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Saturday, June 30, 2007


Exams are finally over. But somehow, I don't feel too happy about it.

*sigh* I know I did my papers very badly. I didn't understand the questions, couldn't answer the questions, didn't have the time to finish writing my answers... In short, I did very badly for ALL of my papers this time.

In the past, when exams are over, I'd go all "YAY! IT'S OVER!!! LET'S CELEBRATE!!!" No matter how badly I did my papers. Yet, this time around, I don't feel rejoiced. I don't feel so relieved that exams are over.

Maybe it's because I still have lots of 'holiday' homework that I didn't do, but... still. *sigh*

I can guarantee that I fail my Maths and Physics. I don't know how I did for my Biology; I summarised all the process into just a few lines and coudn't figure out how to draw proper diagrams. I think I summarised the process too much. =_=;;

I didn't have enough time to finish up my Economics essay. There are two parts to the essay, and when the teacher announced, "You have 15 minutes left.", I was still at part one! I haven't even started on part two! ~_~;;

I think the only subject that I can at least pass is Mother Tongue. >.<|| Haha~ How ironic. =_=;;


I've got to go finish up my 'holiday' homework now. Else my conduct grade will go down. ~_~;;

God Bless everyone.

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Monday, June 18, 2007


I'm back in less than a month. Last post was 25 May and now it's just 18 June. I made it in less than a month!

Yay~~! ^__^


But there's not really much reason to celebrate. I have my exams next week! >.<||


I'm faring quite well with Biology right now. I've managed to read up and understand some of the main points. So I'm quite ok.

Physics is quite fine, I suppose. I just hope they don't ask trick questions. >.<|| Or phrase the questions in a very weird way. -_-;;

Maths is still horrible. I don't know what to do with my Maths anymore. I'm simply atrocious at it! And to think that I was one of the best students for Maths during secondary school years...

That's all the past now... I'm in Junior College now... and I'm bad at Maths... ~_~;;

Economics is by far the only subject that I'm happiest with. ^_^ The concepts are easy to understand. Only that when writing the essay, you have to remember to include all the details... and sometimes, you just forget one or two points, and you'll lose quite a lot of marks! x_x

Other than exam and study-related issues, I'm quite happy with everything else in my life~ =)

I joined the AVA Club~! ^_^ And it's one heck of a club! It's a small club, and I'm quite close to the only other girl in it. And I'm happy with that. ^_^

The President is a nice guy... especially nice to girls. =P Means we get better treatment. Don't need to carry the heavy stuff, things like that. ^_^ Haha~

It's not really good to get special treatment, but hey, no one has complained so far. ^_^ So I'm quite glad~ ^_^


The only thing I like about school is my AVA Club. =P



I've got to get back to studying now. First 'real' paper is MATHS! >.<|| [because nobody really takes Mother Tongue seriously =P]


God Bless all of you. ^_^

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Friday, May 25, 2007




School has really eaten up my time. I go out of my house at 06 00, and come back only after 17 00 or 18 00. >.<; Then, there's still homework for me to do, and reading up on lecture notes... Must do a lot.

JC life is really, really tough. Aside from the studies part, there's also the people part.

I've gotten to know my classmates better. And I dislike half of them. >.< And this half mainly consists of girls. -_-; Haha~ It's kind of weird that I find the boys are better than the girls.

The girls like to B**** around, be late for classes, cheat in tests... in short, do all the things that a rational student wouldn't do. And for that, I don't like them. One of the girls has a serious attitude problem. She talks bad about EVERYONE behind their backs, but in front of them, she acts so friendly and nice to them.

I find it ironic. A girl with two sides. I hate that kind of people. And for this reason alone, I think it's enough for me not to be over-friendly with her.

There are a few other girls who I'm close to, they're the nice people, and there's so few of them... It's kind of sad.

The boys in my class are quite okay. There's the metrosexual, the macho guy, the guy with-the-cockroach-hairstyle ... and many more. [Believe it or not, these nicknames were given by my own teacher! Haha~ -_-;]

The boys are generally okay, they're not as bad as the girls in terms of punctuality and manners. If I were to rank the girls and boys in the class according to best to worst, the boys would hog the top list.

