Thursday, February 1, 2007

Quiz

Don't Fuck With Me Seme
Take Are you a Seme or an Uke? today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.

Serious and to the point, and sometimes bordering on the sadistic, it takes a special breed of uke to satisfy your needs. You tend to be anti-social with little patience for most people. You need someone to challenge you and push you to your limits, and then be able to take the punishment you dish out, which frequently involves rope and alchohol. This is what makes the Badass Uke the yin for your yang, as you're the only one able to put them in line and satisfy each other.

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Thursday, December 7, 2006

Mou Ikkai
So its been a while since I last updated. I can't believe its been so long. I didn't even look at the time I just know that it has been a while. Lets see a lot has happened to me. I just want to talk about the last few weeks of my life really. Okay after finals were over I passed three out of four classes. then I didn't go to school for a week after classes started so I was a week behind. Then the next week I was put into the hospital for suicidal thoughts and cutting the shit out of my arms. Yes I was hospitalized... AGAIN! I am sick and tired of them jumping straight to put me into the looney bin and its not fun there either.... okay I'll take that back, this time it was a little fun. I did like it at Jennie Edmunson better than I did at the ot her place better. Now lets see here. My week was so tiring I don't think I could cry anymore after my eight days in the hospital. I've cried so much it isn't even funny. I hate crying. Let's see... I don't think there is really anything much more to say and I'm not going to go clear into details about the hospital unless you all really want to hear about it. So I've missed about three weeks of school have no idea where any of my classes are and I just want to go home and die. Yes I said it... I want to DIE! Go lock me up again! I don't care! I never want to come back to school again it is so hard and so overwhelming I can't stand it. I just want to die. I don't think I can make it another few weeks here I seriously don't think I can. I need to get out of here badly. I need to go to Kanesville or somewhere like that. I can't do this at all. I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't!!!!
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Thursday, October 19, 2006

   Mou Ikkai
Hey everyone. What's up? Nothing too much going on here. I don't know what to update about, since a lot has happened. I'm at school right now so we'll see if I can write a bit before I get into trouble. Lets see here.

Last night I went to see my therapist. She has been very bitchy lately ever since she got pregnant again. Sometimes I don't even want to tell her what I'm thinking just because she'll say something that might hurt my feelings. And she doesn't even realise she's doing it. She makes me feel bad and she doesn't even notice. Of course I do not tell her to stop nor do I show that it is effecting me. Instead I just sit there and put on a fake smile and pretend that it isn't bothering me. I do that with everything. I don't know what to do anymore. God someone kill me.

I want to go back to Kanesville. Everything was just fine until I decided to go back to Lewis Central. God I want to go back to an alternative school again. Everything was just fine, I did my work, I got to come home early and all that. They even have smaller classes and stuff like that. I just really can't stand Lewis Central or any school for that matter. I just don't want to be here and that would explain why I miss so many days. Of course there are other reasons as to why I don't want to go to school here but I can't exactly pinpoint them. I hate the teachers, I hate the students, and its not making anything better by staying here. All I want to do is either be home schooled or go to Kanesville. If I stay here any longer than I will seriously go off the deep end and probably kill myself.

So last night I started cutting again. It isn't much but it was still cutting. I accidently confessed it during Connections class and the thing goes if you harm yourself, harm others, or if someone is harming you and you tell the teacher can't keep in confidental. So now my mother knows and she's probably going to take me to the mental hospital again. Oh well, it just keeps me out of school. I just don't care anymore. I don't have any emotions, except anger. I'm so stressed out about everything that I don't know what to do. God I am pathetic. I just want to crawl into a little hole and die, wouldn't that just be nice for me? It would. I know it would. I can't help it that I am the way I am. I just need to get out of here. I need to get away before I actually do do something that I'm going to regret.

Anyway that's all with me. I might update later tonight if I feel like it. Only a this class period and one more to go until I'm out of this school for the day. I can't wait.
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Thursday, October 12, 2006

Tomorrow is my lucky day!!!
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Friday, September 22, 2006

She Said Kill Me Faster
Yeah. Nothing to update about but I figured I should do so since I haven't updated since August 16th. So lets see. Today I went to see the convenant... which was pretty good. And I made Chicken for supper... that's a plus. Today at school really sucked just like any other day and that's basically it. Maybe I'll talk more my next update. And hopefully it won't be over a month. xD
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

School Is Here Again
So today I started school. I thought it would suck... and guess what... IT SUCKED! I'm stuck with so many freshmen it isn't funny. I hate freshmen. Why oh why did I switch schools and get myself behind?!

