Birthday 1991-04-01 Gender
Female Location The Sohma house Member Since 2005-01-09 Occupation Keeper of the bishounen Real Name Silove, Ninja, Gure-san
Achievements Are there any? Lol Anime Fan Since I first saw Fruits Basket--it all started from there, lol Favorite Anime Fruits Basket, Inuyasha, D.N.Angel, Escaflowne, Full Metal Alchemist, Pretear, Myazaki's works, Loveless, Trinity Blood, Bleach, Tsubasa, Naruto, Utena Goals To go to Japan!! And go see Gackt!! Hobbies drawing, reading, daydreaming, and romanticizing
myOtaku.com: Silent Love
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I don't think anyone even checks this anymore...but I could be wrong, so I will update with an optimistic mood haha.
My first semester of college is over, and it's crazy. I need the break lol, but at the same time I don't know what I'm going to do with all this free time!! College keeps me busy, in a good way. Work sucks, but I enjoy learning. And now that I'm off for a month...bleh, I'll just have to catch up on sleep and draw or something.
Dreaming a lot of going to Japan, going to all the lives I want to. Hope I can make it come true!!
If anyone really is reading this, and you wanna contact me, I want to hear from all my old friends too!!
Can't believe how fast this summer has gone. I mean, it feels like forever since I graduated, but at the same time, I can't believe it's nearly time for college either. Wow, haha. I'm looking forward to it. I'm taking four classes this semester, 13 credit hours. Psychology, Japanese, American Civ, and English. I'm excited, especially to learn Japanese. Although I know it'll probably kick my butt, lol.
I think I'll change my layout again. Haha :P I get so bored of my themes so easily. Not that I should be...it's not like I see it very often. I'm not very good at posting on this site. Not like I used to be.
Anyways, thought I'd update a little. Hope to hear from you guys. Ja ne.
Wow...sorry for being such a lazy lady and not updating!!! Oh my gosh...gomen!
Graduate high school Friday!! And so many emotions come with that!! I mean, I'm so excited! I can barely stand all the build up of excitement for this moment. It means I'll be going to college finally, I'll be moving out over the summer, I'll have time with friends for a few months!! But then again, I'm a little nervous about all the change. So sudden!! And I'm going to miss people. Not a lot of people. All my best friends will be with me still...but you know I'm going to miss some of the Junior friends I have. Hopefully they'll join me at the same college next year.
New Gackt singles come out this month!! *woot!* Haha, wonder if anyone on here cares but me...lol, oh well!! It's AMAZING I TELL YOU!! In fact, I'll leave a youtube thingy at the end of the post with the preview of a song.
Besides that...there's just so much going on, but I don't know if any of it is really explainable. It's all raw emotion, I guess just from the sudden changes my life will be going through right now. It's going to take some getting used to. Stress levels are high, but I'll make it.
Orientation for college is June 17, and I think that's when I get to go and pick what classes I'll take and talk to a counselor about a major and stuff. I'm excited for that.
Gackt Lost Angels Preview
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So for a while my computer crashed and I was pretty much relying on my friends to let me come over and use their computers, lol. Because stupid school computers block most of the sites I like!! Youtube, Deviantart, this place...all blocked!! So yeah...that wasn't so fun. But our computer is better now!! *pats it affectionately*
My birthday is in 11 days, and I still cannot for the life of me think of what I want to do for a part with my friends. Maybe just have a Fruits Basket marathon...haha, haven't watched it all the way through in soooo looong....
Graduation is freakin' close!! I'm scared, but more than that, excited!!!! I can't believe that I've finally gotten here! Took long enough. >_> Oh well, it's here!! It's here!! Now I just need to figure out how to make all my plans for after high school work.
Failed today's math test...well, 65%...which is like failing...hope that my grade stays in a C, or else I don't get any college credit...stupid math, stupid math...
GazettE's new single comes out March 25! I'm really excited, I've already heard Distress and Coma. It's an amazing song--this band has to be one of my favorites. I can't wait!
Lately I've been pretty stressed. Just life in general. I'm getting closer and closer to the time when I can move out with my friends, but seriously, I'm not sure that it's going to work. And I wish I could be more positive on the matter, but it's just hard to get myself to look forward to it when I don't know how I'll pay for it AND be a full time student at college. And maintainging a 3.5 GPA for my scholarship. :/ It's just a lot of stress...hopefully I figure it all out.
I'm almost done with KH:Chain of Memories. That game is so ADDICTIVE. I can't stop playing it...especially now that I've started playing as Riku (I love that guy to DEATH). I forgot how much I loved Kingdom Hearts, lol.
This semester of school is going to SUCK. I have such boring classes that I'm only taking to fill in all my credits. *mutters under breath of the stupid credits* It's all elective credits too. I don't see why those are a necessity, but oh well. Can't really do anything about it so I guess I'll have to deal.
Other than that, I suppose life's okay. It's just I get stressed about one big thing, and suddenly the small things seem to just overwhelm me, too. But I know I'll get through this. I usually bounce back in a week or so.
I know I have a lot to look forward to coming up. College! I know I can make a lot of good things come out of college. And I hope to start saving money to go to Japan...for like a summer? It would be amazing. All I wanna do is see Gackt in concert, lol.
Spent the holidays in California with family. It has been a fun vacation. We have one more day here, and then we head on back to my home. I got Dirge of Cerberus for Christmas and I'm dying to play it but none of my cousins have a working PS2 over here so I have to wait till I get home to play. I'm getting my wisdom teeth taken out Tuesday and so for a week I'll be spending a lot of time at home recovering, so I plan on playing that game like crazy then, haha.
I'm going to get the new Kingdom Hearts game too. I'm so excited!!! I can't wait!!!!!! I love Square Enix!!!!
