Sunday, February 4, 2007

it's been a while.
You taught me one thing when I was born. You taught me with actions. You taught me to never show emotion…hide your real feeling…by turning your back. You taught me pain…by never talking to me. You taught me is a cruel war…by never being there for me. I learned not to show emotions…by seeing you. You taught me fake emotions and now I’m an empty shell…because your lessons…without saying a word. Waking and going to sleep in an empty house. Walking miles to go to school and back. I have no one…I’m alone in this world…but I will survive…because not seeing you taught me that.

You’ll see…you’ll see. If you don’t see it standing here in front of you…you’re blind. So blind….why can’t you see me as more than a friend…why me? Why can’t you see me?! I’m here shouting loud I love you…why can’t you see it…all you say is oh she’s hot what’s her name! But what about me?! I am here by your side…I will wait till there’s no more time…I shall be there waiting by your side for my day…with you…but why…why…why can’t you see my feelings burning inside? Why why why?! Why cant you see my love…are you really that blind…or is it that you see my love and ignore it…Why why why…why me...if I die before I’m with you…if I die from your harsh words…I shall still be with you…I shall be here for you shouting from above or below…I love you…I’ll show you the way…just let me into your soul…show me your love and in return…I’ll show you the world and the universe…but no…just be blind…I’ll wait for my chance by your side…I’ll give you my love and wait till there is no more time…I love you…so just let me show you my feelings inside…I’ll wait for you…I love you…I’ll wait to love you till I die…in an early silence…a voice only loud enough to be heard…shall utter these word…“I love you”…

I loved you first

I loved you first my darling, I loved you first my dear, I loved you first my baby…so why are you going over there?
I loved you first my darling, I loved you first my dear, I loved you first my baby…so why aren’t you staying here?
I loved you first my darling, I loved you first my dear, I loved you first my baby…so who’s the girl next to you?

Chorus:
I loved you...I loved you first
Your love…your love was the worst
You’re poison and you’re killing me
Now I’m not so sure I wanna love thee
And I wanna just be free

I loved you first my darling, I loved you first my dear, I loved you first my baby…so who’s the broad in your arms?
I loved you first my darling, I loved you first my dear, I loved you first my baby…you promised you’d stay here

Who is that girl beside you? Who is that broad on your arm? Who is that wench you’re kissing when you supposed to be with me?!

Chorus:
I loved you...I loved you first
Your love…your love was the worst
You’re poison and you’re killing me
Now I’m not so sure I wanna love thee
And I wanna just be free

I loved you first my darling, key word first my dear, I loved you first my baby…Do you have any honor or loyalty?

I loved you first my darling, I loved you first my dear, I loved you first my baby…I’m supposed to be that girl standing there!
I loved you first my darling, I loved you first my dear, I loved you first my baby…you tore my heart in two! Two x3 tore my heart in two

Chorus:
I loved you...I loved you first
Your love…your love was the worst
You’re poison and you’re killing me
Now I’m not so sure I wanna love thee
And I wanna just be free

Who was with you in the tough times? Who comforted you when you were down? Who held you up when you were falling? Who loved you unconditionally in the worst of times?

I stood by you, I comforted you, I held you up and I loved you. I cared for you when you were sick and I, alone, was your hope.

Chorus:
I loved you...I loved you first
Your love…your love was the worst
You’re poison and you’re killing me
Now I’m not so sure I wanna love thee
And I wanna just be free

Where is the thanks, I so deserve? Where is my love supposed to go? Why do I still love you when you abandoned me…am I only in your past…unmentioned and long forgotten. You got a big break and I was left in the dust and I watched you walk away…too many times…too many ways…you’ve hurt me.

Don’t come back to me, when you see that she is fake. And don’t dare turn to me and expect me to love you again.

Chorus:
I loved you...I loved you first
Your love…your love was the worst
You’re poison and you’re killing me
Now I’m not so sure I wanna love thee
And I wanna just be free

My trust was broken, my heart needed mending and you…you just stood there, stared and turned your back.

Chorus:
I loved you...I loved you first
Your love…your love was the worst
You’re poison and you’re killing me
Now I’m not so sure I wanna love thee
And I wanna just be free

Tell me my darling…why would I forgive you? Tell me my dear…why would I still love you? Tell me my baby…why you broke your promise? You promised me…that we would always be…the best of friends and lovers…oh well…too bad…that the past…as you love to say…it’s done…it’s gone…I was just so young.

Chorus:
I loved you...I loved you first
Your love…your love was the worst
You’re poison and you’re killing me
Now I’m not so sure I wanna love thee
And I wanna just be free

I won’t forgive you and no I will not love you…cause it’s killing me inside…to keep you in my heart…so goodbye, my darling…so long, my dear…farewell, my baby and adieu…partings are bitter sweet…but this one wounds my soul…

I loved you first my darling, I loved you first my dear, I loved you first my baby…but no nevermore….

I’ve got the cure
There’s no poison anymore
I’m free to love again
And you’re free to fall…

I loved you...I loved you first
Your love…your love was the worst
You’re poison and you’re killing me
Now I’ll never again love thee
And now I am free
Goodbye……………my…..late…..love…..

Run away run away run away from the dog that’s chasing me
Run away run away run away from the tiger who wants to maim me
Run away run away run away from the troubles of the day
Run away run away run away from this war I call home
Run away run away run away don’t you ever come back home
Run away run away run away and forget of all the pain

Hide away hide away hide away from the hits and cries
Hide away hide away hide away from the hurt and the screams
Hide away hide away hide away from your peers and their insults
Hide away hide away hide away from your past and your future
Hide away hide away hide away all your secrets and all your past
Hide away hide away hide away all emotions that are weak

Cry away cry away cry away all the pain that you feel
Cry away cry away cry away all your past and your fears
Cry away cry away cry away and make yourself anew
Cry away cry away cry away all the problems of the day
Cry away cry away cry away all the insults and the hits
Cry away cry away cry away and forget all of the hurt

Cry…hide…run away…go away from this
Cry…hide…run away…go away from pain
Cry…hide…run away…go away from the insults
Cry…hide…run away…go away from fear
Cry…hide…run away…go away from your past
Cry…hide…run away…go away from the screams

Run…
Hide…
Cry away….

Cry…
Hide…
Run away…

Try all you might but they’ll find you and catch you one day
So run and hide and cry all you want but one day they find you and then you’re gone

Run hide cry….repeat and fade

Love me hate me…do what you will
Love me hate me…oh it’s such a thrill
Love me hate me…oh it’s so sublime
Love me hate me…oh all the time

Love me hate me…I know what you think
Love me hate me…that I am weak
Love me hate me…but know that I am strong
Love me hate me…but fight me all the time




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