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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
...May 13, 2008; 9:52pm MT
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Naxir: you should hear more songs
Sesshawn: yes, madonna. we do all need to talk, but i guess that won't be for a very long time.
XxDirEnGreyxX666: thanks...
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well, this may be my last post on here.. i guess just not enough people comment. i comment on lots of others but oh well. as for the whole party thing i was supposed to be having, i don't think it will. i mean like all of my friends will be there, but because their planned date happens to be on a thursday, i have to work. and currently i can not afford to miss it. i asked for it off but my manager told me no. he was nice about it tho. i'll have to give him that. i have a huge bill to pay and i just can't miss work. oh well. i'll get over it i guess. from what i understand, all of my friends are leaving for the summer. i'm nearly graduated from high school. that'll make a whole year early. my parents pushed me really hard to accomplish this but now they say that they'd rather me stay in school and go next year. i told them that i wasn't spending another year at a school with none of my friends. it's just not worth it. after my friends and i turn eighteen we're all supposed to move out together. at this point i don't think we're all going to make it. some of them might have to be left behind. i wouldn't be able to take it knowing that one or two had to live all by themselves, after looking forward to this, just because of a conflicting rule in some of their religions.. i'm sorry.. i don't mean to rant...i guess i'm just tired of trying. i really wish my friends would come to see me more often. no offence to them or anything but i'm always the one who ends up going there or giving rides, when i know that i can't afford the gas money. i know that they care it's just hard for me to keep trying. even when i tried to kill myself, the ones who knew still didn't come. nobody tried to stop me. i cried and some thought it was because of the pain in my wirsts and throat... i only cried because i was still alive after another failed attempt. oh well, i guess... maybe i am weak. maybe everyone is right and i really can't do anything. well, this is goodbye MyO. i don't really know if i'll come back. who really knows...
Tesshnira~~~
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