Friday, October 12, 2007

   oww

i went ice skating with my friends this morn. oww. fell on my butt. the ice wasnt exactly smooth. and there were people obstructing me. so i didnt hav any support n fell on my butt yes it was my first time. so my butt hurts. and it still does. think i hit my tailbone. but not serious enough to get me paralysed though TT and my foot was hurting constatly,cus my shoes went slanting. so yea. my biggy toe hurts. well. maybe im nt used to it. i AM not used to it. but yea. its like, oww. i hurt my bone i think. i was 'jumping' off this cupboard? whtever. i was sitting on it. and then its like. ITAI!!!!! OO *immense pain to the whole toe bone*well. it doesnt hurt now so we went arcade after that. there was only me oli and wan ying. so yea. we played parapara!! whoot!!! i was getting cold. so yea. eventually gt warmed up. bt we were hungry so we left soon and oli was zombie dancing TT lol. and with the TT# look on her face (cus we forced her to) aha. wanying was being too used to her dance moves(dance club member) yea. so it was kinda weird lol. btches hm yea. first. my mum. she was going 'why didnt u remind your sister this morn abt the gathering tonite?" its like. WTFH!! hello! earth to mum(friggin airhead!) since when was it MY responsibility to do so?! F****. and then btch no2 sis butt in saying' you should have reminded me since u remembered it. and u know i wont' hello! like wth! isnt it YOUR friggin responsibility to remeber it YOURSELF?! *rolls eyes* like wth fishcakes. fweh third type of btches i hate: people who are in YOUR house and telling u what to do as if shes your MOTHER. if my mum wasnt there i'ld probably have gone(under norm circumstances) DONT BLOODY HELL TELL ME WHAT TO DO. YOU ARE NOT MY MUM,SO MYOB!(MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS) yesh. and stop treating MY house as if its YOURS and dont tell me WHAT to do. 4th one: the sun. my eternal enemy. bloody hell its so hot. and the sun was bright. the clouds aint doing their job of covering the sun lol(given my defi of btch. that would mean i am one...bt then again. since when was i a sweet lil thng with sugar on top? go to hell bastards. as in. for those who deem me that way. or those who are simply bitches and jerks) grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr so i aint exactly the happy sunshiney person today. despite arcade-ism. well. i received a message from goaty while i was restin my arse i the ice skating place. i dunno. i find myself smiling at the sight of it. the sorta smile of 'blissful happiness' or something O o. not to be confused with the chemical reaction with delicious sweets(my eyes turn bubbly and i go blinkblink with innocence. or i just go smiling) well. wanying stared at me doing that. lol. anyway. this was what it said: 'haha. i was playing maple this morning too. now on my way to the BB headquarters to settle some stuffs. sian' no idea. maybe i smile cus i was gloating. but i still dont get it why i had that 'blissful happy' feeling with blushes(that is. my face doesnt really blush. but yea...thats how it felt like) O o creepyness. or maybe i was just happy that he finally replied >< so exams r finally over. whoooooo. so i wa in the drawing mood again lol. submitted 2 fnarts today. am thinkin of inking the kobato one^^ and colour it. lol. its rare that i feel like that. but then again. given that its me,lethargic me,i wouldnt follow it through. might probably lose this passion halfway kukukukuu.... so yea. was planing to do a random manga abt me n goaty. but then again. i was stumped at how to draw the hair( was tempted to draw a goats head instead,but that wouldnt go) whaaaaaaaaaaatever meep. i are bored. n my arm hurts. and my sis is chasing me off her appy (which im using) .am laaaaazy to reply to comments. and i am happy that someone likes my draing style whoooooo~! *happyness rating 50%. that. is good enough* meooooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwww TT -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Friday, October 5, 2007

'weeks out!

