Saturday, August 2, 2008

   lmao! I'm not really emo anymore, but thanks anyway
so, you should totally check out today's Dear Abby. Go on, Check it out. it's the one for Friday the 2nd.

a link to it.

now, depending upon when you visit the page, you may have to hit the "previous" button a few times. or once. Depends on when you go.

Just go, seriously.

So, you see that long, verbose article, the first letter? Uh huh. Now where's it from. Now where'm (or was) I from? uh huh. xD

Yup. I wrote that piece of crap letter...so emo. And when, children, did I write it?

It was about THREE YEARS AGO. oh snap serious deja vu for a second there.

Anyway, yeah, I guess Dear Abby gets so much mail it takes her a while to respond. Hrm. Now it makes me wonder how old some other letters are.

But I'll tell ya, I about crapped my pants when I saw the heading. I was like, "ANOTHER CUTTER?! as an ex-cutter, this piques my interest." And then I started reading it and got slightly more incredulous at every word.

And then I realized exactly what it was. Me, I even forgot I ever wrote it xD I guess being happy will do that to you.

but oh boy does that crack me up. thank you 15 seconds of being in the newspaper. hahahathank you!
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Friday, August 1, 2008

   hungry hungry hippo!
so blah, um what have I been up to? well, not much, not much. I got new glasses. My eyes suck. well, not really.

One pair has is a metal frame, real light, painted reddish brown. the other pair is plastic, typical emo frame, painted dark purple. i like them. i've been wanting new glasses because my old ones, the frame is REALLY popular, and I like being unique. even if i am rather plain, lol

ugh. my cousin irritates the crap out of me. she's always going on about not knowing what she wants to do with her life -she's 17 and hasn't even STARTED her senior year. she's got plenty of time. most people change their majors anyway. and what does she want me to do about it? tell her what to do? it's her life, not mine, i got enough crap to worry about.

lol and then she's saying she wants to write a book about how crappy the future is going to be, through her kid's eyes. okay, not a bad idea, but it's been done a lot. So i suggested she do some reading. The Road, Lord of the Flies, A Heart of Darkness, A Clockwork Orange, Animal Farm, and, of course, 1984. Talk about a fucked up future.

But anyway. I got a new t-shirt, it's one of the new Tool album. it's pretty =D

AND, considering it's August 1, 2008...ONLY A MONTH UNTIL NIN AT RED ROCKS!!!!! Sasaya is a very happy girl about that =D SO EXCITED hahaha

oh lol and yesterday we had a bbq, it was yummy **drool** i also ordered a poster (NIN) off Amazon, but they fucked up my order, and i noticed after it was too late to change/cancel it. ooohhhh was i PISSED, i started cussing and throwing shit, lol. when i'm in a bad mood, i get so violent xD

I went through all the pictures in the house, and it was fun. but i was pretty sad, looking at some of them. i started to tear up, missing my friends, lol. ALSO, started to get depressed looking at myself from 2 years ago and how thin i was =( damn. **pinches fat** gots ta lose this.

Oh lol, so Antonio likes stuffed animals, the bigger the better, well, yesterday, at Sam's, they had BIG stuffed animals for $20, so we got him one. He was SO happy...but my cat was TERRIFIED OF IT xD LMAO.

...


anyway, i'm rambling. here's some pics




lmao i always make that face


pretty little lake


lmao my cheeks are so pink and my eyes so squinty


this little cutey crawled on my foot


i love these things!!!!!!


pickle <333


awwwwwwwww


my sister smelling a sunflower in my yard =Dthank you!
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Monday, July 28, 2008

   about to be really busy
so next week, my mom's friend Linda Causey and her daughter are coming. I haven't seen either of them since I was 14.

Linda was always really nice and pretty cool. She's funny and I like her. But her daughter ---ok, we'll be fair. I knew Satchel from when she was 0-7 years. So, she's 11 now (wow!) and probably/hopefully better. I know I'm better than when I was 11. well. okay i'm just bad in a different way.

All I can remember Satchel as is being this snot nosed little BRAT living with no consequences. She would hit, scream, cry, annoy me to no end, and no matter what she did, she always got her way. It was funny when we were there, because my mom made Linda discipline her. She was like 6 and crying because she wanted something else to eat...well, Linda told her NO and she bawled!

haha, I love kids, but I'm not sorry when I say it's HILARIOUS when they cry and throw little fits. Not if they're being abused or neglected. But when they're being a brat and they get put in their place? Priceless.

I always laugh when kids cry. My mom and I went to see Wall-E a few weeks ago; I was kinda bored the whole movie, but when he "died" and some little kid in the audience was crying, I was laughing my ass off. Partly because the robot was "dead" and partly because the kid was crying.

