We go about our lives
each and every day,
not knowing what the next will bring;
what will stay or fade away.
Our every smile, our every tear:
A prelude of the things we fear.
We are born. And we die.
What lies between is what we call life,
where dawn and dusk remain the only things
that stand between each passing day
and divides them into momentary discomforts and joys.
Some say it isn't worth it,
that the pain is just too much for them.
But, I would rather have;
Just one breath of air,
Just one kiss of rain upon my face,
Just one touch of wind through my hair,
Than to have felt nothing at all.
Just one.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Sadness is out to get me
a century in the making
earth tides
on a midnight ride
eating me up from the inside
How do you act
When you're flat against your back
upon a desolate wall
and silent, you fall
oh where in the world
Do the seasons go
Where in the world
is it safe to see the story unfurl
A tirade against the skies
Leaves me feeling just a bit behind
everyone else, and so my self's denied
Anger and fear congregate
beneath the dark-lit sky's pomegranate
Background of exploding light
a backdrop for the world's suicide
and I cry
alone in a crowded room, I die
and stress is the only thing
that lingers by my side
Autumn leaves upon winter storms
The dying upon the dead chill
of forgotten ages, bleak landscape changes
And there is no warmth, no thrill
a feeling inside, so unstable
as to uproot the very tendrils
of growing changes, of correct adaptations
leading the way back down to darkened imaginations
a place I never thought I'd be again
irreversible; inimical; self-condemnation
The plight of my soul; my stigma; depression
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Saturday, July 4, 2009

As promised in my last post, this post is going to be nothing but poetry that I've done in the past year since I was last active here.

Brushing the Surface

I've got a feeling for you
I know you feel it too
a feeling so soft, yet so strong
I know it's been there for all along
but I'm just realizing it
~
I know we've been through a lot
but you you've stayed and stuck it out
you make me who I am
and kindly touch my hand
you lift me up, with your touch
and give me cause for happy thoughts
you make me who I am
~
I've been down some dark and troubled streets
while looking for a way to find my feet
and I stumbled on a rock
that I almost never saw
turned out to be a diamond
turned out to be you
~
I'm not a perfect man, but you give me
you give me, a reason to be
something more than who I was
a reason to change, to better myself
and for all of this, I'm lost
I never expected to fall in love
I never expected to feel like this
and it's only brushing the surface


Darling Love

Darling love, I give to thee
my heart and soul, the air I breathe
Because I need them not with you around
You lift me up off solid ground
An angel fallen from heaven
or so it seems to me, the son of Adam
Lovely like the warm summer breeze
As pure as the winter snows
my love for you is neverending
Like a plant it grows and grows
Your face, giving tribute to the night sky
With stars shining forth, in place of eyes
With hair that would put the colors of autumn to shame
Reddish hue, a fiery blaze
A mouth so sweet, it seems to me
That all things sugar lessen in comparison
My dear sweet heart, that is not all
your smile is like the morning sun
A shining light upon me falls
And staring at it's beauty, I am stunned
paralyzed in place
and I hear the Angels singing
What sounds like Amazing Grace
And with each passing breath I breathe
I thank God for the gift he gave to me
you, sweet heart; my angel
My Goddess; my Tinuviel


Don't Go Down That Road

I said I love you
you said you love me too
I told you that you were my everything
and you said I was what you need
then you asked a question that brought me to my knees
asking if I would ever leave
and I said, baby, I won't go
please don't go down that road
~
we hold each other
each and every night
we kiss each other
and we never fight
we love each other
and it just feels so right
and then you ask, what if someone tempts you
what would make you stay with me
and I say, baby
please don't go down that road
~
I will never leave you
but...
no, luv, I will never stray
but what if...
please dear, just let me finish what I have to say
I will love you until the end of our days
but what if you get bored of me?
that will never happen, baby
What if you get tired
of you? never
But, but, but, what if
Sweetie, please don't go down that road


Ernie the Ghost

A little Ghost boy, lost
floating through the darkness
of twisted thoughts, carnal lust
Millions of horrifying things
each reaching out for the living
Clawing, scrambling, a family of ghouls
Who, much to their disappointment
Had this little Ghost boy, Ernie
Who, tried as he might
just couldn't scare a single soul
Oh, he tried and tried
with every boo, to fright
a poor passerby
Poor little Ernie
Just couldn't do right
His parents, also ghosts
would look down and say
"Ernie, someday,
You're going to have to take
The family business of scaring away"
And Ernie would just hang his head
And go out to try again
and again and again
But, the fact was
that little Ernie
Though he tried so hard
To just be scary
He was just too cute
Much to the shame of his family
He was just too cute to boo.


