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Thursday, October 25, 2007


Dear Friends,


Hulllo there =)

Sorry that I posted and then kind of poofed again. I had this massive Photography assignment that was due on Wednesday. I honestly thought that I wasn't going to get it done. I was in such a panic and that was all I was really focused on. I truly forgot about all my other assignments it was all Photography, photography, photography.

I've become obsessed with masquerades. I want to throw a masked ball so badly , I am going to try my hardest to convince my school to have one, because I think that it would be fantastic. Like I mean seeing as it is only a high school dance, people don't have to have over the top dresses and suits, they just need an amazing mask. I think that it would be a fun time.

School is still going well, I had two tests today, and well I'm pretty sure that I failed my Chemistry one. I wanted to get out of class so baldy, and when we were done, we had to wait like 10 minutes but then we were let go. But I got to leave earlier than that. I got kicked out =). I'm sitting at the table, and rolling my lip chap then all of the sudden my teacher was all "KYSHA GRAB YOUR BAGS AND GET THE HELL OUT OF MY CLASS" I was mad because I hate chem, so I smiled and say, " I'd be glad to" and left. =) My teacher is a paiiiin~.

So I have 3 of my pictures from the twenty used in my Photography Portfolio assignment. The first one is of this little boy that I saw at the park, His father was pushing him on the swing, and I just couldn't miss that. He was far too adorable. The second is a picture of downtown Calgary. I miss it so dang much, and I was so glad that my mom drove me there to take pictures. The last is of my friend Rachel. I only like it because of the shadow. =) It makes me happy. The pictures were taken with a Canon 20D and either a 50m lens and a 100-400m lens. Take a look if you want =)

Pic one
Pic two
Pic three

So, other than that, I am a boring person, and nothing is new with me. How are things with all of you guys? What are your plans for Halloween? ALSO I am thinking of making a Deviant Art, but I need ideas for a screen name. Anyone care to throw some ideas my way?



have a good one.


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Saturday, October 13, 2007


Dear Friends,


I"m slowly coming back.

I'm sorry that I haven't been on, that I haven't been visiting sites.
Things between my mother and I have gotten pretty bad. I actually hate her, and I hate the fact that I can't stop loving her.

I want to move out so bad and if I was financially secure enough I would. But the facts are I'm not, and I won't be for some time. So until then I'm stuck in the hell hole.


School is going good. I'm failing chem though. I hate the class there is no point and it's so boring and nothing ever gets explained. But other than that thing are going well, I have joined STUDENTS AGAINST DRUNK DRIVING and we are working pretty hard at that.
I am in the photography club and I am loving it. I might even think about photography as a career. =)


In other news, I have obtained tickets to one of the four canadian shows that H.I.M. is doing! November 6th you cannot come soon enough. I'm quite excited it shall be the highlight of my life.



Have a good one. *loves*


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Wednesday, September 19, 2007


Dear Friends,


I think that I've gotten things worked out. I've decided to give my friend one more chance.



I will get to some sites right now before I go to school. Even if you haven't posted recently (;
I will get to all the other sites when I get home tonight.


I hope that you had all had fantastic days when I was gone. And I hope you have a good hump-day. ‚ô•


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Thursday, September 13, 2007


Dear Friends,


I will not be visiting sites today.


School is going well, It isn't as bad as I thought it would be, although some of the classes are getting quite boring.



I think that I am going to take a break from myO- at least for a little bit. Sorry, but i think that it would be for the best. I need to get some thing worked out.


I do hope that all of you are doing well. I'm sorry that I haven't been stopping by sites like I used to . I promise that once i get back from the break I will. I swear.


Have a good one.


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Sunday, September 9, 2007


Dear Friends,


Iím in a horrible mood again. Fantastic mood to be in for the weekend no?


I worry too much, but Iím actually worried about Mark.
I know itís normal for him to be doing drugs and drinking.
It just worries me because of Ö I donít know. Iím just so scared heís going to get hurt.
Iím worried that he is going to go too far. Because I have the feeling he will.
I wish I could just wrap him up in my arms and protect him.
I canít.
I wish that mark would get that girl of his dreams.
That they would be happy forever.


Once again Mark has come to my rescue. To save me from my demons if only for a little while.
Talking with him makes things seem so much better. Like Iím not alone in this.


I miss Michael. I wish I could talk to him, I know Iíd be in a better mood after that. He makes everything so much better. I wish that I could see him and hold him. Just see him if only for an instant. I hate my mother restrictions. Why should I spend that time dreaming? When real life is better with you.


Iíve been listening to Julia Ewing all day. She is fantastic. Brilliant. She is gifted with the most amazing voice. I suggest you all give her a quick listen. If you like acoustic music, itís worth it.


But Iím going to go.
Sorry this isntí really a post you can comment to.
Iíll post something happier tomorrow.
I'm sorry I haven't gotten to sites.
i promise i'll limit these sob story posts.


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Friday, September 7, 2007


Dear Friends,


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Your heartbeat is pulsing at night in your chest. It's gold and it's glowing with all the life you have left. I received your words from hospitals where you felt alone. Your words like smoke, they made me sick but they kept me warm. Run where you'll be safe. Through the garden gates. To the shelter of magnolias. Your eyes are like sea glass, so weathered and worn. From all they've seen of adolescence torn. The lovers who have tainted you, they pulled you into the night. They touched your skin with velvet gloves and made you feel alive. Run where you'll be safe. Through the garden gates. To the shelter of magnolias. There's not much time. The blush in the sky begins to fade. You are weathered and worn. Your petals soft and torn. The fading color. You have bent your shoulders. To hold the weight of the world. You will surely shatter. Run where you'll be safe. Through the garden gates. To the shelter of magnolias. There's not much time. The blush in the sky begins to fade.
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The Hush sound has been playing constantly in my house. I adore them. Their music I wondrous. It quenches my wanderlust.