whoo! there goes many papers! 4 left for horrible EOY >< chemistry biology physics and emaths paper2 so now im on singing marathon mood so im gonna post a bit later -poofs!- meanwhile: replies to comments (which doesnt require as much focus) +yea. good thing i didnt fall or car-crash into any teacher >< +nah. wasnt possible. 4th row. me 3rd row. and given that its a mixed school. no wait.scratch that. any school is noisy XDD lol. and i remembered the word. it was. urr..wait..ah! coordination?? or something like that.. tacit agreement/mutual understanding. thats what the dictionary said ^^ yes u told me about the long ruler before,nad.nuh uh. nuthing happened. i didnt eat my oreo illegally against school rule in the hall which is just outside the staff room *whistles*....you DONT know anything about this no you dont~~~ +well. that might have happened very likely. but the grip was tight man >< grrrrrrr. am soo gonna kill that handrail someday -poofs back- which reminds me. today me n my mob went to the school library to study a maths. the damned library was packed,so we got ourselves a place near the bookshelves further into the library and to our left and right are 2 groups of lower sec/juniors. the one on the right is soooooo....UGH! *pissed* we told them several times to shut up and then i the end they were still being damned bastards and jerks and they were so **************!!! UGH!!!! i was going. 'man.3 seconds to bitch-off' *deathglares* grrrrrrrr..... and then in the end,a few minutes before i reached my limit,i said to the bunch of jackarses 'can you all just shut up? other people are tryin to study for their exams can you be more considerate and shut up. before i throw my book over and hit you' yes. i was being reaaaaaaaaaaaally polite enough. if it wasnt in the library.which is crowded with many people. oh. golly. all kinds of stuff can happen like fly-off to the moon. i dont care if i get dragged to the discipline room. one word 'they were being inconsiderate jerks and making a lot of noise in the library n we cannt study' grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. so yea. the a maths paper. it was horrible. i had many questions i dont know how to do. had many blanks here and there. didnt have enough time to attempt all questions. >< gonna flunk it i knew i was sure to flunk. that wasnt so bad. thinking of the scene at the meet-the-parents ak backstabbing/badmouthing-the-pupil session,and ms oreo-giver-cum-song-killer speaking to my bitchy mum. and MUM ticking me off. i cried. i tried to hold back my tears. hide it with a yawn. and then after the paper i was talking to my friends. my eyes were just watery,but then again the more they talked to me,the more tears came out i was trying hard to wipe them away in case anyone saw. and then here comes a message from mr my-computer-is-my-bed aka goaty: 'hey. dont cry,okay?' i dont know. more tears came flowing when i read that. good thing or not i didnt have my handphone with me in school (he messaged this like,when i was waiting or on the bus). i dunno. i feel like being the bad friend again. i lied again 'nah. i was hungry and sleepy. i wasnt crying' i dont know if he believes me. last time i remembered being angry with my mum so i changed my display nick on msn to something like that. he read it and asked if i was having family problems. 'would you believe me if i said no?' nope. he didnt. but then again. he didnt really see me cry :'u scared me just now. i saw ur eyes watery. then zoe was sorta comforting you' ^^; is that good or bad. whatever it is. hes too smart for a baka. right on spot,this rough guess. but there was nothing about 'a maths' being mentioned at all -.- so yea. but i WAS hungry. and sleepy. since i hadnt any good nights sleep in a few days. my nap today was only an hour nad slightly around 10 minutes. can ya believe it? it is horrible must have been the darn weather. hey. who said that autumn was a cool season? its hot here. like as if its not even mid-autumns festival(which is hell,like,over!) feh. the climate cycle is wrecked. so yea. im gonna take a nice bath. and i know it puts this kitty to sleep meow~~~~~ ^^= and eat dinner cus i havent done so. and since its the weekends off! i can d.o.o.d.l.e and more manga-ism! whoooooooooooooooot!!!!!!! boo yea baby! ^^ *hyped up* okiee. see yeas. the scary ones(geography and a maths) are over~ yea. we should start getting the petition to NOT have these 2 horrible combinations together ready. for our sakes and for our *lovely* juniors sakes ^^ lol. and we'll get all the classes who did the geography and a maths paper today to sign it. im sure there be good response ^^ to foodies i gooooooooo~~~~~~~~~ -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Wednesday, October 3, 2007

