other day about her parent's money ways. I wasn't worrying about my Dad's money status, cause I didn't need to. My Dad took 2 thousand dollars each from both my brother and me, saying he was going to pay for the bills and look for us a car. It's been about a month and half, and he has no more money. I wouldn't have cared really, cause I expected as much, but then he has the audacity to accuse of us being wasteful of our part of the money and talk about how we didn't help him pay the bills or groceries, even though he was paying it with the money we gave him? That made me really upset.

Plus, that means I have to worry about bills again. I hate worrying about bills. That stress eats me alive. I still have all the money I saved up during the month and a half. Not sure if I should save it or buy what I've been planning to buy. I got a WalMart card and put 200 on it, so that means I can do some online shopping. Recently, I've been looking at Rosetta Stone. Oh the temptations and investments of that bugger. It's one expensive program. I want the 1,2, and 3 lesson sets of Korean, but the run about 600 dollars. Ebay usually sells them for about 500. Still weighing that option.

I looked a credit cards tonight, specially the ones for college students. I need to get one and start building a credit. It scares me, but maybe I think I can handle it. Then the news came on about how the local Saturn dealership has marked 75% off their sticker prices on Saturns. I plan on emailing them one day this week to find out their prices. Hopefully, it's a nice price. Don't think I can trust my mustang enough to drive it anymore. . .

Anywho. I still plan on buying gifts and cards, which reminds me, my Mom is gonna kill me for not sending my Meme a Christmas card on time. I just may have to cut back on spending.

I hope karma is good enough to give my Dad and brother a job soon. Dad's friend is suppose to talk to his boss about an opening. Dad says if he gets it, he may be able to hire my brother.

Keeping the fingers crossed.

Love you guys! <3 I'm off to drink hot chocolate and do stuff. . .

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Saturday, December 26, 2009


I LOVE YOU GUYS SO FREAKIN MUCH! I love you for the TheO gifts online, the Christmas cards that were mailed to me, and the drawings dedicated to me. It cheered me up so much. <3 <3 <3 <3

I was feeling blue the other day (Christmas Eve). I had worked 8 hours, and I was hoping to come home to eat, but there was nothing done. I got really upset, Dad found out I was upset, and then he preceded to yell at me saying very untrue, rude things. Luckily, my brother and his girlfriend were there to cheer me up.

On the other hand, he acted like nothing happened yesterday. He was fine, no anger or anything. I was suppose to take the day off yesterday, but my boss asked if I wanted to work for holiday pay for about 5 and a half hours. I decided to work so I did't have to risk making him angry again. Well worth it, I'll need the money in the future, which reminds me, I need to open my own bank account.

Dad's still content though. Guess the frustration comes with old age. His is worse since he hates himself for not working and not being able to do anything else besides sitting around. Most of the time, I think he gets pissed off just to give himself to do. Just got to survive it for another year. Sadly, I'm getting those angry vibes from him even though he's happy. . . hm. Oh well.

So glad Christmas is over. No more Christmas music. Can't say that for the commercials, they're still going. I got some nice gifts. My Mom in New Orleans sent me a bunch of clothes. She sent me a Sinful jacket; I'm starting to love the Sinful brand, they're awesome. Also got a Roxy beanie hat, which I must take a picture in. <3 Also got a Billabong jacket and Roxy perfume. The Roxy perfume I got was strong, and my brother's girlfriend got Roxy perfume too, but her's was more subtle, so we traded. xD That's all I got for Christmas regarding presents. I got gift cards and money from family too. It was a good Christmas. The best part was the steak and baked potatoes we had for dinner. :D Yum yum.

Today was funny. Today is Saturday, not Friday. I thought it was Friday. So I stayed up til 4 in the morning playing on Xbox Live, thought I was gonna be sleeping til 1, buuuuut it was Saturday. On Saturdays, I wake up at 8:30 and go to work til 3. Luckily, they let me sleep in til 11, then called to see where the heck I was. Thank goodness they didn't call me at 9!

