Friday, January 30, 2009

Ugh...

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I was so sick yesterday. Food poisoning. Never go to McDonalds. Ever. It sucks.

Anway, night before last I was up from 1-3 throwing up stomach acid, then I had the bright idea of going to school. Bad idea. I lasted til9:30, second period, then I had to go home. I went to my aunt's house because mama and daddy had to go get mama new shoes, so I was there from about ten thirty to four in the afternoon, and then I went home. I took two naps, ate a bowl of soup and a little tator-tot casserole, and went to bed. (Oh yeah, I threw up twice at school before I went home) Yeah...not a good day yesterday.

Also yesterday, my aunt told me something that I thought I'd better share: Guys, you aren't responsible for others feelings. That must sound stupid coming from someone you haven't met in the "real world", but it's true. If someone gets upset about something you said, that's their bad, not yours, the same goes for when we get our feelings hurt over something someone else said. This sounds cruel, but we are the masters of our own emotions; the only one who can insure your happiness is you, and don't worry, I'm still learning that.

And because of that, I've decided to let someone go. He's been my best friend for most of my life, but ever since two years ago he thinks trying to suck to people that he deems as "cool" is more important than our friendship. Aunt Tract told me that advice yesterday, and I realized that even though I'm hurting, it's my fault for taking it personally, because he's just doing what's best by him. So, I'm letting him go. He's air to me now (I've ignored plenty of people this way, so it's nothing new) and if he wants to be friends, I'll be here with open arms, but if not...that's his loss. It hurts, because deep down I know that he knows that they don't care about him, but...it's not my business to get mixed up in.

In other news, I'm seeing my boyfriend again today (big surprise). We played tic tac toe, placing bets on the wins and losses the other day, and now I have to draw him two nude cat girls (on seperate pages where it's not lesbo, upon his request), and play strip othello with him when he buys an othello board, and one massage from me(Okay, an indecently un-clothed massage from me...don't ask). On the other hand, I get the rest of the Ai No Kusabi (The Space Between, a yaoi novel series) and Love Mode (another yaoi manga with like 12 volumes), and he doesn't know it, but I am so claiming that Othello board! ^^ I think I came out on the good end of that.

Whew! What a long post! I think you guys are all caught up! ^^ Someone liked my story! Yay!!!!!!

Question: Trunks and Andriod 17 from DBZ. Yaoi material?



roseeyes out!

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Wednesday, January 28, 2009

New look

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Thanks to Yoji, I now have a nice looking new site! ^^ How does it look?

I didn't get my alone time AGAIN yesterday - my brother needed my boyfriend's help with a car...oh well, he's coming to pick me up today becasue it's been raining, he's so nice...

Anyway, maybe I can take a nap later on today...I'm always happy when it rains, but it also makes me sleepy...

Got two new mangas today - volume 1 of Steady Beat and volumes 1-5 of Fushigi Yugi. I've read Steady Beat today and it's nice! ^^ I'm reading Fushigi Yugi now and I really like it. I've always wanted to read it and now I own it! ^^ Yuu Watase is so awesome! Although the ending for Absolute Boyfriend and Ceres Celestial Legend were similar, the stories were awesome! YAY!!!!!! ^^

As I mentioned before, I've always wanted a fancy site, but I'm not a techy and know codes and formats and stuff. I can read html, but that's about it. Maybe you can teach me how to do all this stuff Yoji? Anybody...?

Also today we did a skit in digital media for something called the invisible bench that these two girls found on the internet. We all asked if we could sit on an "Invisible" bench and squatted against the wall and then at the end this guy came up and said that he MOVED the invisible bench and we all fell to the floor from where we were sitting...in the air...on nothing. I know it sounds stupid, but it was a lot of fun! ^^ It was also the first skit that I've been in, so I had a good time, and since we filmed it in the hallway between the new and old gyms, one of the coaches watched and cut up with us. It was a blast!

I hope you guys have a great day!

p.s.: I played Tales of Legendia last night way past my bedtime (which is 8:30 on the dot, my choosing, of course) and I'm at the final boss, Schwartz. BUT THAT BITCH IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARD! >_< I couldn't beat her! Maybe I'll try if my boyfriend doesn't stay too late...

roseeyes out!

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Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Thank you

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yojimbo, thank you for doing a new site for me. I can't wait to see it!

Someone I've never met commented and said that my story was good! YAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^ I OWN THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol

Gotta walk home today cause my ride wants to do track and I told my boyfriend to stay home today, which he's been taking very well ever since we talked about my bubble and how I need my space last week. Whenever I want aloney time, I just tell him and he says "okay" and that's the end of it. Tales of Legendia, here I come!

Yesterday was supposed to be a me day, but he came over to pick me up in the rain, which, as I said yesterday, was sweet, but I need me time.