pokes

bleah. me being a bad girl n posting again ^ ~ well. tomorrows chinese. not much to study. lol. gonna study some geography later. when. i.wake .up. ^ ~ senile-ity well yea. yesterday i forgot to place my handphone in my bag and ran across the whole hall(i was in the front row) to do that. >< eeep. so i was in total *run for your life!!!!* mode. yea. too embarrassing. mr goaty be evil. >< he said it was FUNNY. can ya belieeeeeeeeeve it?! EVIL~ UWAAAAAAAAAAAH~~~~~~~ *fake tears of trying-to-get-sympathy* but then again. thats why we are friends XD which reminds me of something totally unrelated to what i was gonna say but yea. last year(still ni the same class) cus there was this grammar question or something likewise i forgot it was posted by the teacher,and we had to work in pairs and one of us had to go out to write our answers. JANKEN! and i won. so Zoe went. lol. somehow it turns out to be that my answer was the same as goaty's (it was an open ended question) then zoe was all like 'eeeeh~ ur answer is the same as goaty *hinthint!!*' trying hard. i was saying something like 'err. coordination ?(or whatever used to describe team members with good teamwork or something) *poor chi-eng traslation skills*' and apparently. i used the WRONG phrase. (was really meaning it as between friends) so she took it wrong TT whatever.that doesnt change me. i was like. grrrr~~~~~~~~!! *ahem!* so yea. today. i was senile. i forgot to bring a long ruler and my calculator for my MATHS PAPER EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKK!!! long ruler. i was like. uhhhh.. oh ya i forgot. but then again. it wasnt really used so whathaheck! the calculator was a problem. so we has this break between papers. and my friend whipped out her calculator and i was like. wait....i hope its there...... ITS NOT!!! *tears due to shock beyond words* so i was all teary eyed and going OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!! *fainty* so fortunately i found people to borrow it from *sniff* yes kind soul u saved my life a whole lot thankyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~~~~~~ *tears~ touched* so yea. twas my horrible day. i ate my oreo *illegally* in the hall during the break after obtaining the life-saving calculator and went downstairs to washed my hands. walking by the nearer one towards the canteen. twas the mob of goaty and classmates. so i was like(in walking down time) 'okay. so just bloody hell leave me alone'. and then i was walking when my sleeve got caught by the handrail and i was like >< 'DANG U ASS!!'. mentally of course. so yea. there was a tiny abrasion. killed some of my cornified layer cells. well whatever. they WERE dead in the first place,ne? so when i came up. the mob's still there. i was thinknig. 'and yes again hell leave me alone'. and then they started going 'GOATY~~~' and i was like *twitch* and then EH? wheres wanying?? (cus i went to wash my hands without her and i wasnt sure if she heard) lol. whatever. so that was today. an having runny nose again. feh. every SS/history paper. always the runny nose/cold. feh. well. gonna grab some sleep. am almost done reading vol4 vampire knight! ^^ happyness lol. toodle~ replies to comments(oops forgot this again): +i hope i do fine too ls +agreed. but my parents seriously need to act like parents or 50year olds. feh. they behave like little children. and still bitch off at times. feh. i wonder why am i the mature one at times -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Monday, October 1, 2007

childrens day

well well well~ it aint really the age to be celebratin it but oh whathaheck! ehe. our PE teacher gave a devotion(something like preaching) this morn about we shouldnt grow up too fast so we should enjoy our childrens day. heheh. since we had his pe lesson today.he gave us sweets!! ^^ WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~(knowing me. yes i are happy-fied at these sugarrr) so yea my other friend didnt want it so wheeeeee!! i got 2 sweets~ and then ms backstabber+songkiller gave us oreo cookies!! WHEEEEEEEEEE!! was being happy~~~ *yes i are a happy kitty today being overly hyperrr* so zoe didnt really want hers. so she gave me ^^ wai~~ and then miss bitching-off-physics teacher was bitching off again. so i had tears in my eyes. YAWN. like hell i'll cry. *rolls eyes* was like (wth doesnt she knows theres something called 'borrow the worksheet from your friend n copy the correct answers'?!) shes dumb. feh. but oh well! she gave us jellybeans~! wheeeeeeee. well. i couldnt read the ingredients list lol. so i didnt eat it. still in my pocket. thinkin of feeding it to mr goaty since its so long since he had a childrens day gift and none of his teachers gave them presents. awww >< lol. anyway. its gonna be kinda like his last. he's turning 16 this year. too old for childrens day? ah whataheck~~~ lol yay. so today was a happy day. me was slackin when i reached home. lol. one unhappy thing to mention was that i was telling goaty few days ago that 'after d-day aka ur birthday its gonna be good!!!!' and then today i received the notice that we are havia chemistry practical test on the 1st nov. exactly the day after d-day. there goes happyness. grrrrr. whateverrrr. so yea. and its totally okay for friends who cant really openly talk in public to be exchaging smses. although its really been alot lol. ahaha. come to think of it. msn would be cheaper. lol. oh what the heck. too troublesome to be waitin 4 each other. lol. so yess. tomorrows english. so theres in fact nothing much to study. am very worried about maths on wednesday. i think i can try to get by social studies. i hope. but my greatest scary is geography + a maths. last semester. that was the lethal combination. >< uwaah. geography is een scarier this term. omigosh omigosh >< a mahts. wel'll seee. though i dont really think it too well >< uwaaaaaah .scaryyyyy~ hm yea. gonna do more maths. or read social studies facts. >< uwaaaah. geography kowai~~~ >< *sniff* oh well. reply to comment: +hm. we'll see lol. i love mybed i love apples yes i do. am not sure about people. tha heart wil decide~ lol. yep. my life's pretty mch bitched up yes it is. i only i didnt hate needles so much i wouldha slashed my wrist long ago. yuck. needles are scaryy *teary eyes* uuuuuuuuuuuu~ *puppy whine* bit of randomness 1: *pokes* 2: my parents r watchin yet another show on ghosts. and being very absorbed in it. TT i feel itchy back and scalp. (creepyness??? O o) nah. havent bathed yet. yuck. its been a sweaty weather. blaaaaaaaaaah toodle deee *hugs* -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Saturday, September 29, 2007