Ethereal World


in the world we live in
we have crooked people
ruined politicians
these are the people ruling our nation
thinking they have the right ideas
not bothering to say that their ideas
will only benefit themselves
and what they want
in the world we live in
we have people starving to death
while others sit down at a smorgasbord feast
throwing out half of what was prepared
destroyed, wasted
in the streets of third world countries
children pick up arms and fight wars
to the death, without a second thought
I mean, what could there be for them thats more
than what they have come to know
an existence of tragic misfortune
where each day is a struggle for survival
the difference between rich and poor grows greater
almost on a daily basis, the greed of some growing bigger
in the world we live in
people turn inward and ignore whats going on
a woman being abused or raped
a child being neglected
its on the news and all we can do
is just sit and say how horrible is that
while doing nothing at all to raise a stopping hand
and all I can say is that this can not be reality
that these things that occur, these tragedies
must be something of a world worse than the one I live
but it all comes boiling down to an end
this IS our reality, our tragedy, our deepest shame
this ethereal world is the one we live
where millions die every day that shouldn't
when the actions of people around the world could prevent it
but they choose not to
this world, the people in it
each trying to do the best they can and failing miserably
and all I can do is sit and ask why
why is it so hard for one person to help another
in this ethereal world


Fear Desire

Fear the inevitable
insatiable
drive of desire
That which lights the inner fire
fear that which gives reason
To chase dreams through the mire
to find within oneself treason
of the highest cause
Sell yourself out for what you want
That's the name of the game
to lose yourself in all the fame
Downgraded by something so simple
yet so overpowering
a carnal instinct
with the power of history
guiding it forward
Yes, fear that which you want
Because it never turns out
The way you want it
a miscalculation of epic proportion
so grandiose as to usurp from your mind
the position of highest priority
a selfish cause, a selfish heart
to sacrifice everything else for just one thing
That which you want the most
a dream, a vision
whatever you may call it
Desire, fate's vixen
calling you forward to complete
that which drives you forward
Fear what you desire


I Love You, Good Morning

Delightful are the hours before you awake
To watch you sleep, to watch you take
deep, long breaths, in and out
so peaceful, so lovely, there is no doubt
That I could watch you sleep forever
And never once grow of it, tired
yet, I long for you to wake
So we can be together and make
This day our own
To love and laugh and kiss
To hug and cuddle
To share every moment of this
Life we've come to know
Together, babe, forever
Sends down my spine, a shiver
So, while watching you sleep
and being content, you see
I'm in quite a bit of a quandary
Because I want you awake, to be
by my side and sharing in everything
I love you, good morning!


Kandy Korn

Every Halloween, I shake and I shiver
from something so frightening
As to silently deliver
my secret fears, my hidden shame
a darkness on my soul
like a blight of cold
thoughts and bleak landscape
Twisting to break free
to hear me scream
with the torment of a soul
on the edge of the world
Getting ready to fall off into an abyss
and all you do is ask what is this
What is this thing that has you frightened
scared like a child that has seen
their first horror flick
What could have you shaking so badly
That you're too afraid to even leave
your house on All Hallow's Eve
and I say to you, it's true
that there is a force in this world
that comes every year, at this time
A force so malicious that it drains my courage
and leaves me so alone in the dark
a small little object of yellow
of orange and of white
Pointed and not
depending on the end you hold up
and come this Halloween
Again I will hide myself away
again, I will have to go
Because Kandy Korn?
it's just evil, yo.


Love For All Time

You know, it's funny how it happens
Like some magical enchantment
Two people fall in love with each other
So deliciously attracted to each other
Never did I think it would happen to me
and never, in this way, did I imagine it to be
So many times before, others did I warn
Those other poor saps, online their love was born
yet here I am, now, falling head over heels
my head, spinning, it all just seems surreal
The same warnings now given back to me
by people trying to explain the hazards to me
as if I didn't know, as if I didn't weigh
this all out before I said I loved you that day
You can't stop love, you can't stop the feeling inside
no matter where it comes from, you can't stop the tide
And if my lot is to be hurt, my heart torn from my chest
I will regret not a minute of it, I will glady face the test
I will bravely see through what comes next
and still proclaim you to be better than the rest
A diamond in the rough, and born to be tough
A goddess, small in size, but great inside
I love you more than words can say
and I look forward to a lifetime with you
perhaps a family beyond just us two
a million days span before us, ours for the taking
and time is the only barrier that needs breaking
so, for now, I am content just to be with you
to talk with you, to hear your stories and share mine
Because I love you and I need you
to be with me, and love me and need me for all time