The only good part about today is I didn't have to wake up early. Only freshmen had to go early. Stupid freshmen had to go early but I didn't ha. I love not being a freshmen. anyway here was my day.

First Period/Spanish 1- We sat there and the teacher went over the classroom expectations and rules and told a little about herself. I heard that she's a germophobe. This should be an interesting class to say the least.

Second Period/Chior- We listened to the instructor talk about himself then the other instructor told us some rules and such. Then we sang happy birthday to two people who's birthday was today.

Third Period/Connections- We told about ourselfs, stuff like our name, our grade, why we're there (drugs, alcohol, family, emotional problems) and something interesting about ourself. Everyone in that class is pretty preppy and they're peppy and any other P word that ends in a y. They talked a lot and I wanted to bang my head on the desk. But I didn't.

Fourth Period/Biology A- The teacher talked about himself, what we should expect in his class and some rules. We'll be going over more rules tomorrow. Which should be fun... not.

Fifth period/Foods 1- This happens to be the only class were a lot of my friends have class with me. We sat around and the teacher told a bit about herself then we played a game where we had to find people who had qualities on the list that she gave us and then they had to sign the paper. I just sat there and let everyone come to me. I got to talk a lot in this class.

Six Period/ Health 1- the teacher told us some rules and then we stood around for fifteen minutes waiting for the bell to ring.

And that basically concludes my day. Right now I'm resting and relaxing and I deserve it. MMM Chips.
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Saturday, August 5, 2006

All I Want To Do Is Serve You.
Hey everyone. Been a long time since I've seen a comment. It makes me feel like I'm not loved or anyone is reading the bullshit I put up here.

Anyway. New layout. This layout is of Zabuza from Naruto. He's one of my favorite characters besides Kakashi and Naruto and Gaara.

Yesterday I went shopping. We went to the mall and I got four shirts. One shirt has Kakashi on it another shirt has Gaara on it another shirt says Otaku on it and another shit is a slipknot shirt. I also got a hoodie that has GIR on it and it says It's advanced on the front and on the back it says "It's not stupid... it's advanced." Then I went to torrid and got three pairs of pants. I love tax free weekend and school shopping especially with clearance and money off. ^.^

Today I went to the library. I've been trying to get all the Naruto manga. which I have 1-5 and I believe there are ten or more books. Well that's all with me. I'll talk to you all later. HOPE TO GET A COMMENT!
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Wednesday, August 2, 2006

Hey everyone. What's up? Nothing too much going on here. Got registered for school today. Well I didn't go, but my mother did so I'm probably not going to have a picture in the year book unless I get it done on retake day. Anyway. Let's see here...

I've been trying to watch all the episodes of Naruto, so far I'm up to episode 58 which is good for someone who's just started a couple days ago. Unfortunately I can't find episode 58 anywhere on youtube and the only person who had it had their account banned so I can't watch the episodes. Makes me very angry.

well here first trimester schedule

Spanish 1 A with Jacobs
Concert Choir A with Johnson/sievers
Connections with Perverill
Biology A with Bergman
Foods 1 with Shriver
Health 1 with McVey

I have to take some classes over again because of messing up my freshmen year so credit wise I'm still a freshman. Anyway that's all with me.
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Monday, July 24, 2006

Listening To
List ten songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your greatestjournal along with your ten songs. Then tag 5 other people to see what they're listening to.

(These are in no particular order)
01. Kittie - "Do you think I'm a whore"
02. Goo Goo Dolls - "Iris"
03. Jack Off Jill - "Angels Fuck"
04. Zeromancer - "Doctor Online"
05. Zeromancer - "Flirt (with me)"
06. Blue October - "Hate Me"
07. Weezer - "We're All On Drugs"
08. Alana Grace (I think) - "Black Roses Red"
09. From DDR (Can't remember person) - "Butterfly"
10. Zeromancer - "Send Me An Angel"

TAGS:
Whoever wants to do this
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This Town
Hello, everyone. What's going on with ya'll? Nothing much going on here. Just woke up. Yeah I know, she's not serious. She didn't just wake up at like noon did she? Oh yes I did. I always wake up around noonish till two. I've never slept in any longer than that in a long time.

I think I might be going to the library today. I can't wait to get some new books. Oh yes I love books. Anyway, that's all with me today. Talk to you all later.
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