Thursday, May 5, 2005
There are always things like that. Things more important than yourself, than your dreams.
This is bad!!! This is really, really, really, really, REALLY BAD. I feel like I'm being stabbed 1000 times over and over again. >_____<
We had to switch seats in History today...I ended up at Evan's table...and it's not just that! I have to sit right next to the guy! Now it's over...my life is completely, utterly, hopelessly over! There's no way I'll survive without either humiliating myself or killing myself! I knew I'd end up sitting next to him...SOMEHOW I JUST HAD A FEELING. e_e
There's nothing I can do about it now...NOTHING!! IT'S TOTALLY HOPELESS!!! AND I'M STILL FREAKIN' NERVOUS AFTER HAVING TO SIT NEXT TO HIM FOR AN HOUR. >_>
Gaaahh....*screams in agony*
Part of me is saying, "It's hopeless! Hopeless! Just go lie down somewhere and die."
While the other part of me is saying, "This is it! Take this chance and make your move!"
WHAT SHOULD I DO!? *screams again*
*sigh* I really, really, REALLY didn't want to end up liking someone this year, but I just had to...last year I had to sit next to a kid I liked too. IT WAS NOT FUN OR EASY. -_-
I'm in total pain...TOTAL pain....I don't care if I'm making this too much of a big deal. I'll complain all I want. T_T
I don't think I'll survive tomorrow...I wish I was sick...GAAAHHH.....
EDIT: Oh yeah, the quote today is one of Ed's.