Wednesday, November 2, 2005

   Yay!
I finshed the first page to my comic at last, so I'll post that here. If the pics don't show up, check again later, cause I think photobucket said something about system maintenace. Well, it's pretty amazing. I mean, my first draft in pencil looked like something a four year old did. Then on the next sheet it was all good looking in pencil, then professional in ink. The backgrounds were hard to do. x_x I hope you all like it. ^^;;;

Erik was pissing me off today cause he was watching some stupid show on TV while talking to Gina on the phone-apparently she was watching it, too. *rolls eyes*

I dunno...I don't have much else to say. With hard work and determination, you can do ANYTHING! Mwahaha! trust me, when pictures don't come out how I want, it makes me wanna give up. But determination is what finished this comic-not me. XD Of course, there's still some strange things about it. Let me tell you-I thought Naruto would be HARD to draw. I mean, he's a goof and is funky-if not cute-looking. BUT, it turns out the hard one to draw was Sasuke. And I went light on the shading cause it's hard to do right. Well, whatever. Tell me whatcha think. It reads from left to right, like an american comic. why? dunno. Cause I wanted to.
Ja ne!
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Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it
Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up
Deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

And without further ado, here is my comic and then other funny pictures!
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Tuesday, November 1, 2005

   Post-Halloween!
Hello all! I actually did end up doing the ninja thing. It was cool. You know, I have SO much hair. I made three braids. Two smaller ones on the side and one bigger on in the back. I took the two smaller ones and put them up in a bun like Lulu from FFX and put two of the decorative chopstick-like things, too. I left the other braid down. Then I took the two short pieces of my hair(from bangs browing out) and sprayed them green. Yay! I had the mask(which I sewed myself the other day) covering half of my face and tried to make my eyes as asian as possible. It kinda worked. And I ahve brown eyes anyway. Then i wore all black and took a sword on my back. Yeah.

SO. I will now reveal to you the secret project I have been working on that few know about. It's a Naruto comic. It's based off an idea I had for a story to write called 'Sexy no Jutsu! Sasuke's Weakness!' I have just now finished inking the first page, and will scan it tomorrow. It's a long process, so it may be a few days before page two comes out. There three normal pages, and it could end there-but there's an optional 4th page for yaoi fans. I also thought up a second comic, which is mostly for yaoi fans. It's an...interesting take on Naruto and Sasuke's kiss in episode 3. I'm trying to make the pictures as accurate as possible, but i have to tell you, it's REALLY hard. I first make a basic outline of how I think I'd want the boxes, and make a quick sketch of what I want in each box. Then on a new sheet, I use a ruler to ink the real way the boxes will be. Then in pencil I make final drawings, then ink them. Then it gets colored and gets the words put in on the computer. What a job. x_x So I'll see if I can get that up tomorrow.

Ummm...yeah. I'm tired. I should also finish the chapters for my stories tomorrow. Plus my mom wants me to clean my room. *rolls eyes* Plus I ahve my college class tomorrow...*pulls hair out* GEEZ. So much I need to do, so little time. I need to finish my stupid Psychology work DAMN IT. I already finished half the book real quick, but I've been lazy. Bad me. Ha ha, like I care. XD Ja ne!
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Please, please forgive me...
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look out...
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one
"Isn't something missing?"
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Monday, October 31, 2005

   HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!
Yo there people! Happy Halloween! I'm not so much in the spirit this year like the other years, but it's okay.

I just helped Jeremy spray his hair black(he's blonde, so it's like WOAH) and then he put on his punisher shirt that we painted yesterday that turned out REALLY good, and black pants and a his leather trench coat. He looks cool. ^^ He can dress up for work, so that's cool. He just left. He works at Circut City-the one closest to the Target in Hodgekins/countryside. So like, if any of you live around here, feel free to go to Circut City and go say hi to the Punisher. XD

I'm gonna shower now, so this post will be short. Most of you are probably too busy to read it anyway. I may dress up, I may not. Depends on how I feel. If I do, it'll probably be a female Ninja. All black, with the black mask. My hair will be a little like Haku's from Naruto. Heavy black asian style eye liner and yeah. Should be interesting. If I attach a sword to my back, I'll probably take Jeremy's black one. It's real, yes. He's way into all that Ninja stuff. *shrugs* WHo knows. Depends if I feel like it and I'm already losing time, so I gotta go shower now! Bye bye!
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"I fight only for myself, and love only myself. That's all the love I need."
Gaara, from Naruto
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Now, if only I looked like Die, huh? He is SO cool.
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Sunday, October 30, 2005

   Major good mood goin' on.
YO! How is everybody tonight, eh? Man, Halloween on Monday. x_x What am I gonna do? Hmm...well, my mom is working and so is Jeremy and Erik's never here. So I guess I'll have to help Kyle with his costume and take him around for a bit, till my mom is home. Then I switch with her and she goes around while I give candy to the kids. It's been like that for about four years. *shrugs* What about you guys?