I still have to finish my Career and Life Management homework; I do believe that I will have ever so much fun with it.

I discovered that when I try to fight a person who has 90 pounds on me, that it ends up with my being thrown over his back to be carried. Itís not fun.


That is all I am boring. I bid you adieu. ♥


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Thursday, September 6, 2007


Dear Friends,


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Wendy's + Cacon + Coffee Flavoured Bacon + Random Guys + "WTF? YOU ALMOST RAKED HER IN THE ASS!!" + "I'VE NEVER FELT THIS BEFORE~~ *wiggles* " + "I've Got all the Junk in the Trunk *thrust* " + Cplus nipple + fly poo shirt + bag of Worm Poo + Jose's toe Diagram + The ďinsult jimmy PartyĒ + "lol you guys are buddies eh?" + JEB + "IT LOOKS LIKE A PENIS" + Messing with Pop machines + Super man Phone + Seeing CHINtel + Wal-mart + Rachel + Markus + Steph = MOST FUN I'VE HAD THIS YEAR.
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I have a feeling that I am not going to last long in Chemistry. Today was the first day that I received homework, and well I had to ask a friend for help. The funny thing is; he was baked. The sad thing is, he STILL knew the answers. Yeah, Iím slow when it comes to anything academic. Iím slow when it comes to anything in general.


School was school. That is all there is to it. Although I do have to say that I miss having classes with JEB. He made everything so much fun. I miss Tom do. WTF did Tom have to move to Calgary? He left me alone in Airdrie.

After school was the best. To sum it up, rest the beginning of the post. That is what happened. There was a lot more too.


Thank you for all of the comments you guys. They mean a lot. ♥
But I think Iím going to read a bit. Then go to sleep so I can wake up tomorrow to look for my calculator. *loves*



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Wednesday, September 5, 2007


Dear Friends,


Do you ever wonder why we wonder? Do you ever wonder how long things will last?


School yesterday wasn't as great as I had hopped it would be.I left for school unable to find my calculator or my house key. the day was off to a bad start. Classes were fine. It was the people that pissed me off. My friend were being mean to my one friend's ex. and well I felt horrible. I didn't stop the rude comments when I should have. I swear that if they do it today I will.


I'm sitting here watching Pinky and the Brain. I adore this show, and I was schocked to see that it was on, seeing as it hasn't aired here in years. Although I adore this show-my heart full od joy, I can't help but be depressed about it. I mean this goes to show how old I've become. How much I've grown up. I know I'm only 15 but still. I only have 2 years of high school left, and then I'm out on my own. Out to see what the world has in store for me. I don't want to grow up. I want to rebel against time. That is why I hate clock and watches. It's my personal rebelion.


It's been a little over 8 months now. ( it was 8 months on the first. ) and well, it's been the best 8 months ever. I wish that I could say that I 100% love him, but the thing is, I don't know what love is. From what I have grown up around, it is nothing but fighting. I've never fought with him, and that worries me. I'm not sure why though.


I will find my calculator. Have a good one.


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Thursday, August 30, 2007


Dear Friends,


I hasnít Ö I just said I hasnít O.O HODEAR, where has my grammar gone? Anyways.


So Iím talking to my friend mark right now. He is the most Infinite and Evaluate boy I know (besides Michael xD) and well, talking to him always make me wonder. Can a person be empty with happiness? I mean is that really possible? If it is it has to have another name besides being ďempty with happinessĒ. And I wonder what that is. He always puts on this faÁade. And even though I am talking to him on MSN, I can still tell that itís a faÁade. Because it doesnít take long for him to break down and open up. And that is what I love about him. Heís okay with letting other people in. Letting other people help. And it really doesnít matter that Iím just a self-help booth to him, because the way we talk makes it seem like he genuinely wants to know what I have to say. Maybe he does. I donít know. Anyways, I wish that everyone could have a friend like Mark. Because they help you through so much.


So Iíve also found my self wondering what in the world is the opposite of feeling infinite. Is it being empty with happiness? Ö I guess none of you know what Iím talking about. Infinite is Ö itís a hard thing to explain. Itís just Ö have you ever had one of those moments where you want time to stop right then and there, and you feel so amazing that words will never match up to the actual feeling, or you just feel like youíre actually alive and living for the moment. That is guess is Infinite. Itís different for every person.


But Iím rambling. Iíll leave you along. Have a good one.


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Wednesday, August 29, 2007


Dear Friends,


I guess I should have explained things better in my last post. So I am going to clear up questions.
Mochi is a Japanese ďsnackĒ Itís a ball or sweet red bean paste wrapped in sweet sticky rice flour. It is awesome, but definitely and acquired taste.


Credits So By the end of grade 12 I need at least 100 credits to graduate. It doesnít really matter how many credits you get every year, just as long as it adds up to 100 by graduation time. Iím ahead =D lmao.


So today was a meh day. Iíve decided that I am going to cute ties with one of my friends. I mean she never makes an effort to keep the friendship going, and so Iíve decided that Iíll be fine without her. Because the facts are, I am so far.
Sheís gotten into some things that I donít like, and I know about them-but she doesnít know that I know, and well anyways she is distancing herself from me because she thinks that way, she wonít have to tell me. That annoys me. Also she only talks to me when something bad happens to her. Iím not a self-help booth. But anyways, cutting ties could be harder than I thought, because she is friends with the majority of all my other friends, and I donít want it to be awkward. And I donít want them to be caught in the middle. But the thing is, I just canít put up with her anymore. D:


I watched The Rocky Horror Picture Show today. I love that film so much. Itís fantastic and brilliant and phenomenal. I need to see it on stage. I have to.

But that is all. Have a good one you guys.


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