And the boys in my class hardly talk to me. Maybe because they have the impression that I'm a goody-two shoes who has never interacted with boys before and wouldn't know how to approach me. >.<||

Not that I blame the boys, because I don't know how to approach them either. Having spent ten years in an all-girls school, I have never really interacted with people of the opposite gender. So it gets a bit awkward for me sometimes. -_-; Heheh~

So I mainly stick to my old secondary school friends. Even though we are in different classes, we usually have the same lunch times. So we eat lunch together most days. ^__^

Weirdly enough, I don't feel too lonely most of the time. I am not close to most of the girls in my class. I'm on good terms with everyone, no enemies among us, and we don't fight. So I think it's okay~ ^__^

I'm fine with it. I don't have too much time to think about this issue anyway. I'm more worried about my studies!

I'm falling really far behind in Maths - and it can't be helped. I understand some parts of the lecture. There are a lot that I don't understand. And you'd think that tutorials should be better... No! Tutorials are WORST!

The teacher confused me, rather than helped me. >.<||

Now I'm a lost little sheep in a world of numbers, and I can't speak 'mathematical language'. >.<||

Biology is only a bit better than my Maths. Out of the whole class, only one person passed, and the that person is... me. -_-; It came as a surprise, since I'm a bit behind in Biology, and there are other who are better than me. But then again, I only just passed. My mark was the passing mark. Haha~ So nothing to be proud of. >.<||

Physics is so far the only one that I'm not really behind on. Maybe it's because of the teacher's teaching style. I don't know. But I'm glad that I'm on task with Physics. =)


It's getting too late. I manage to get this post only because it's the last day of term. Though holidays aren't holidays since we have to go back to school for extra lessons. >.<|| Still~ I deserve a one night break. Though I failed my Maths and barely passed Biology. -_-; Heheh~

But ah well~

Good night~

And hopefully, it won't be TOO long till the next time I come back. ^_^ Heheh~ =)

Take care~ =)

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Tuesday, April 3, 2007

It took me about a month or so to update. >.<

School has gotten into [almost] full swing. It has been about three? weeks or so. From make up lectures to temporary timetables... and now, we have our permanent timetables. But I think there will be changes to it, too. The Maths lecture venue has clashed with another lecture. >_< It was a frenzy on that day. Nobody knew where to go. >.<

It is still hectic. ^_^;

School has not gotten into full swing yet. That's why I still have the time to go online. I also have to work on my projects! >.<;

It's hard work. School, I mean.

I understand what they say in the lecture. But when they give me questions to solve, I've no idea what to do. >.< Is it just me, or do I really need more practise? >_<

And Physical Education will one day be the death of me! >.< My PE teacher made us run around the whole school! >_<; We ran around the track, on the perimeters of the basketball courts, netball courts, and whatever-have-yous. >_<; Worse is, he kept turning back to call the last few people. "The last six girls! Hurry up!" -_-; "Why are you WALKING?!"

I hope I get better soon. In running, that is. >_< That way, I can run away from him! >_< Haha~

Other than that, life's all good! ^_^

I made some new friends. Although, my class hasn't really bonded yet. >_< But I suppose it takes time. So we'll just have to wait and see~ ^__^ Or maybe my class bonded without me? ~_~; That would suck. >_< Haha~

Thing is, Life Goes On!

I will definitely do my best for school! ^__^

*continues to cheer herself on*

Must keep the motivation going, ne? ^__^

I hope all of you have a nice day/week.month. ^__^

P/S: Miss A! Thank you so much for taking the time to PM me~! Me Lub You~! ^__^ And thank you for all the encouragement! ^_^ Hopefully, the comment box will obey your commands soon. ^__^ Heheh~ Till then, Fight On! =)

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Friday, March 16, 2007


It's been quite some time AGAIN. I've been meaning to update, but every time I get online, most of the time, I'm occupied with checking my e-mails! And that takes up the bulk of the time! >_<; I'm sorry. >.<

Anyway, just to update you guys~

I'm now in school! ^__^

I'm posted to SR JC. It's about the closest one to my house. But I still have to wake up at 05 30 in the morning, and get out of the house by 06 20 just to get in school by 07 00. -_-;

I won't complain though. Since it is my first choice of school! ^_^ And two of my other classmates got into the same school. It makes me happier to know that I at least know two people there. =)

During the three days orientation, I've made new friends. ^_^ Most of them are very friendly, and I want to know them better. ^_^ I just hope my new found friends and classmates can bond together, and become the best classmates I've ever had! =)

I look forward to having a fulfilling two years in this school with great friends. =) I hope I can survive! ^__^

One thing though.