I just got done eating dinner and watching Bruce Almighty. It was good for a couple laughs and got my mom in a better mood, so that makes me happy. So now I'm in this mega good mood. It's creepy, eh?

So the dufus Erik is gone for a couple days in Indiana with his stupid woman. Thank god! A couple days without him is NICE. Heh, Kyle told me he had Monday off and I was way jealous-till I found out he was lying. XD My mom's like "He had FRIDAY off. He probably doesn't even know what day it is." XD

On a side note, yes, I changed my background again. It's a sad one, with the last words Itachi gave to Sasuke. I'm not going to say when, cause I don't want to spoil it for anyone who doesn't know. He says "Hate me, detest me...and go on living in an unsightly way. Run...run and cling to life." I made this wallpaper myself. Like it?

I saw Bleach 54 today. It was SO funny. XD And ya know, Ichigo was just the cutest name to give the main character. cause he's cute as it is and then, well...Ichigo means Strawberry. XD I love that. Cause anyone who knows me, knows I love strawberry.

So...my birthday is a week after Halloween. I don't know what I'm gonna do really or anything. The last four years I've baked my own cake..why stop now, right? I think...I'll make a chocolate cake. Two layer. With strawberries in the middle. And a shitload of icing. Yesh. It'll take a little bit to convince my mom to buy that stuff, which I am doing as we speak. Or...as I type. Whatever. lol Cause we didn't do anything special for my 16th birthday...so I figure we should for my 17th. ^^ We're going to red lobster instead of the usual China Buffet. I'm also a crab fiend. >_> Yes, I'm rambling.

I don't know if you guys have noticed, but I generally try to end these entries with things for you guys to think about-and I hope that you do. Most of you are younger than me...so it's like a bazillion younger siblings. And I wanna share things I've learned. Life may be hard, but...there's always a lighter side. You just have to look for it. Believe me, do as I say, not as I do. I could sit here and point out a million things I hate about myself. I'm no angel...but I have many people I know I need to be strong for. And if my words can help just one person make themselves better, or make their life better...then that makes me happy. Okay, I'm rambling again. Look at these smexy pics and have a good night! Oyasumi gozaimasu! ^^
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How the hell
Did we wind up like this?
Why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables?

I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been
Too much of this
But don't think it's too late

Nothing's wrong, just as long as
You know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
I'm gonna make it all right
But not right now
I know you're wondering when
You're the only one who knows that
Someday, somehow
I'm gonna make it all right
But not right now
I know you're wondering when

Well I'd hope that
Since we're here anyway
That we could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up staying
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Let's rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a Hollywood horror

Nothing's wrong, just as long as
You know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
I'm gonna make it all right
But not right now
I know you're wondering when
You're the only one who knows that
Someday, somehow
I'm gonna make it all right
But not right now
I know you're wondering when...

This has gotta be the song of the day! Nickelback - Someday I just can't stop singing it!
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P.S. I love this last one. It is just SO cute.
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

   Woah, dude...I'm like...alive and shit?
XD Konban wa! Genki desu ka? Hmm...I'm just "okay". That's it. XD Cause this cold is driving me crazy. I'm coughing SO much and even with medicine and cough drops and shit I can't sleep at night cause I can't stop coughing and stuff. It's REALLY annoying. I wake early in the morning and can't fall back asleep. It really sucks. And physical activity is like...out of the question cause I cough even worse. Getting sick like this always causes weight loss. x_x But you can bet once I'm better I'll be up and running again!(literally) ^^ So no worries about me.

Oh, and dude, Lord Boxy, was it? XD You're scary. Two guys kissing is so NOT hentai. Hentai means at least one person is naked and things are showing and...yeah. That was simply shonen-ai if you want to get technical. But LATER in that doujinshi...*coughs* lets just say it's...um...yeah. We'll leave it at that. *blushes*

Now, if you've seen as much of naruto as I have, you'd know-Naruto and Sasuke certainly like each other as more than friends. They never say it outright of course, but just the more I see, the more it seems like it. I can't say so much WHY exactly cause a lot of you haven't seen 145 episodes like I have. I may very well finish the series today or tomorrow. I've been downloading the first movie already in advance and it's done. So, I'll be watching that afters. The second movie isn't out for download yet, I don't think. And that's cause it's still in the theater, along with Full Metal Alchemist-which I also intend to download when it comes out over there. >_> *cough* SO THEN!

