Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Help, I have done it again. I have been here many times before. Hurt myself again today.And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame. Be my friendHold me, wrap me up. Unfold me. I am small and needy. Warm me up.And breathe me Ouch I have lost myself again. Lost myself and I am nowhere else to be found, Yeah I think that I might break. Lost myself again and I feel unsafe. Be my friend. Hold me, wrap me up. Unfold me. I am small and needy. Warm me up. And breathe me. Be my friend. Hold me, wrap me up. Unfold me, I am small and needy. Warm me up. And breathe me
Today, I found out that my friend’s father is a drunk and that last night; he almost beat him, but then decided to throw the most horrible words at him. I swear to God, that if I heard he was being beaten, I am going to go over there and express my feelings, I don’t care if I get the shit kicked out of me either. NO ONE does that to one of my friends. NO ONE should ever do that to their kids. I don’t care what kind of problem you have; you don’t take it out on them.
I pray to God that I don’t end up like my mother or my friend’s father.
My friend insists that he can take care of himself. But I just want him to be safe. I want him to not have to live with the fear of “is my dad going to come home drunk tonight?” He is always worrying about others. He is constantly trying to help me with my problems. Even though he really should be worrying about his, If it gets worse, I ‘m going to ask my mother if he can move in with us, seeing as he doesn’t get along with his mother. I do hope that he will be alright. That everything will be okay for him.
I watched 300 today, It was amazing. I love that movie so much at the moment. Also I discovered that Tegan and Sara and Shiny Toy Guns are playing where I live. I must see them.
Have a good on you guys.