Sunday, March 6, 2005

   History Lesson
Well as you might all know....me and Sakura18 are going out...on the night of the new moon shall be our 5 month anniversary...(March 10th)....I had never expected I would fall in love...I viewed everyone the same...I never let anyone get close to me because I knew they would eventually hate me and hurt me...I hated everyone the same...when I first met her I found her very annoying because she was really really perky....I never expected I would fall madly in love with her...I first met her in august 26 or sumthing and then we started talking....it took 2 months for me to realize I had been growing deep feelings for her...I found she was the only one who understood me...who put up with me...who always tried to cheer me up...who never gave up on me....That is when I found out I loved her...I didn't want to fall in love because I didn't want to get hurt....I told her in an E-mail I did not want to talk to her because I did not want to accept the feeling I had for her....but I decided not to and talked to her.....then on sunday that weekend I asked her out...she said Yes...I was really happy....thet was by far the most happiest moment of my life....Over time I started growing stronger and stronger feelings for her. My love For Dolly then surpassed the love I had towards my daughter (my kitty :P) I never really loved anyone...Dolly is my first love and my first girlfriend....I wont be needing any other people in my life ^_^....Dolly is the only person I will ever truly love. She is the only one that can make me happy....Even though we are a really weird couple...She is perky and nice to people...I am Psychotic and very spiteful to people....But that does not change my love for her. My family that what I have for dolly is an infatuation...How the hell can it be an infatuation? I had never loved anyone as much as I have had loved dolly. I rarely/never let anyone get really close to me...Dolly penetrated that barried I had and embraced me..with love >.< I sound weird saying this...I was never like this...Before Dolly I was never happy...I was Sad all the time...I was living in the darkness..she took me out of the light..but I refused it :P I love the darkness...and I wanna stay in the darkness...but each day Dolly helps me get closer and closer to the light...and if she suceeds then My evil side will be no more....I dont want that...I like being Evil :P

Ok!!! that is the end of my history lesson. and right now it is 12:40 and my cat is slepping on my lap..she kept crying in my face and she made me hug her...I love my daughter ^______^ and I keep kissing her nose >.< oh!!! and I got into another band..it is called Rammstein...it is really freaky but good...they are like german rock or something :P

~Quiz Time

Green blood! Angry and mean. You enjoy piss off
people. You have a lot of hate inside you and
you have no chance to let it out. You often
feel alone because no one understands you. You
have the blood of the devil, poor you...


What is your true blood color?
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I knew it!!! I knew I have the blood of the Devil!!!
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