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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
What the point anymore...
Hey,
Sorry that I haven't been on in a while, I've been busy with crap at school and work.
Today was one of the worst days ever.
Everything was going okay until the end of it when I was done working. We are training a new manager at my work so it took a little longer than usual. I told my manager that I was finished and she said to go ahead and call my dad so I did. Well because my manager was showing the tranie the in's and out's of closing a store I knew it would take a few seconds longer than usual; I told her that my dad was outside and she said she be out in a few seconds so I showed my finger saying "1 sec, " he saw it and drove away. When he left the parking lot, my manager then said I could leave so I left and hid in the shadows until my manager and the trainee left and then started walking. I called my mom but she didn't pick up the phone so I didn't know what was goin' on. I then started calling my dad and he didn't pick up so I wasn't surprised; he then called my cell and said that it was goin' to be a cold walk and then hanged up. So I started walking, I just didn't care anymore, it was two miles and I knew I could handle it. I started walking up the State Route until I saw my mom's car drive by, she turned around and picked me up. I was about to tell my mom that I would continue walking but I knew she wouldn't let me so I got inside. She told me that she would pick me up for now on, but I didn't care all I could think about was why must I keep going, no matter what I do I can't please anybody. So what's the point anymore, I have found out already by my father that I was an accident, I've been called a dumbass, a stupid bitch, an idiot, I can't do anything right, but I keep goin' but I ask myself all the time is, why? I don't know anymore, it's basically plain that I was never meant to exist if I was an accident. But I keep going anyway, I don't know if it's because I'm trying to prove myself am suppose to exist for a reason, or if I'm trying to prove something to all those who don't believe in me. I just don't know anymore. But I'm still marching trying to keep going no matter what. I will keep going, even if I don't have the anserw I've been wishing forever. So I decided to take up blogging and learn about medicine at the same time so I can write stories while studying. But that's pretty much it. Hopefully I can find my anserws, I'll keep going.
Later,
Silver
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