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Sunday, June 18, 2006
I Must Be Insane...
ARGH!!! I'm a whore, I'm a slut, I can't decide who the Hell I want!!! GOD!!! Why can't people just NOT be attracted to me?! Why can't I just NOT be attracted to them?! UGH!!! Sapphyre, she thinks that she loves me...And, I've been thinking, and, I don't like it when I think...I think that maybe, just maybe, a shred of me misses her...BUT I DON'T WANT HER!!! I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I CAN'T MAKE HER GO AWAY! GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!! This, this is just too much for me...I love Lance, or at least I hope I do...Because, when I think about him, I think about marrying him, spending the rest of my life with him...And, I want him to feel the same way...But, I don't wanna get hurt again...You know what...In order for you, my friends, to understand this situation, you've got to find out about a secret that I never, EVER talk about...Because, it's bad and makes me freak out, and, get scared, everytime I think about it...
When I was 10...I got raped, by my best friend's boyfriend...I WAS 10 YEARS OLD!!! That fucking bastard cheated on my best friend with me and he told me that he loved me and he would get rid of my friend, just to fucking have sex with me and lay me!!!
I HATE MEN!!! No offense, Jordan and Ryan, but, I do...They tell you anything and everything you want to hear...And, I hate it! This guy has been tormenting me...And, I feel like when someone tells me they love me...That all they're thinking about is sex...And, I don't want to! Not for awhile...Not until I'm sure!!! And, I'm freaking out...Mattie thinks that she isn't bi...And, all this time I thought she was my perfect girl...Guess not. WHY CAN'T PEOPLE JUST LOVE ME AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT?!?! I'M SICK AND TIRED OF FUCKING LIARS!!! I DON'T WANT TO GET HURT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've got to go, I have got to go and, like, I dunno...Think...Again...Until I've got something that doesn't scare me...Until someone means that they love me and it isn't just to get into my pants...I think I'm just going to shrink away and forget about love...Maybe that will work...Bye...
_~Savannah~_
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