Well, these week was pretty good. I never had too much homework and I applied to a college *hopestogetaccepted* I also origianlly had a doctors appointment to get checked in places I don't want to talk about yesterday, but my mom realized I wasn't ready and didn't want me to feel I was going to be violated, so she cancelled the appointment. I'm glad, cause I know I'm not ready to be touched by some stranger, especially a doctor, I can't stand them. I know they mean well, but when I was in elemtry school, we had this real old doctor come in once a year to give physicals. They had us strip to our underwear and it looked more like he was feeling everyone up (they gave fourth and fith graders sex ed, nuff said). I refused to take them and would kick and scream, and then ended up going to the hospital to get one instead and it was worse there. I had to strip and to my undies and got examined. It wasn't so bad, the lady wasn't putting her hands everywhere, but then she had me lay down and pulled my underwear down to see if I was "maturing yet." I don't care if some kids start puberty at 11, but that was totaly uncalled for. And all that's why I hate doctors. I don't like getting touched. I don't even like hugs that much because those perverts made me so sensative. I can just imagine what I'd end up doing to the poor person that would've examined me yesterday. I know I would've lashed out at some point, and I'm pretty sure their is a huge difference between getting kicked by a little kid and a seventeen year old.
But anyway, let's get away from memory lane's back ally. Tonight I'm having chili macaroni for dinner. Dad's working over night, it's the weekend, and Death Note's on! Woo hooo!!! Speaking of which, I can't wait for the death Note roleplay I signed up for on Gaia to start. It's way more interesting than most other's I've seen. I'll be playing a death note holder, Mira. There are three others but Mira is the only male and he's the oldest. I made him gay, though because I don't want him getting attached to anyone. Even the new L is female. I think the only males are the shinigami that've signed up so far and a few of the task workers. Oh and there is Near, who will be in disguise. The RP takes place after Light died. Near went into hiding and so a new L was chosen from the Wammy Orphanage. We still need one more task force member and I think one more shinigami. If anyone here is active on Gaia and is interested, give me a PM and I'll point it out to you. My name is Regran.
Death Note meets Spongebod Videos by InvaderZim1000
Another new pic, I'm on a role lately. This pic has nothing to do with Star Fisher. Actually, it has everything to do about me. If you want to check it out, please do. You can learn some of my personality.
Another pic is up. I'll warn this time, yes it's yaoi, as in there is a nekkid boy in it, but there is nothing showing but alot of skin. Anyway, take a look if you don't mind it? I'm still playing with styles, but this was more fooling around with textures and filters. Oh and it actually has a background O.o
Another pic I'm so proud of I just have to post it here :D 5+ strait hours of work. I'm uber proud. Below the image is the song I was listening to the whole time I made this.
*sigh* School starts back up tomarrow. I wish I had another week, I don't really look forward to the history course I'm being forced to take because I wasn't here in the 9th grade to take it. And of course, it'll be so easy I'll be bored again. And then I'll have to listen to all the younger grades whine and complain and whisper behind my back and try to cheet off my answers... if only we could hit people at school, though I'm sure people would just love to hit me. They keep wanting me to talk -_-
Well, art wise, I'm doing better. I've finaly got my tablet and I've gotten used to it, it's so great. I don't think I'll be doing much traditional stuff for awhile... or at least not until I hook up my scanner to my laptop. My desktop is too loud and annoying, only good for gaming nowadays. Strange though, that I'm always listening to ear-splittingly loud music, but the loud buzzing of my comp drives me nuts >_<
I've updated my profile over the winter break, so please check up on it if you haven't, it's always nice to get some comments or crits from people you know (that is assuming the people that would respond to this post are those that have me on their friends list). Anyway, a Death Note amv, since I just can't think to find anything else. Now I'm off to finish some school work I put off till last minute.
The past few weeks or so have been a bit annoying. I've been having trouble getting on Gaia (I think my parents might've blocked it =_=) That freaking ice storm barely did our town any damage, but the rest of Oklahoma has been able to miss some school while I got sick because my school thought freezing rain and freezing temps were ok to go out in so long as there wasn't ice in the roads. Oh, and I'm officialy failing Trigonometry if I can't pass this test. I'm horified at how my dad will react. I've been trying so hard to do well, but everytime I think I understand the material, I get a ton of Fs on my homework and then barely manage a C on the chapter tests. I'd cry if I wasn't obsorbed my latest gift. Anyone that stopped by when I posted on my birthday (thank yous to those that stopped by at random to wish me a good one) might remember me mentioning getting a tablet. Well, it didn't come on my birthday, instead it came last week. It was so worth the long wait despite all the trouble the people we ordered from gave us. Coloring digitaly has never been so easy. Its like the wow-factor when putting on contacts.
Anywho, I drew a picture of Fen with my new tablet. It's really alot different when compared to my other stuff, but I was trying something new with something new so what can I say? They're are alot of quirks with it though. His lips are really odd and really only his face is shaded because I'm not used to color other parts yet. But I love it so much. I can't wait till I improve with my new tool <3
17 days ago someone close to me died. It may sound silly to grief this long over a small bird, but I can't get over it. She was almost 12 years old, that's very old for a budgie. It was sad to see her go, sadder to know that there was nothing I could do for her. Her cage is still in my room because if I move it, I feel she'll be gone for good.
I know it's a strange this to put, but I thought I'd tell those that care why I've been so quiet since my birthday. All october I've been having trouble in school, and now this month I deal with loss and pressure. Sometimes I feel like going mad, and I've been doing alot I don't normally do, like comment on the news on the main page. I feel silly for doing it, but maybe if I can start to talk to others I can find something to distract me. Gaia's helped a lot with it. I know people that talk to me almost everyday. It makes me happy and I forget about my troubles. Heh, too bad I still find it hard to open up and blab here... well... blabing in this post doesn't count. Very few seldom talk to me compared to other people.
You know, I don't even know why I updated this... but at least it's something. Maybe I'll update my gallery after I finish some things. My tablet never came on my birthday, but my dad said he ordered it... could be fun when it arrives.
Woot! It's mah birthday today! I'm now 17 years old, it's 4:40 pm and I still don't know what I'm getting... other than a tablet but that's coming Monday because of difficulties. But my family's been taunting me with something else but won't tell me. Supposedly, some one's working on it. Makes me think it's a car (which I hope it's not, I can't drive and we shouldn't be spending so much. Sure the tablet is 500 but a car... good lord!)
Anyway, I got some cards from my family and some good wishes from some people on a forum I go to, I'm content. I only wish that my last picture update was more successful, meh.
Well, my last year as a high school student begins on Friday. Strangely, I'm not that nervous. I'm sort of looking forward to going back to school; I seemed to get most of my inspiration from being there. My classes this year are a bunch of stuff I threw together, since I only need about half of them for the credit.
~ AP Environmental Science
~ Trig/Analysis
~ Earth Science first semester, US Gov. second semester
~ Spanish II
~ Honors English IV
~ Honors Studio Art
My game plan is the same as always, wing everything. Slack off and do everything last minute. Cram the night before tests and shrug off the nervousness, then pretend that the A means nothing and ignore everyone’s attempt to be my friend… except the people that already forced their way into my life :)
Art wise, I uploaded two drawings last night as well as a new wallpaper. I haven’t made WPs is a long time, and I sort of like this one. Art news for the future is little; I haven’t had much to go off of inspiration wise. My drawing of Hanabi pretty much sapped it all.
