Tuesday, November 22, 2005

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Geez, Lindsey, that was so perfect. "As we progress, we get dumb." XD I love that! *gives you a cookie*

Hello all! How goes it? You were all very right-I was just being goofy. Crying less could mean a lot of things...but it doesn't mean we're any less human.

Erik's picking up the languare over there really fast. Told me he's learned more Thai in a couple days than he has in hsi whole time with it here. So...well, shit, if I could, I'd go to Japan for a couple months and I'd be speaking it in no time! But noooo, I gotta learn the hard way. Well, in college I'll take a class to learn to read and write it! HA! And he got contacts...lucky bastard. I want contacts-kind of. No, I want perfect vision without hassle! But it's like $1200 an eye. Damn it.

I try not to want anything anymore...after all, I can't have much. Yet I'll still say "I want..." I must be getting stupid lately. Me and Jeremy were talking about life today and stuff...we do that a lot. I was mad at him earlier cause Kyle was helping me clean out Erik's room and Jeremy wouldn't do anything. He sat on the computer the whole time. But, if ya ask me...behind great anger lies great sadness. I know I can have a short temper sometimes and get really mad...but that usually turns into a sadness that doesn't even have anything to do with what I was mad about. Mostly self loathing. I'm doing too much of that lately. Drowing myself in my own pity. Anybody can easily say "I like myself the way I am." but I think everybody has wished, at least once, to be someone else. I think my problem a lot of times is feeling talentless. I mean...talent is something that comes naturally and is developed more with hard work. Hard work alone isn't a talent...it's a...eh, I can't think of the word. Erm, I'm not looking for pity(believe me, I give myself enough of it, so you guys don't have to), I'm just trying to explain the feeling. But come to think of it, let's find a different subject.

So, a friend of mine had made a little mini quiz on her site, so I figured I'd swipe the idea and try it out. If you don't want to, you don't have to. No worries.

1. Okay, my life isn't THAT exciting, it's okay to admit it. So what keeps you guys coming back here? It's the pictures, isn't it? XD

2. Do my posts ever depress you guys?

3. If you ever met me in real life, what's the first thing you'd do? Besides try to pick pocket me while we hug. Because I am the master pickpocket here! So we'd just end up with each other's wallets. Wouldn't that be embarrassing?

4. What's your impression of my life? As in, what do i make it sound like?

5. How well do you know/think you know me? Cause, ya know, PMs never hurt.

6. Here's a good one: how many of you have actually clicked on th link to my "website" to check out my fanfiction? this is mostly for girls, since I tend to write yaoi-sorry, I can't help myself.

7. If you had one wish, what would it be? This doesn't have anything to do with me. And don't give me that "i wish for your happiness" stuff. Something YOU, Yourself, and only you want. For yourself.

8. Do your have a dream for your future, or have the flames of desire been smothered by parents/sadness/etc?

9. If you had to choose one other place to live besides where you already do, what would it be and why?

10. Do you think we'll still be talking to each other a couple years from now?

11. There, that wasn't so hard was it? Was it a waste of another couple minutes of your life? Seems a lot of things are...x_x

So...I guess I should answer some of these questions, too. the ones that don't have anything to do with me.

7. One wish. Well, when I'm not being totally selfish, I'd say "I wish miracles really happened." because that would be good for everyone. When I'm being selfish it's "i wish my dad could come home right now."

8. The only time my dreams for the future are ruined is when I'm too blinded with tears to see them. Losing faith in yourself kills dreams and ruins lives. I'll be a singer one day...and all of you can say "Hey! I know her!" XP

9. I would live in japan. I love it to death, and even though i've never been there before...i just have this feeling that I'd be at peace there.

10. Depends on who you are and how much effort you've put into trying to get to know me. If we PM/email/etc, then I'd say yeah. And when I have money, I plan to come visit you all. I swear it. ^^

11. Eh..."time is a waste of life and life is a waste of time, so get wasted all the time and have the time of you life". XP or something.

So...that's it for tonight. Take care everyone! Oyasumi! or um...it's kinda 1:30 in the morning so...Ohayo!
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My mom told me one of her chemistry questions(she's finishing her degree that she paused in getting years ago), which I don't completely remember, but it was something like How would the isotomic whatchamadingles effect the following alcohols? So I answered "Depends...are they shaken or stirred?" XP I know my chem, but that's a bit advanced for me.
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