I've been kind lonely out here...I miss my friends. My uncles cousins and relatives are nice to me but it feels like they really don't know when to stop pushing me. I mean, they joke around a lot. I'm used to that; my whole family likes to joke. But sometimes it seems like they just are seeing how long they can poke at me until I explode at them. I get a lot of teasing and taunting about my love for anime, Japan, and the music I listen to. It's stupid for me to care, but I wish they'd just give it a rest every once in a while.
Other than that, I'm pretty good. I did hear from an old friend. One that I had liked a lot. He asked me on a date once I get home, he wants to take me snowboarding. I said I'd think about it, but I already know my answer. He's selfish and vain and he's already lead me on once to just laugh and throw it all back at me, so if he's REALLY serious this time like he claims to be, I'm sure he can think of some ways to find forgiveness first. Until then, I'm not willing to risk my emotions again.
Well, it's December already!! It's kinda crazy, isn't it? Lol, November went by fast!! It's almost time for the second semester of school, and then...woot! High school will be over with just one more semester!!
My friend who was going to the air force? She's not going anymore!! Words cannot explain how happy I am, as selfish as that happiness might be. But I was seriously just having a hard time trying to accept the fact that she was leaving. I love her too much for her to be away from me for so long...so I'm extremely happy.
Lately I've been a bit depressed. It's almost like everything in life is just trying to make me break down. But things are slowly getting better. The fact that my friend stays with me has helped. I also got a phone call from the guy I like last night, and he was being rather cute. ^_^ I think school's getting a little better, so yeah, maybe it'll start getting better and better from here?
I'm still really upset about something though. It seems like the majority of my friends have messed up parents. Well, one friend of mine was, well, forbidden to move out with us (us being the rest of my friend and I.) They told her she would live at home or she would live in a dorm, but she couldn't live with us in an apartment. I think it's the stupidest thing. Her parents are so controlling. She doesn't turn 18 until September next year (and she'll already be starting the new college year) so she just can't leave her house until then. I wish she would just come live with us since she has to spend the summer at her house anyways, but she's afraid that her family would dissown her if she did just wait and then leave. It's so dumb...
But we'll find a way to live together one way or another.
I haven't done a Fruits Basket layout in a long time, and I was looking through my pictures and I saw...Ayame!! So of course, I couldn't resist plastering him all over my site. ^-^
So I work in retail. And as you all know we just got done with BLACK FRIDAY. So yesterday and today I had the LONGEST SHIFTS EVER and I think my feet are about to fall off. TT_TT And I'm just SO tired. I can't even imagine what my managers went through...they were there the entire two days!! Ah, it was crazy!!
My manager gave me this huge compliment, though. He said yesterday I rung up $8000 on my register alone and that I was one of the best cashiers. Haha, well, it made the day a little more bearable. It's nice to get a little compliment now and then. Let me know I'm nice to have around. ^_^
In a week my friends and I are having a Christmas party before my friend leaves for the miliatary. I'm so excited, but really kinda sad too. I don't want to see my friend leave. It'll be about half a year before I see her again. I know that doesn't sound like HORRIBLY long but it is. But I know that we'll be able to see each other again and that's what counts!
I've been so busy lately!!! And even when I have free time, I totally forgot to drop by here and leave an update!! TT_TT So here I am, trying once again to be a better otaku on here.
News of my life: the band GazettE has completely taken over my life. Except for Gackt, I'm not sure I've ever looked up so much on a Japanese band/singer/group/thingy. It's a bit crazy. XP
School's been going okay...except for the fact that it's been almost two weeks since the guy I like has said hi to me...>_> it sucks. By the end of the school day, I get all frustrated. And I look for him in the halls so that maybe I'd just say hi to him...and if I do see him he's always with a HUNDRED friends that I don't know...so of course I am a silly and don't go up to him anyways. *sigh*
I've been thinking of redoing my profile again, lol. Think it's too soon?
Went to Anime Banzai last weekend!! It was a lot of fun!! So I already told you I'd be cosplaying as Marluxia. Well, everyone thought I was a cheap version of Axel. :/ even though my hair was PINK. Anyways, so the next day, I switched it up a bit, and decided to be Riku!! That was so much fun!! I had a blind fold and everything!! And I got SO MUCH LOVE!! Haha, I loved how much I'd get glomped.
I spent $230 altogether...which is a lot, lol. And now my really good chii hair straightener broke...and I'm thinking I could've used some of that money to buy a new one instead. Why did it have to break the NIGHT I get back?! Oh well...I don't regret too much spending all that money. After all, I bought so many great things!! Posters of Crisis Core and Code Geass (all hail Lelouch!!), box set of Bleach season 2, Code Geass box set, Axel action figure (which I broke!!! I was trying to switch out his hand for the other one that would hold the chakrams and it freakin' broke!! I almost cried!!), two Gackt cd's, and my entrance fee. Crazy stuff, ne?
And of course, Vic Mignogna was there!! Man, he's just so......awesome!! I mean, he's so easy to talk to and funny and SWEET!! He was nice to every person who talked with him. He even gave Kyo Krazy a rose!! He had gotten that rose from a different fan...ah, I bet THAT girl wasn't happy when Vic just gave it away...lol, but KK's rather happy.
So yeah, my love for Vic has grown rather a lot during this week. I'm freakin' obsessed, actually.
Oh, and I'm sooooo very excited!! Gackt's box set nine*nine came out!!! Just yesterday!! I need to get it, but the only place so far that I've found anyone selling it is Amazon, and it's like $250. I currently have no such money. So if anyone finds it somewhere else cheaper, please let me know. ^___^ I'll love you forever!!
Not only that, but his Platinum Box IX is coming out really soon too!!! AHHH!! Why does money desert me now, when I really need it? Lol