Life around here is pretty boring and shit. I'm sick, but I still gotta do chores, though my mom has been a little less demanding about it. Like, she hasn't killed me for not doing the dishes yet. Though I'm betting I better do some of those dishes today and make a REAL dinner or I'll be on her shit list. XD Let's see...what sounds good for dinner? Pork something...like...an asian dish. Yesh, and asian dish...hmm....oh, the possibilties....*grabs all asain cookbooks and looks* I'm amazed with myself-I can cook so much more than I used to. I used to be only able to cook Ramen. o_O (Naruto would have loved that). Now I can cook like...anything. XD

Oh, me and Jeremy made a Punisher shirt yesterday. It turned out really cool. (See? If we fight about something, it's over as quick as it started. But nooooo, not with Erik) He printed out the outline of the skull and I cut it out while he pinned the black shirt to cardboard(cause we wanted the skull on a black shirt...so yeah) and then we put theoutline on there and pinned on the eye and nose holes for the skull. Then we dripped silver spray paint onto it. It looks really cool. ^^

Ummm...yeah. Not much else to talk about. I visited some of your sites already, and I'm gonna try to visit more later, when most of you ahve updated. Ja ne!
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Everybody likes to say "if I were you..." or "If I were in your position..." but you know...don't listen to them. They can talk, but until they've actually been through it, they have no idea what in the fuck they would really do.
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Example...Reenie(my mom's friend) was all telling me that if my dad doesn't get out my mom will HAVE to find someone else. Like she HAS to. That she NEEDS to companionship. Well, fuck, she can be alone if she so chooses! I would never accept anyone else as my father anyway. I didn't tell her at the time, because I didn't have the courage, but...she can't decide what my mom has to do. Only my mom can choose that. And he WILL get to come home, so there's no damn point talking about it anyway. My mom later told me Reenie's husband Jim had told her that if he was the one in there he would have his wife get a divorce so she wouldn't have to deal with it. WHAT. THE. FUCK. Oh, so you'd like to sit your ass in there with no one coming to see you? You'd like to be alone? The only reason my father wants to get out is to see us, to be with us again. We're his hope. Without hope you have nothing. So I better never hear those words or anything like it out of their mouths again. I already have a million reasons to hate them. But if they speak like that to my mother, myself, or anyone in this family again, I will never forgive them.
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! EAT THIS SASUKExSAKURA FANS!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! *GLOMPS THIS PIC!*
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Monday, October 24, 2005

   Na no da...
Note: I am posting this twice cause I orginally posted it at 8 PM and the thingy resets at 11 PM so yeah.

None of your sites are loading for me! *cries* And sorry that I ahven't really been around...I'm still sick. Got this nasty ass cold that just keeps getting worse. Coughing so much is driving me crazy and makes singing(my ultimate joy in life) difficult. Piano isn't as hard but I keep coughing as I go. Even after I take stuff for it. GAH. *sigh* so I don't know.

Me an' Jeremy are in a lil'..."disagreement". ha ha. Cause ya see, he told me "The only way you'll get respect from Kyle is if you always act above him. In other words, you need to grow up." And then just now, apparently Kyle had pushed the button and made some shaving cream come out. What does Jeremy do? Wipes it on Kyle's pants and tells him not to do it again. So what does that make Kyle do? Cry. And I told him "Ya know, you told me the only way to deal with him is to be mature about it-and look what you're doing. Now who's acting two right along with Kyle, huh?" So of course he tries to justify it and such and just pisses himself off. *shrugs*

Ya know...it's kinda strange...I don't like drawing attention to myself, and I don't like it when attention is drawn to me(so, Lyss, that's why my character isn't so active in our RP)...yet it's like I do things that make me stand out. My hair is very long. About to the middle of my butt-over 31 inches. *hasn't measured recently* That draws attention to me. I remember at Renaissance Faire, this one woman said to someone "wow, I wonder if she sits on it." ha ha. And then my grades are really good...so the only reason I've ever been talked to at school was people asking for answers or explinations. For a while, I looked rather Goth...and although I'm always the cold one who doesn't give a shit about having friends or making conversation...I know I still desire it. Jeremy identifies more with Sasuke...and I identify more with Naruto(I also have a high pain tolerence, so like Naruto, I can be smacked around for a while and still get up and fight. XD). So I guess it causes problems. But I don't know...I've always thought myself the "black sheep" of the family, but it seems Erik's taken my place on that. I'm just...me. What's strange to me is that Jeremy and Erik, and maybe even my mom, have this odd impression of me. They think I'm this social bug with lots of friends who's always so happy and this and that. But...I don't think I am. The older I get, the more quiet and reserved I become, making me increasingly harder and harder to get to know. And you know what? No one spends the time to try either. I guess it's better like that. You don't spend the time trying to get to know someone, you're not interested enough and probably not worth that person's time. Then again, I suppose I don't try to get to know anyone else either. But that's because of how quiet and shy I've become. Of course, i'm sure this kind of personality will be no good on stage. But we'll see. Maybe there's a different me that I can pull out for that. It's just strange that while I act and seem and sometimes feel like I don't want attention, I draw it to myself(generally negative attention, as in, any kind I don't want. Like people whispering about me[good or bad things] and such...), sometimes unconciously. Of course, i ahve no one but myself to blame for that. Eh, maybe I'm thinking too deeply into it. Who knows. I think I want a cookie. How are you all doing since your sites are being mean? Ja ne!
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Age is only a number...maturity is measured by how you act.
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YAOI WARNING!