I heard from seniors that "Once you enter a JC, you won't have a life anymore." This implies that you'll be so busy with school, projects and what nots that you won't have much of a life outside of school. >_<

I wouldn't mind such a life, as long as the people in school are nice and friendly people who are fun to hang around with. =)

I hope to come back here alive. ^___^

I wish all of you the best in everything! =)

Have a nice day/week/month/year/two years.
[Just in case I don't get back in. >_<; Heheh.]

Lots of Love~! ^_^

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Sunday, February 25, 2007


Been going out a lot these past few days~ Walking around shopping malls, playing at the arcade, eating out, grandparents' house... I'm quite tired. ^_^; Though I did have fun~ ^_^

My grandmother's birthday is tomorrow [on Monday] but we celebrated it yesterday instead. ^_^ My sister and I baked a birthday cake for her~ ^_^ Complete with chocolate cream and all~ ^_^ I'm proud of my little cake. ^_^

Everyone likes it too. So, whew~! I was afraid that they wouldn't like it. Heheh. =_=;


The results for the which-school-you-are-assigned-to are not out yet. But I'm already preparing ahead of it. ^_^ Borrowed my cousin's notes, so I wouldn't be too lost when school starts. >_<

So yeah~

I need to start revising soon~ Because life in JC, is very busy~ I expect few free time, and less computer time... ~_~;

But I'll do my best! ^__^

Have a good day~ ^__^

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Sunday, February 11, 2007


My results are out, and I've got a pretty decent score. It'll at least qualify me for a Junior College [JC]. ^_^ I'm glad.

Even though I am certainly NOT qualified for a good JC, a JC is still a JC, and that I'm going to be entering one is good enough. ^_^

With a raw score of 17, I'm only qualified for three JCs, and two of them are very, very far from my house. So I pray that I'll get into the one nearest to my house.

I've yet to submit the application form for the JC, but I will. By tonight. Because the deadline's on Wednesday, and I don't want to wait until the last minute. ^_^

Life is good - except that I've to go back to my old school to get my result slips and meet all the teachers that I'd prefer not to meet. >_<;

Let's pray that I can get into the school of my choice. ^_^

May God Bless you all~!

Have a nice day~!

[I'm off to go to school... teacher has summoned us... -_-;]

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Wednesday, February 7, 2007


I've finally gotten over it. Seems like time is all I need, and a place to pour out my emotions. ^_^ I'm feeling better right now. Good as I can be. ^_^

We're all on good terms now. And I'm glad. There's no point in fighting, anyway. I am just happy that we're still friends. ^_^

Thank you for listening to me. Especially Miss Anonymous~ Thank you so much~! ^__^

Right now, I'm baking~! Excited~ Chinese New Year is coming up! And I'm off to bake more cookies~! ^__^

Oh, my O Level exam results are coming out this Friday. THIS Friday~!!! I'm so nervous. I hope I did well enough to get into a good school. I pray hard every day!


I'm so nervous~

On a happier note, I wish all of you a very good day~! ^_^ I hope you all had fun~! ^_^

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Friday, January 26, 2007


The week couldn't get any worse.

Now I'm pissed off at BOTH A and B.

Well, mostly B, actually.

But BOTH of them pissed me off.

A did something unforgivable - something that I'll never be able to forgive.

Both A and B did something else that I will never -ever- be able to forgive.

I am restraining myself from calling them worse names than 'idiots' because it'll be a whole bloody mess to clean up if they ever find out my true feelings.

I mean, they just went off on their own, without me... As if I didn't exist.

That's exactly how I've been treated.

Once they meet up with their friends from outside - those that I do not know - they totally ignored me. As if I am not as important as them. They didn't even bother to introduce me to them, or vice versa!

Isn't that just plain rude?

*still mad*

I thought that things between us would cool down. It's been a few days, and since they don't know that I'm mad at them, there wouldn't be any point in staying angry... BUT.

But I found out something that neither of them told me. It's quite an important thing - not life and death situation, but it's still pretty important. But it's something that I think I deserve to know.

I mean, all three of us were in on it together. Why didn't they tell me? I don't deserve to have as much fun as they do? It's not fair.

It's just not fair.


I know I'm being kind of emotional lately. Maybe it's because the O Level Results are coming out soon. The results will mean a lot; it decides our future. It certainly does.

I'm confused at the moment. Which school to go to, which course to take... I've got a lot of things on my mind. I'm not sure of anything any more.


I'm such a confused idiot.

I need some time to think things through.

