Monday, June 23, 2008

i really dislike

when i'm in front of my cake with the candles lit and everyone surrounds me singing happy birthday. liek...let maru just sink into the cracks now please. i went to my aunt's house in the country, she lives on a farm. the best part was when i was riding the quad (4 wheeler) and i was out in the country going so fast my heart was racing, with the sunset near an end....it was amazing. the feeling was awesome XD how are my lovelies?? -maru-

Saturday, June 21, 2008

happy birthday

to maru! june 22, 1991 i graced this world with my awesomness presence. hello to my 17th year of surviving this insane morbid twisted world. as a present can someone PLEASE tell me how to get an icon?! VERY specific directions on how to get one (cuz i am bad with directions >.<) cuz no matter what i do the evil blank wont leave! ~maru-chan~

Thursday, June 19, 2008

   i wont admit

i'm crushing on someone....=[ and i hate feeling so....vulnerable when i'm around this person. worst yet, it could never work out.

Monday, June 16, 2008

self revolution

i believe that if someone doesn't live for anything, they are useless to the world. find your own meaning and make yourself something. i'm not numb anymore, but i'm still finding happiness. i want to be with my emotions again. cuz it's still hard for me to cry. i am not ashamed of my scars. there is proof i lived through my torture. there is a story behind me, that i intend not to share with strangers, but with lovers. accept me who i am, or miss out on something wonderful. -maru-

Monday, June 9, 2008

summer

i'm at my dad's house. i have been working and making money. dad is paying for me to get 2 new piercings in my right ear and 1 in my left. so i'll have 4 in each ear. i'm meditating on confidence =] -maru-

Saturday, May 31, 2008

I'M HOME FROM MEDORA FINALLY

the ride there took 7 hours cuz of my adorable 2yr old and 9 monther year old cousins. medora was kinda shitty. 1. the pool was closed. (i fucking LOVE swimming) 2. The shower water turned cold right as i was washing 3.the buggy ride canceled. 4. no refunds except the horse ride 5. i chickened out on the horse ride...... cuz im scared of horses the only things that did work out was 1. the pitch-fork steak fondue 2. the western musical play...i hate country music by the way. i swear i lost pounds cuz mom and i walked miles and miles. i made a japanese bear in a kimono and named him Yuki =3 .....no relation to my pervy friend Yukii.....XD A SMALL BOTTLE OF WATER COST $2.50 WTF PPL?! W.T.F?!?!?? i got a light sunburn. but mom worried cuz i have a high risk of skin cancer =\ i'm one of those that burn and never tan T.T the ride home took only 4 hours....0__o Medora, North Dakota located in the badlands. where my mom and my grandma were born. beautiful scenery, but i never wanna go back. -Maru-

Sunday, May 18, 2008

marriage & love

heres the thing...marriage is shit. christian shit. why should we need documents and ring to symbolize and complete love?? do we all need innanimate objects to symbolize feelings we can't explain to make it simpler?? hmm... -maru-

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

chandra

is a whore!! =] no seriously though.... i'm sleepy.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

prom night

i now officially love strawberry kisses haha. and ass grabbing XD chandra is a big flirt. but there was this one chick who pissed us off. she wouldn't let us do this grand march thing, she was so bitchy about it that chandra had to leave for a few minutes cuz she was gonna smack her. she didn't wanna ruin my prom night though by getting kicked out..... i gave her permission to smack anyone from my shitty school. baibai! ~maru~

Saturday, May 10, 2008

pRoM

today is prom. chandra is coming early to shop then get ready =] i only got 4 hrs of sleep. i'm so fucking tired. Yukii got his dick pierced, i find it hot when a dude does that. XD ~Maru~