Anywho, I'm off to hunt for food. I still haven't sent out Christmas cards. I need to collect a few more boxes. If I have your address myo people, EXPECT A PACKAGE FULL OF AWESOME SNACKS AND GOODIES. Bwahahahahahahaha. Give me your address if you want one too :D

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Friday, December 25, 2009


Hey guys. Hope ya'll have a Merry Christmas. Mine is not going that great, but life isn't life without party poopers, right? I'll save the depressing stuff for another post. Right now, I wish you guys a day full of wonderful, happy moments, since I have nothing else to give you guys for Christmas.

I'm gonna try hard to keep my head up towards the sky, look to a bright future, and try to make the best out of my life and days. I wish to be happy. It hurts to be sad, and it hurts to see my friends and family sad. How bout I make that a New Year's resolution... smile and find joy as much as I can. Cause I love to catch people's attention by having fun, and well, being the dork I am. :]

Love you guys. I wish to meet in real life one day, which I probably will. ;)

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Sunday, December 20, 2009


I'm about to shoot my internet. Starting last night, it decided to just start flipping on and off. I wasn't just browsing the net either, I was on xbox live with friends from here, which means I kept getting kicked out of parties and games, so I had to shut my xbox on and off to reconnect. I wouldn't mind as badly if it weren't the holidays either. The holidays is the only time I get to stay up late; otherwise, I go to bed early for classes or work.

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I have a feeling luck is rarely on my side.


So. . . I hope I have tomorrow off. I should have tomorrow off. Tomorrow would be my last chance to go Christmas shopping for friends and family. ]:

Think I'm coming down with a cold too. Know that Brittany Murphy actress who died of a heart attack at 32 just today? That worries me. Makes me think I'll be like that too with my horrible diet and lack of exercise. That was too young of a age to have a heart attack though. . .

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Friday, December 18, 2009


Why am I so lazy lately?! It's interfering with Christmas shopping! T___T

It's sad, but I keep forgetting how Christmas is so close. Also, I'm not that excited. To be honest, I'm not excited at all. I guess it's because I never got presents in the past, since we were *ahem* poor. I don't mind not getting presents. I want to buy presents for friends and family, but I suck so badly at present shopping! T^T It scares me. I know what to get some friends, like xbox live stuff, game stuff, but my family on the other hand. . . I don't know what to get them. ]': I need to send my other family members cards too.

Anywho, recently I emailed this lady from the Department of Liberal Arts at Ole Miss about the degree plan for Linguistics and my situation at community college. She wrote back and told me to just switch my major over to General Studies, and she'll help me enroll in classes that'll transfer. I need to write her back, but my laziness is astounding! The only problem I see is telling my Dad that I'm going to Ole Miss instead of the family's college, Southern Miss. I want to so badly go to Southern, but they don't carry my major! Ole Miss was the last college I wanted to enroll in. -__- Oh well, such is life. Oh yeah, I'm gonna be a sophomore in January! ~^.^~

My check is gonna suck on Christmas. I haven't been working that much as usual, and my boss has to take out a 50 dollars from a loan I made. Eck. I'll start picking up more hours soon though. Someone's on vacation, so me and my coworker are splitting his shifts. Plus, my boss is going to give me early shifts so I don't have to work late. I hate early shifts with a passion. I lose sleep, then I come home and sit with Dad, and 98% of the time he gets cranky and gets pissed off at me for some lame reason, which destroys my night. Ugh. Horrible.

Anywho, think I'll just gooooo doooo something. . . somewhere.

HAVE A HAPPY HOLIDAYS! I'll post next time on Christmas. :]

**EDIT**
Oh surprise, surprise. It's only 12:30 in the afternoon and DAD'S ALREADY BEING A FUCKING BITCH.

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Tuesday, December 15, 2009


Bwahaha. Theme change over. It's hard to find Japanese or Korean Christmas MV's, ya know that. Also, I have trouble finding really good winter backgrounds that really stick to me and make me go "OMG I WANT THAT ONE!" I'll settle with this for now.

Finals are over. Yaaay. I'm kind of angry because today's World Civ I final that I studied really hard for was evil. He had questions on there that I didn't study for. ;__; I studied what the Han, Shang, and Qin Dynasties did, not if metal tools and agriculture were introduced in the Paleolithic and Bronze Age! Oh well, I did good enough though, just not a perfect score.