This problem with my friends is certainly not welcome. It's a hindrance!


I don't know what to do anymore.


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Sunday, January 21, 2007


Don't you just hate it when your plan doesn't go well? Don't you?!

I hate it so.

Really. And I spent more than a week planning it, to make it perfect, and there're absolutely no loop holes at all. The plan was perfect. So perfect that no one could've messed it up.

But somebody did.

And I really feel like killing that somebody.


I am in a very foul mood right now.

The plan was simple.

Arrive at Ngee Ann Polytechnic [NP] at 11 00. Explore, find out more about the courses offered in the poly, and have fun... Then, by 13 00, leave. Take the train and go to Temasek Polytechnic [TP]. Arrive at TP by 15 00. That way, we'll have at least two hours to explore TP just like we explore NP.

Very simple to follow, yes?

I still don't get how just one person can ruin everything I delicately planned.

I'm still irritated.

Let me tell the whole story.

B and I had planned to go to NP and TP since a long time ago. I planned it just right. A perfect plan. Then M said she wanted to come. I allowed her to join us.

A had school, but wanted to skip school just so she can follow us. But the thing is...

A and B had a fight.

They're not on talking terms. I ended up as a middle person. B keeps telling me that it's all A's fault, and that she didn't really care. A keeps insisting that it's all B's fault, and she's not going to apologise. Typical, no? But I hate being in the middle. It's A versus B. So don't involve me in it! It was a stupid argument between them that had nothing to do with me, so why am I being punished?!

Because of their fight, A didn't know whether to follow us for the open house. She called me and I told her to either make up and be friends again with B, or don't go. I don't like awkward situations and that'll be the case if she comes along.

On the day of the outing...

B and I had already arrived at NP when M called B's handphone to say that she'll be late. [I don't have a handphone.] We told her to come as quickly as possible. The plan was to get out of the place to get to TP by 13 00, and it was already getting late.

M turned up much later. At about 12 plus. With A. WITH A!

I was kind of pissed off that M didn't tell me that A will meet her first. A didn't even tell me that she'll be coming with M. I know I didn't help her much by telling her to make up with B, but hey, it's not me she's having a fight with!

So A was with M. No wonder M was late. A was notorious for being late. She is always late, no matter the occasion. Except for, maybe, school. But if she's late, it'll be an hour or more. She's never just ten or five minutes late. It's always one, two or three hours.

A came after all. [Pissed off.] It was A's fault that the two of them were late; that was obvious. M didn't tell me that A would be coming with her. Neither did A tell me she'll be coming. [Pissed off times two.]

Then, they acted like they had all the time in the world to hang around at the Atrium, where the various clubs and groups put up exhibition booths, when we were supposed to go to the Convention Center, where we can find out more about the courses offered. [Pissed off times three.]

M and A wanted to take a look around the Atrium, and told us to go to the Convention Center first. They had the cheek! What's the point of waiting for them, then? If they wanted us to go to the Convention Center first, then there wouldn't be any point in waiting for them! What a waste of our time! [Pissed off times four.]

B and I headed to the Convention Center first, anyway. We are going to leave as planned at 13 00. As the local slang goes, "Die Die must do it."

We didn't have as much time to go around as I'd liked. I wanted to keep to my plan, because R would be waiting at TP for us.

We were talking to a student of NP who was enthusiastically explaining about the course. We really liked the student and the way she explained. It made us excited, and very tempted to join the course. We got held up. It was 13 10 or so when we parted because she had class.

We met with M and A who was also at the Center by then. We asked whether they wanted to come along with us, as per the original plan, but they decided not to since they haven't had the time to explore the place thoroughly. [Pissed off times five.] We might've just as well NOT WAIT FOR THEM FOR OVER AN HOUR! It's a waste of our time! They two of them could've just gone on their own, and didn't even have to meet up with me and B! Idiots. They are idiots! A, actually. Because M said earlier that she might not follow us to TP. But A. A is an idiot. A big idiot at that.

They're both idiots for making me wait.


I have idiotic friends. [Pissed off times six]

As a result, we left only at 13 30, because A took a long time to decide whether or not she wanted to follow us. [Pissed off times seven] And this was after B told A something that I wouldn't want A to know. I have no idea why B told M and A that secret that B and I wanted to keep. We promised not to tell anyone or show the picture to anyone. [Pissed off times eight.]

We arrived late. R came on time, and B and I were late. Who's fault is that? M and A. Ugh. I really feel like killing them.

