myOtaku.com: Sonics Dark Soul5
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
L o ve Is Just A F a i r y Tale . . .
Listening to: Forgiven
Currently Working On: ++Memories++ Ch. 5
Reading: Nothing at the Current Moment
I feel betrayed...
Darell (Lets stil call him Deryl) brok eup with me...that was fast wasn't it? I shouldn't be so affected, right? Well, I am.
He reminded me so much of my past lover, who was hit by a car. But if i go into, i wil cry more than i already am. I thought i was over this, but it's hard to let him go...
He wanted a girlfriend along with me. I told him no. He said he wasn't ready for a "Public Boyfriend". I asked if his rep was more important. He said yet. Crushed little Zi-kun, thrown away like a rag doll...
And i STILL find myself attached to him. I looked up his myspace, called him. Damnit. What the hell is wrong with me...
I put a new layout on myspace to fit my mood. I will probably change the layout on here soon...
*sigh* I wish i could just say, "I'm over this", but i cant. Something is wrong with me. Damnit...My friends tell me that I'm too good for him, and they are right, but i still feel like this was somehow my fault...I could have done something...Yet didn't. I know that isnt true, but one can't help but think, ne?
Life in general isn't good at the moment. I am doing good in German, World Civ Honors, and Art, but Engilsh II, the class i expected to pass with ease, i have a D. And i plan to be a writer. Also, my mom is so stressed out, she takes it out on me...She talks of Divorce with her husbad, Suicde because of me...Great self-Esteem booster.
Not to mention, my best friend, Adia, is going to Germany for part of the Summer, but I'm afraid i will already be moved to Flordia and wont see her for awhile...*Sigh*
Well, I have to go to bed. The ONLY good thing going for me is I'm going to Ultimatelifeform's around 7 in the morning, away from all this shit...Also, Adia is going to visit before she leaves. I will miss her so much.
Well then, that is all...Cherrio...