I liked this pic...so I colored it. Kawaii.




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Sunday, October 23, 2005

   Naaa...
None of your sites are loading for me! *cries* And sorry that I ahven't really been around...I'm still sick. Got this nasty ass cold that just keeps getting worse. Coughing so much is driving me crazy and makes singing(my ultimate joy in life) difficult. Piano isn't as hard but I keep coughing as I go. Even after I take stuff for it. GAH. *sigh* so I don't know.

Me an' Jeremy are in a lil'..."disagreement". ha ha. Cause ya see, he told me "The only way you'll get respect from Kyle is if you always act above him. In other words, you need to grow up." And then just now, apparently Kyle had pushed the button and made some shaving cream come out. What does Jeremy do? Wipes it on Kyle's pants and tells him not to do it again. So what does that make Kyle do? Cry. And I told him "Ya know, you told me the only way to deal with him is to be mature about it-and look what you're doing. Now who's acting two right along with Kyle, huh?" So of course he tries to justify it and such and just pisses himself off. *shrugs*

Ya know...it's kinda strange...I don't like drawing attention to myself, and I don't like it when attention is drawn to me(so, Lyss, that's why my character isn't so active in our RP)...yet it's like I do things that make me stand out. My hair is very long. About to the middle of my butt-over 31 inches. *hasn't measured recently* That draws attention to me. I remember at Renaissance Faire, this one woman said to someone "wow, I wonder if she sits on it." ha ha. And then my grades are really good...so the only reason I've ever been talked to at school was people asking for answers or explinations. For a while, I looked rather Goth...and although I'm always the cold one who doesn't give a shit about having friends or making conversation...I know I still desire it. Jeremy identifies more with Sasuke...and I identify more with Naruto(I also have a high pain tolerence, so like Naruto, I can be smacked around for a while and still get up and fight. XD). So I guess it causes problems. But I don't know...I've always thought myself the "black sheep" of the family, but it seems Erik's taken my place on that. I'm just...me. What's strange to me is that Jeremy and Erik, and maybe even my mom, have this odd impression of me. They think I'm this social bug with lots of friends who's always so happy and this and that. But...I don't think I am. The older I get, the more quiet and reserved I become, making me increasingly harder and harder to get to know. And you know what? No one spends the time to try either. I guess it's better like that. You don't spend the time trying to get to know someone, you're not interested enough and probably not worth that person's time. Then again, I suppose I don't try to get to know anyone else either. But that's because of how quiet and shy I've become. Of course, i'm sure this kind of personality will be no good on stage. But we'll see. Maybe there's a different me that I can pull out for that. It's just strange that while I act and seem and sometimes feel like I don't want attention, I draw it to myself(generally negative attention, as in, any kind I don't want. Like people whispering about me[good or bad things] and such...), sometimes unconciously. Of course, i ahve no one but myself to blame for that. Eh, maybe I'm thinking too deeply into it. Who knows. I think I want a cookie. How are you all doing since your sites are being mean? Ja ne!
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Age is only a number...maturity is measured by how you act.
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YAOI WARNING!


I liked this pic...so I colored it. Kawaii.




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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

   Bad night...
I don't mean to dump my bad mood on you guys...and hope none of you take offense to any bad language I might happen to use...

