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Friday, February 20, 2004

   Yay...and Nay.
I'm happy I got over 300 hits. That's probably VERY little compared to most of you but, for me, that's like a miracle.

But...I'm still actually very sad. My Mother can be so painful at times. She started blaming me for something I never did. I tried telling her but she cut me off...continued to bitch at me.... Words can really hurt, especially from someone you love so much. She threw random threats at me. Sigh...
I cried and sobbed my heart out. She threatened me to shut up or she'd throw me out of the house. Eh, aren't there laws against that? :P
I'm not as sad as I was an hour ago. My boyfriend and a friend really cheered me up... But that certain friend still has to apologise...along with two others.
You see, I was supposed to be with them in a group project. Unfortunately, my Grandmother is in the hospital so my Father couldn't take me to my friend's house. I got upset...but still hopeful cos they said we could do it on Sunday if anything happens. Then...well, they started doing it without me, the news report. I felt rejected...left out. It hurt. I'm not mad at them but I'm still upset.
I've endured so much today... My eyes hurt from crying for hours on end. I wish my life could be a bit better. I wish my Mother will accept me as I am... That she would quit comparing me to people. She knows I cannot be what she wants me to be. Yet she still pesters on. Does she not realize the pain she is causing me?

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