Speaking of grades~~~ I checked my Biology grade yesterday, and before it was an 84, but it jumped to a 90 after the final! Psychology is the only grade that I need to watch for. I think I may have straight A's again. ~^.^~ I'm kind of disappointed in myself though. I told myself to be cool with a B, but I can't. I'm one of those people who feel they're gonna fail in life if I get a B. Blame my Dad though, he made me like that!

So I beat Assassin's Creed 2. The spoiler that I thought I spoiled to myself wasn't even true. -___- I was wondering how I beat it so fast though, I mean it jumped from sequence 11 to 14! Turns out Ubisoft pulled a low blow and took out sequence 12 and 13 to sell as DLC in the next months. Damn you Ubisoft! I want to get back on to get the rest of the achievements.

Anywhooo. Maybe I'll go eat some soft pretzels.

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Monday, December 14, 2009


Whew, I'm sleepy. Today's finals went by with no worries. I'm just happy I only have one more left. I studied when I got home, wasn't as hard as I expected, but that's because I found the flashcards from my first test! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! I got done studying about an hour ago, which leaves me 3 hours til work. My Dad and brother are playing Modern Warfare 2; I love *sarcasm* how Dad thinks he's a pro player. He sucks so freakin badly, and yet he tries to be a backseat gamer when we play. I don't really mind not playing today. I just have to survive the 6 hour work shift tonight, go to bed, arise early yet again for an exam, and then from there, I'm home free. I'll probably get my final done at 8:30, so that leaves ALL DAY AND NIGHT TO GAME! WOOOOO! I have no work on Tuesday or Wednesday. My word, I'm so looking forward to tomorrow.

Oh yes, I got my cell turned back on after about 2 or 3 months. Alot of my minutes go to waste after the service days expire, since no one really texts me and vic. ver. Sometimes I send out random texts just to use a minute. :D

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Sunday, December 13, 2009


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Ugh. The weekend has been downright HORRIBLE. The shifts are long and annoying. The cook just keeps going and going about how her fellow cook doesn't do anything. Not to mention by the end of the shift I'm exhausted and lightheaded or sick to my stomach. I get home and hope to relax but I have to do laundry, which I'm too tired to do. I got off lucky yesterday because instead of cooking I offered to buy dinner for everyone at Quiznos. My Chicken Carbonara was good, but 6 bucks for a regular sized sub is a bit extreme. I got home and ate, then sat around playing on the laptop til the TV opened for a gaming opportunity. Sadly, my laptop died, the battery was in my brother's room, and Dad wasn't giving up the TV. I gave up and went to bed at 7:30.

I had a good plan in mind by going to bed that early. Maybe waking at 7 and having 2 hours to do whatever the heck I wanted. That didn't happen. I assume my mind/body thought I was taking a nap, so I woke up at 10, and I wasn't able to fall back asleep til 2 in the morning. It didn't help that my brother and his girlfriend in the next room were being absurdly loud with their conversations and playing with the dog. My last straw was plucked when she turned on her TV to a pretty good volume. I grabbed a blanket and my ipod and fetched some shut eye on the recliner. I fell asleep after 30 minutes. Slept til about 6, when my cat decided to bang against the window repeatedly. She thinks the window is her new door, her invisible door at that. I moved from the chair to my room at 6 and slept for 2 more hours, then woke up for the horridly, slow shift at work.

Now I'm back at home. Waiting for the TV, again. Don't think it's possible to play today anyway, still have laundry to wash, dry, and fold. Have to cook dinner also. By then, it'll be 9 o'clock. That means shower and bed time, since I have to arise at 7:20 for finals both tomorrow and Tuesday.

The only thing horrible about tomorrow is the waking up time. Otherwise, my Spanish and Principles of Biology final is going to be extremely easy. I fear the World Civ final on Tuesday since I lost a majority of my flashcards from the first test. I may have to go through my notes tomorrow to see what I can salvage. =|

Anywho. . . I'm off.

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