When I get home I'm gonna do a Coca Cola, wash dishes, do clothes, and then play my game. Ah, a perfect day at home.

We may be able to go out this week, although I don't know, because he has to fix the backseat in his car. I hope we can, because then I can see my friend and we and my brother can hang out! That'd be so cool...

That's all, folks!

p.s.: anyone ever heard of the song Tsuki no Karasu>

roseeyes out!

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Monday, January 26, 2009

Chapter two

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Chapter two is up, although I think the only one reading my story is redmoonchick...oh well, at least it's out there.

I'm gonna try for a new theme today. If not, I'll do it tomorrow. Loveless it is!

Please read and comment my work! I'm begging you!

.....Aw, fuck it.

The background I wanted won't fit on here, you can't half see my avatar, I've been playing around trying to fix it but I give up! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! *ranting and screaming*

Here's the bg I wanted and what's on my school computer.



Thanks for visiting my now lousy themed site...

roseeyes out!

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Friday, January 23, 2009

Uh...

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Not much to post about, other than I'm gonna try to get the second chapter of Twilight Princess up today. That's all. PLEASE READ IT!!!

Peace.

roseeyes out!

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Thursday, January 22, 2009

Twilight Princess

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Thank you for the replies. I read them all.

Someone please go make friends with my brother. He wants friends onhere.

My boyfriend finally broke me. I mean this as saying that I got mad, told him off, and now he is giving me space. We're still together and I love him, but...I got my way. Whoot ^W^

I posted the first chapter of one of my stories...Twilight Princess. Anyone interested can check it out at:

http://www.theotaku.com/worlds/romeraandjulio

Anyway, the copy paste thingy messed up and the start of paragraphs have no indentions, but don't hate. I just spent the past hour typing the damn thing for ya'll's amusement, I'm not fucking with it anymore right now. So please read. Please?

redmoonchick: I really liked your story. Send me more!

elves: I don't expect you to read my story, but thank you for saying that you would.

Everyone else: thanks for agreeing with what I said.



roseeyes out!

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Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Realization

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I just realized how many people have left or have jsut lost interest in coming to hte otaku all together. That makes me sad. I have over a hundred friends (yays) but only about 20 of them ever post or are on in general anymore. What's up with that?

I've got two stories that I'm seriously writing right now - Noir Rogue, my FMA fanfic, and The Nameless Ones, one of my own stories. I have a Kingdom Hearts one going to, and one already finished (Twilight Princess), but I'm having problems reaching a certain point in it right now, so it's on the back burner for now. Anyone interested in either of my stories? Want further details?

I love vampires, and vampire yaoi even more. I want to do a BL vampire story, but I'm having problems coming up with a storyline...

How's everyone been? Well, I hope.

Any preferences on my next theme? I was thinking Loveless, but you guys are the ones that are going to have to look at it every day, not me.

Have a good day!



roseeyes out!

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Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Anime

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I just recently started watching Witch Hunter Robin, and it's awesome! ^^ I love the opening and ending songs; bana's voice is so pretty! Shell reminds me of how I feel a lot of times.

I really like Micheal in the series. I understand his situation, and feel for him. He's just so cool and can be funny when he wants to be. Although the man who owns the bar they all go to looks like an old woman to me...

How's everyone? Like my new theme? Why does no one ever tell me how they're doing? I feel like I waste words when I write to ask about it...

roseeyes out!

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Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Mood

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I'm in a foul mood today. One of my pet peeves was acted upon, and has been for a while. I can't stand fake people, people who act differently at home then in public? I hate that.

The incident(s) have been that someone I know has basically abandoned me for people that don't give a damn about him, and deep down, I think he knows that they don't care, but that's his problem, not mine. I'm tired of worrying over this person, because I love him like family, and this is the reason we're not best friends anymore, because of shit like this. He can't give me the time of day because I'm not "popular" or "cool" in his eyes, and if he's going to be like that, fuck it. I don't care.

I'm sure everyone has had that happen before. I'm just tired of tiring to help him, it's not my place to, so I'm not losing any more sleep over it. If he wants to mess his life up, then have at it. My boyfriend told me that this boy knows what he's done, and will regret it for the rest of his life. I believe it, because I know he's regretting it now. If he wants to be one of those office workers where the only way to stay hired is to suck the boss' balls every morning, that's his business. I don't care anymore.

That's allp. Sorry for the vent session.

roseeyes out!

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Friday, January 9, 2009

Today

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Thanks for the concern yesterday, guys. Dad's going today to get my phone fixed and do some other stuff, and after school I get to hang out with my boyfriend! ^^

Sorry for the lack of information, but I'm in a hurry and I need to go. Talk to ya'll later!

Any advice for feeling down?

roseeyes out!

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