I don't really want to get way into it, but I had a big fight with Erik that was semi-physical where I ended up yelling "I just want to punch you, you stupid son of a bitch! I hate you! I hope you fucking die!" Yeah, I really said that. Amazingly, my mom isn't mad at me at all. She says she doesn't like how I go about it, but she doesn't blame me for how I feel. Neways, so I said that and slammed my door-and broke it. That's about how bad I wanted to hit him. And then I just...cried. Apparently my mom shoved Erik's money back in his face and told him never to use the computer again. (The fight started over the small issue of him using the computer for hours and not letting me on and being an asshole about it). So he took off, probably for Gina's house. Who cares...don't get me wrong, I feel bad. Really bad. I wouldn't have cried if I didn't. But...just...*sigh* I guess...the sooner he's gone, the better. Me and Jeremy never have problems or fights like this. Hell, most of the time, we're peaceful. The only reason our family has problems right now is cause of Erik. I just want that to end. So...yeah. That was my night. *sigh* How about you guys?
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"I can't stand it when you cry on my shoulder...but I let you do it all the same. And if I pick on you, you cry even more. Even when I visited my dad for you, or you asked me to make love to you, or to kiss you...no matter what I do, you're never happy. So, finally, I make love to you...I tell you I'll make you my lover. What else can I possibly do? How can I make you happy?"

Eiri Yuki, Gravitation manga vol 2
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

   I am calm....
DAMN IT ALL TO HELL! I just wrote a WHOLE post and my browser had an error and closed. Those who have been around knows this seems to happen on a regular basis. DAMMIT. So, screw it. I'm NOT typing that all again. Let's just say Erik lied and he's going to Thailand to be Gina's family's bitch, not Tokyo. Oh, and ya know what's funny as hell? They don't eat with JUST a fork. they eat with a fork and spoon. They use the fork to pile the food onto the spoon and then eat it. And guess what? Erik won't eat normally anymore. Fucking chameleon. Now look at sexay pictures.
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I think someone colored this from the manga.


Such a simple thing at first...then with a little shove...

Ta da! Oh, the sexayness. Naruto and Sasuke's first kiss! =D And now, the one you've all been waiting for....
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
Omg
OMg
OMG
OMFG

OMG HE'S SO GREAT! *GLOMPS* *ahem* Ja ne!


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Monday, October 17, 2005

   Ta da!
Wow...I'm updating again. And after this I'm actually going to do something NORMAL. I'm going to update my lovely FF8 story. Cause I feel guilty. I'm especially inspired right now cause one of my all-time fav authors updated her FF8 fic. So I was all YAY! XD

Well, for those who love Kakashi as much as I do, but don't know what in the hell episode 101 is about...
Episode 101 is Naruto, Sasuke, and Sakura trying to see what Kakashi looks like under his mask. You have to see it(it's funny as hell), but they never get to find out. XD However, if you guys want to see him without his mask, I'll put up a pic! but if any of you don't want to see such a sexy spoiler, then I'll have to email it to those who do. It's up to you guys.

Oh, guess what? Erik, aka asswipe, is going to Japan. Grrrrr. *jealous* His bitch's father's brother lives there and is willing to let Erik learn car stuff from him there for six months. I bet Erik's going to come home early crying for home. My mom says if he comes back the most he can stay here is a week. He's leaving November 14th, a week after my birthday. He's going to miss Christmas and Thanksgiving. Two holidays that, as far as I know, are not celebrated in Japan. Plus no snow. *sigh* I wish I could go. But hey, he can buy me anime for cheap-except that I don't think any of it will have English subtitles. *sigh* Well, whatever. I like my current room, but I think my mom's gonna make me take Erik's room and give Kyle my room. She doesn't want Kyle downstairs cause then he's "unsupervised" and she'd have to go down there to get him up every morning. *groan* Well, Erik may be an asswipe, but I'll probably still kinda miss him. And he's so screwed cause the only word he knows of Japanese is baka. Maybe in six months he can speak a bit or at least understand some, but he won't be able to read or write. At all. He's so screwed. *laughs* Gina will be with him for two weeks, then she'll stay in the US. Aww, poor baby. Let's see how her stupid ass handles long distance relationships, huh? I hope Erik either meets a girl over there or Gina loses intrest while he's gone. I've found out more about Gina lately, and I can't stand her at all. I hate her. Anyways.

So that's about it for now. You're all doing well? I really will try to visit sites more-just having a little or a hard time finding time for everything. Tomorrow I gotta do the dishes and shit...gah. So much work. Well, for being in the "teen rebel" stage of life(just past the "teen angst" stage), I'd say I've been pretty good about things. I still can have quite a temper about certain things. Maybe I need anger management...:P No thanks. I've heard bad things about that kind of stuff. ah well. Ja ne!
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"Let's all just keep doing the best we can-whether it seems to be good enough or not-cause you never know when it'll end...and then you'll spend the rest of forever regreting it."
-Me
Whee, quoting myself! I'm actually making these up as I need them. XD
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