Anyway, back to what I was saying. Satchel DID seem to grow out of it as she got older, so hopefully, she's a nice little girl now. And man, I REALLY hope she isn't like the 11 year olds who were in 6th grade when I was in 12th >_< (if you didn't know, my last year of HS was 6-12)

This one little girl in particular was SOOOO snotty. Can't blame her. Her mom was a typical, selfish, spoiled suburban mommy who made sure to drop off her little princess every day RIGHT AT THE DOOR in her BMW or Porsche or whatever us normal broke-folk don't have. Not to mention BLOCKING TRAFFIC with said fancy car. And the little girl was so snotty, like I said. One day, she was saying, "We're not that rich...ok we're pretty rich, but, like, it's fun!" ...okay, lol. it's not like it's a crime to be rich, but damn if the world needs another Paris Hilton wanna-be.

I'm kinda worried that I won't get along with Satchel, because even though kids love me, I didn't used to have the patience for them like I do now, so I fear I was rather mean to her back in the day. And I'll give her credit: she had moments of being quite enjoyable and cute and funny and all.

One time, we were driving to the beach (they're from NC btw), and she asked how much longer it would be. She was like 5 so I was 13, I said "about 15 minutes" and she goes "awwwwwww. that's a long time." I said "but we've already been driving for 4 hours. It's not that long."

She said "it is to me cos I've not been around that long!" xD it was so sweet. anyway they don't get here til August 3 or whateverthank you!
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Wednesday, July 23, 2008

   Discount Grapes indeed

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

eh heh heh heh.

Blah. My mom can be such a bitch. She gets in a bad mood and takes it out on me because I don't talk back. She says whatever the hell she feels like and acts like it doesn't kill me.

She goes on about how I'm not nice, useless, lazy, selfish, stupid, etc. etc. But she's so fucking negative, she's never, EVER said "good job" for shit, not even when I graduated high school. She yelled at me then, too. I get fucking sick of being treated like her stress ball. I get that she's stressed and depressed but so am I and I don't take it out on her.

She's a hypocrite, too. but I don't want to talk about that any more =P

I am PMSing, and damn, if I'm not more of a bitch than normal this time of month...I get so fucking crabby. I'm already stubborn and grouchy, you give me cramps and hormones, and I'm like a rabid dog.

shit. So today, I was gonna go volunteer but got around to it too late, so I just went downtown. I bought a shirt at HotTopic, of the Joker that says "why so serious" ...it was cheaper than the "girl" shirts so i was happy there.

I also went to 3 different music stores to get the new NIN cd <3 of course, it cost the same at the last place as the first place...the 2nd place didn't even have it so i was pretty pissed that I wasted my time.

I also deposited all but $20 of the rest of my money into my saving's account because i don't want to spend it. But the main reason I went downtown was to read Teen Titans comics, I TOTALLY forgot while I was there T_T i was so mad when I remembered...at home after I ate my first real meal of the day...at like 5:45 pm.

On the way back, first of all, it was like zombies with all these idiots and morons coming back from a Rockies baseball game. Damn I liked it better back in the day when they sucked and nobody went to their stupid games. Less crowded then. Plus, I didn't have to see all these annoying-ass suburb people who don't know how to keep their voices down and who DON'T KNOW HOW THE BUS WORKS damn i was pissed.

Anyway. Then on the way back, some guy on the bus, who's possibly drunk, is telling me he isn't sure where he is (my first clue he may be drunk), and that my facial expressions are "great" (??), and that I'm "ornery, don't lie, you're ornery" (??? it's true but), and that I have a good heart and I didn't have to talk to him but I did, and we're all his family and he loves everybody, and God is great, and that I'm smart. @_@ I was utterly confused.

...But you know, come to think of it, it was REALLY nice. It reaffirmed me that i'm not a useless person. Obviously I am a brat because even a stranger can tell it. But he said nice things about me when I've been told my whole life what a piece of garbage I am. It's nice to run into strangers who, while drunk and confusing as hell, make me feel better.

STILL was COMPLETELY hopelessly confused @_@

anyway.thank you!
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Sunday, July 20, 2008

   dunna dunna dunna BATMAN!
So, I went to see the new Batman movie, the Dark Knight, with my dad today **squeal** my dad didn't like it that much but he's stupid and doesn't like anything. Or else he didn't want to admit how much he liked it.

Anyway, I loved it. I love Heath Ledger as the Joker; he was AMAZING! I would have never pinned Heath Ledger as the type to do such a role, but he pulled it off like dynamite. And Christian Bale is no slouch, either. He does a great job as Batman; my favorite. Partly because he's sexy (give me a break, he did Howl's voice in Howl's Moving Castle, too), but mostly because he's good.

I loved them both so much I can't decide who I loved more. Harvey Dent was eh for me. I know he needed to be the "white knight" but gawd, he was just so...good. Until the end, and I didn't like him not being good, LOL. I was touched when he stood up for Batman. The actor who played Harvey Dent did a really good job, too!! Sorry I forgot your name, sir >_<

Maggie Glyennhaal...eh. I am not her biggest fan. She did a good job, to be fair. But I was extremely happy when she died. NOT just because I am bitchy towards the actress, but because I like it when major/important characters die. Dunno why, I'm just like that. Maybe it's because the world isn't a happy place, and it's good for the plot for characters to die.