R is was alone enough times already. I really didn't want to be late meeting her, because I've 'abandoned' her once already. I don't want her to feel hurt. She was hurt enough during that one time when I 'abandoned' her. I wanted to make up for it.

Alas, it won't go as planned. We were late meeting R, she said she didn't mind. But I do. I am never late. NEVER. Unless I did it on purpose. With good reasons, too. [Pissed off times nine.]

After that, R, B and I went around TP, enjoying ourselves. The rest of the day turned out okay.

But the fact that I couldn't find the people that I wanted meet, it saddens me. Instead, I met people that I despise. [Pissed off times ten.]

So all in all, things went... ?

For the record, I am still pissed off.

And I can't say this in my blog because they just won't understand. They think there's nothing wrong in being late. Ugh.

Nobody cares about punctuality any more. Nobody.

I'm just the type of a person who does not tolerate tardiness.

Is it wrong?

I mean, we promised to meet at a certain place at the stated time. So why can't people just turn up on time? Why must they keep being late? Making people wait. Isn't it time they change? It's for their own sake!

Did that rhyme? -_-; It seems like every time I get pissed off, or irritated, I start to speak and think in rhyme. Haha...


The above reasons - ten, I think - are not the only reasons why I am pissed off. It also lies with what happened the day after.

The open house at TP also included a seminar, which was held the day after. B and R were scheduled to join me. Once again, they disappoint me with tardiness.

The registration started at 90 45. I told R to meet me at the bus stop at 09 15 to 09 20. I told B to meet at 09 30. I was there at 09 14.

By 09 50, none of them turned up.

I was so pissed off.

I went in on my own.

If they get lost, then good for them!

There was an empty seat beside me. For B or R if they bothered to come. They were late. B's excuse was reasonable, I think. Something about the grandfather or something... So I guess I shouldn't be that angry at her.

R turned up with M in tow. I didn't know they were going together. No one bothered to tell me either. Pissed off, yet again.

R's reason was: She thought I said 09 50. How could she have said that?! Maybe 09 15 sounds like 09 50, but I'm very particular about tardiness and the seminar starts at 09 45 - how could she think I said 09 50? How long has she known me? Two days? More like - give and take - ten years!

09 50 at the bus stop. Yeah right. It's quite a long distance; we need time to walk!!! And we planned to go early to get good seats!

Therefore, yet again, I was pissed off. So early in the morning, too.

Then B met her old friends and she didn't bother to introduce us or something. I know that she hasn't met her old friends for quite some time. But did that give the right to not introduce us? Or to abandon me altogether? B and I were walking out of the seminar room, then she met her old friends, talked to them, hugged them... blablabla. And I just stood one side. They started talking, blablabla... What am I, a pillar?

Then, she told me to go on ahead with M, R and A. ? I'm already pissed off with them and she couldn't tell? I decided to forgive her ignorance. Then A said she was supposed to meet N. ?! What the heck?

I thought it was jsut going to be a small group, going together, having fun. A big group is not fun.

And I wanted to show them around. I'm quite familiar with the place since I've been there a lot. But no, I had to go off to meet my Aunt and Uncle who came all the way from *insertnameofcountryhere* and bid them goodbye since they'll be going back home to London, I think.

And I wanted to explore TP. It's my first choice in the list of schools. Yet I couldn't explore and look around. It sadddens me.

It really does.

I totally feel horrible. I was looking forward to having fun in TP with my few friends... and it was spoiled all because of tardiness.

The main reason has to be A's tardiness, which caused M to be late on the previous day. Then, R and M and B, too, were all late.

I am totally feeling horrible. I don't feel like talking to anyone that I know. Because technically, A, B, M and R were the only people that I actually talk to. So I can't talk to anyone else.

I wanted to call K, my closest friend, but she's so busy with school, and I don't think she has the time for me. *sobs*

My blog is not an option because B and A will always check on it. They don't have any idea how I'm feeling...

MyO is my only option.

No one that I know in real life knows about my MyO site. And for that, I'm grateful to have this.


Somehow, writing it all down - or rather typing it all up ^_^; - seems to be a bit of a relief for me. *sigh*

I'm sorry to bother all of you with my problem. I'm sure you don't need more. -_-; But I just had to get it all off. *sigh*

Now I don't feel like doing anything any more...

Feeling so horrible...

Forgive me for not being able to get to sites today.

*feeling down*

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