Love Will Last Forever

Betwixt the earth and sky
Many things flutter and fly
But none are there that dare to match
The flight of souls, hand in hand
Two dreamers dreaming of forever
Two hearts doomed to love each other
Two souls meant to rediscover
for themselves, the path of love
for most, just a figment
a passing particle of imagination
but to us, a reality so sweet
as to; on it's own; live and breathe
And such sweet love it is
That fills us to the brim
O glorious day that brought us together!
Our love is young and looks to last forever!
The birds sing, signifying that this is our spring
That we should drink it up, enjoy, and spend it loving
For as each spring turns hence to summer
Each summer turns then to autumn, and then to winter
And when the winter of our lives is upon us, dear
I will still say that our love will last forever


Love You and Love You

If I could....
I'd fight away all of your fears
and wipe away your tears
and just hold your hand
through all the bad times
but right now I can't even do that
and it wears on me, tears me up inside
because it seems
that all I can do
is just love you
~
Love you and love you
unconditionally
With all of my heart
When what I'd rather do
is just be with you
~
To lift your head up
And stare into your eyes
to kiss your lips
to hold you in my arms
And tell you that everything
is gonna be alright
but right now, it's killing me
that I can't even do that
All I can do right now
is just love you
~
Love you and love you
unconditionally
to hold you in my heart
To dance with you in my soul
I'd rather dance with you in person
~
I'd like to be there
by your side
for every fear that you fight
for every tear that you cry
and then I would just
hold you in my arms
and tell you that everything
is gonna be alright
Stroke your hair
with my hands
and just hold you tight
And I can't even do that
~
Just love you and love you
Unconditionally
Hold you in my heart and soul
and tell you every day
I love you, babe


The Only One

For you I'd do anything
Just to be your man
A millions things have crossed my mind
But here is where I make my stand
Love is so fleeting in this dreary existence
Hard to find and ever elusive
Through the paths I've chosen
You stand in the distance, a beacon
Calling to me, to my ears like the mythical Siren
Playing upon her Dulcimer
Your eyes, your mouth, your face, your hair
The way it falls everywhere
Your touch; your kiss is ecstacy
To be near you is almost more than I can bear
This romance, a free fall
Of twisting new emotions
Boiling up to the surface
Your skin, your love,
And everything I've said above
I'm crazy for you, filled with desire
Our love's like a wildfire
Burning brightly into the night
Your words are like the poetry
Of those long laid to rest
Deeply etched unto my soul
Like words upon a stone
Eloquent, yes intelligent
A gift for my ears alone
I'll love you for as long as I can, forever
An eternity of pleasure
To be found in the space between your arms
This need, your touch
To be the one you love
I'll never want or need another
After having met you, my lover
Fate so kind has bestowed to me
This gift; this treasure; you, and I won't need
Anything ever again
Only you, your love, my heart
I pray that we'll never be apart
Your jokes, your laugh, your unrelenting strength
I need, I need, I need everything you have
Your loving kiss, this divine bliss
To need you with all my soul
When I am with you, my heart is whole
Your words, your loving and tender embrace
You are my one and everything
To be cut off from you would take away my breath
And would be worse to me than death
You are and always will be
The only one for me


Your Picture

an image in my soul, a portrait in my mind
painted by one of the great artists of time
perhaps it was Rembrandt or maybe it was Botticelli
that painted you in my heart so keenly
But they could never paint so beautifully
as beautiful as their paintings were
They could never have painted you, my dear
An angel suspended on silver wings
A halo of hair through which the sun is shining
Causing a Sunset glow so divine
as to melt my heart, to destroy my mind
but the beauty of the painting does not stop there
No, indeed it doesn't, my sweetheart
For the genius of the painter was this:
How they were able to paint me in it
How they were able to paint me in your arms
A devil like me with an angel like you
And therein it seems, lies the charm
Why our love will see us through
And I thank the artist who painted me there
Trapped willingly forever, in your picture


Love Will Save

Days pass without a trace,
Leaving me with a feeling of disgrace.
a moment lost, but never found;
and the baying of a hound.
I pray for a miracle:
Come save my soul
~
And they cry
Love will save you
Love will save you
Love will save you
~
What is love but a tangle of confused perceptions
you thought you loved them, but you were mistaken
A midnight walk reveals the truth
so plain to see, and there's the shame
Everyone knew, except you
And your partner wears the blame
~
And they cry
Love will save you
Love will save your soul
Love will save you
~
I look to heaven, I search for help
I'm told that love will save my soul
But when I look, all I find are the shards
of another already broken heart
not mine but theirs
And my sins grow bigger
~
And still they cry
Love will save you
Love will save your soul
Love will save you
Love will save your soul
~
Days still pass without a trace
I'm still left with the disgrace
of tearing hearts from the chests
of those who thought I was the best
And I pray for a miracle
Come save my soul

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