All in all, I was extremely impressed. I'll probably go take Antonio to see it, too.



Friday night, I went to a BBQ at Antonio's mom's house, btw. It was with his sister, mother, sister's bf, mom's friend, and him. It was fun, and delicious, even though we didn't eat til 10:30 pm. LOL I feel kinda like a part of that family.

His sister told me an "annoying little white girl with blonde hair whose name started with 'L'" used to call him ALL the time. I was like, "Was it Lori? cos he used to date a Lori."

Denise looked hesitant to answer, so I was like...hrm. But she said she told her "he has a girlfriend" and the little hussy *(her words) said "i don't care." she would call all the time, but he didn't care about her, so I'm happy. ^^ i feel like I won. but now, i don't like that girl more >_>

sorry.



I got into a new manga, called "Love Attack" and it's shojo, which gags me to death, but it's pretty funny, and by the same writer as Girl Got Game, which I liked. I like this writer's style of shojo because it's not all sparkly eyes and stupid drama. they're really light hearted, and funny.

In this one, a tomboy girl who beats up bullies befriends the school "demon" to keep herself from getting expelled. he likes her right away, and they wind up dating pretty fast (first chapter LOL). I dunno, I'm not obsessed, but I really do like it. Hirata kinda reminds me of Antonio. He even looks like a skinny, clean-cut version of him.

it's funny, too, that there's slight mention of Hirata and Chiemi in vol. 9 of Girl Got Game.



but best news of all, my FAVORITE manga, Superior, had an update today! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love that series like no one's business. I hope they publish it in English someday...hope hope. and by Tokyopop or DelRey, cos VIZ has some sucky translations. Anyway, I've blathered on enough xD

the official superior page. thank you!
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Sunday, July 13, 2008

   walking
last weekend, my dad and I went on a hike. This weekend, my dad and I AND my dog went on a hike. It was fun, but damn tiring. And I always manage to get so dirty. Lookin' like a hobo.

But whatever. Not much to say these days >_< I got a new phone number, a portland area code cos I'll be moving there permanently. and eventually, Antonio might come, too. o_o

i saw my sister last week; i was so happy!! we made a video i will put up. at the end. or now.



yup we're the nerdiest little nerds that ever dorked around. but we were bored.

so um yeah...too tired to talk about much else. LOL antonio texted me from my basement, asking if i'm still awake. i'm in my room upstairs xDthank you!
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Sunday, July 6, 2008

   i'd still rather go to heaven
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!

Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Level | Score
Purgatory | High
Level 1 - Limbo | Very High
Level 2 | Low
Level 3 | Low
Level 4 | Very Low
Level 5 | Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis | Very Low
Level 7 | High
Level 8- the Malebolge | Low
Level 9 - Cocytus | Low

Level descriptions: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html
Take the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-test.mv

thank you!
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Friday, July 4, 2008

gaboingaboingaboingga--somebody help! I can't stop myself!
blah. Not much to say...although I have seen a few of my dear friends!!!

I saw Deisy and Maribel, both of whom I haven't seen in over a year! Mari is doing really well, I love that girl to pieces. We went to the zoo last thursday, and this thursday, I went around with Deisy. I also got to meet Deisy's darling daughter Angeli ^^ cute little girl.

Tomorrow is Independence Day. yay!

but...I HATE HATE HATE fireworks. They are SO rude and SO dangerous. I don't mean to sound like a no-fun BITCH, but you know what? my mom has to sleep so she can get up and work 14 hours+ straight with very few breaks. My mom's no spring chicken, and so any sleep she does manage to get is greatly needed.

But people make loud, obnoxious noises into the early morning, and it stresses her out, and she's got enough stress. Not to mention the extremely dry conditions around here, and the risk of setting fire to something. AND not to mention the risk of someone, like a kid, getting really hurt from them.

LOL

I was gonna say something else...what was it? hrmmm...I don't know. depressing! but whatever ^^

see ya!thank you!
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Monday, June 23, 2008

   alert alert, Sasaya not dead
but I don't really want to be online that much for a while, so I won't be around (again) for a while.

Sorry loves. Real life calls.

Hope you're all doing well, I know I'm doing pretty good m'self. Getting kinda obsessed with Hayao Miyazaki ^^thank you!
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Monday, June 9, 2008

   Not gonna be around
Since it's the end of the year, and I have to move out, I'm packing up now, laptop included.

So, I won't be on for a while! ^^ I know you'll miss me.

But, wish me luck with packing, finals, and the big move!!! ...AND the train ride home ^^

LOL I should be back in Denver at around 8 pm Mountain time on SUNDAY.

My first train leaves at 2:35 pm Friday, so **fingers crossed**

laters, loves!!!thank you!
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