Tuesday, July 17, 2007
My mother is beginning to annoy me. I discovered today that she has been going through my things, because she doesn’t trust me, I don’t think that my mother will ever trust me. I guess guys must be wondering what this is about, so I will tell you. Long story short, I have a boyfriend, and my mother believes that I shouldn’t have one, and well, I have been somewhat lying to her about it. I don’t want to hurt her. Honest. That is the last thing that I want to do, but as much as I do love my mother, I really do like the guy that I am “secretly” dating. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to hurt anyone and yet, with the position that I am in, it seems like I have to hurt someone in order to make another happy. It’s not fair.
It happens to be even worse now, because I really want to see him, seeing as I haven’t for about 2 months, and well a friend of ours was going to have a little deal with us, so that we could all get a chance to see each other, and my mother won’t, because as she put it, “I would feel more comfortable know thing that ‘that boy’ won’t be there”. I really do hope that things will work out.
Over my summer vacation, I have been watching one of the most amazing films. It is called, Snow Cake. Alan Rickman, Sigourney Weaver and Carrie-anne Moss are in it, I happen to find this amazing, especially seeing as I wasn’t able to picture Alan Rickman playing anyone else other than Snap in the Harry Potter series. He is a wonderful actor though, and this film has proved it.
There is this line that is written on a picture in the film that I find to be dazlious. It goes along the lines of; “The past is only a memory, the future a fantasy. It is in only the present that we truly live.”
I also happen to love how the film is set in Canada.
Since I left for my Fathers house, I have been wondering a lot about being “home-sick”. I truly don’t understand that concept; I mean I don’t think that it is accurately named. How can a person miss their home, and not the people in it? I think that “home-sick” should be changed in to something else that suits it better. What do you think?
I have been looking for a song, and I can’t seem to find it. It is called Notteru Ondo and it is apparently preformed by The Drifters but I can’t seem to find it no matter how hard I look. I guess I’ll have to look harder then.
I’m being yelled at to get off of the computer. So I might as well get off, because I also need to rearrange everything in my room. My mother has moved everything out of its place.
I hope and wish that all of you are having a wonderful summer.