sayonara..

eh no. to be exact. its 'mata ne!' since im not gonna leave myO foreva! XDDDDDD yes. eoy r near. maybe i update again next week end or just on the 10th/11th october. since exams would be over by then. me catch up on more sleep. bro's coming back on the 10th. so yea. he's probably gonna hog the computer or something XDDDD hm. well. me be bad girl though. hahah. drank my milo. and then wasted time watching finish the last 2 episodes of Fate/Stay night. hahahahaha. hehe. and i got my paws on yet another mosquito. this one has instances of black and whites on its leg. O o aedes mosquito? >< hope not. my leg was itchy. but nah. didnt think it got me. anyhow. was doing good for the society!!! it might cause many more to fall sick (and watching its blood on my hands are.....hmmmm~~~~~) *evil grins me have been taking these dumb astrology readings shit. turns out that i have many planetary influences on capricorn,followed by cancer,and then the pisces,aquarius,and saggitarius and scorpio with one each. lol. i might b born under the wrong sign for all i know XDDD but its kinda true sometimes. these readings. lol. p.s. they said the Capricorn was a sea-goat. i went XD when i read that lol!!! imagine a goat blurping under water~~~~~~~ blurpblurp... XDDD interesting thought..... mn. life is horrible now since i had been bad and didnt do homework. so now its officially die. heheh. must work extra hard n do all of my practice papers. >< evil~~~ ah well. hehee. i dont really wanna speak about liking (as in love-like) anyon now. fie. i admit. i LOVE my bed. i love sleep. i love food. i like liquids eg juices and water and milk. i like kittens. i like to take random pics of th skies n the trees n the sun etc lol. hm. not sure about people...... i love myself? nah! XDDDDDD some replies to comments + uploads of more pics: replies to comments: +nad. thought we are over on this topic? anyway. try having 'friends' who talk to ya n go eccess with ya when they had a fight or are on bad terms with theirs for the entire of primary school life. try walking in school in a mob of 'friends' who can just continue talking about their own stuff and leaves ya stoning there clueless. try having friends who can say very hurtful stuff like 'we never said that u were our friend' whether jokingly or not and still hurt u deep. try having to live with a bitchy mum and a bitchy sis and not having ur own room to cry n escape in. try having bitchy teachers who assume n puts the responsibility on you when u had just so happen to pick up the papers n officially became paper-gal after that one coincedence. try having a friend u know u can turn to for help and some cheering up but know u shouldnt since its bloody late at night and hes busy and stressed and hurt himself and that sending the message might disrupt his sleep or cause him more worry or simply,no replies till the next day and cry pathetically alone in the same bloody room ya share witht he bitched family of yours. try every single bitchy shit i ever had in my bitched up life BEFORE saying stuff like 'you dont know the meaning of what its like to be hurt'. yea. try every bitched up aspect of my life. before ya can make any bloody smart aleck comments on my life yes i was being aggressive *fans self* chill kitty chill....ah....i smell maggi noodles/instant noodles *swoons*(the *fans self* was unnecessary) ^^ happy one yessh i am~~~~~~~~ +haha. yea. but given that its me. he doesnt tell ME his troubles. so i get angry. hmpf! >< naughty boy! *whams* lol. ahahahaha. but given thats its mr dumdum aka goaty,he doesnt get too angry. probably something like 'aww' or something. ehehe yea. and after that. i suffered cramps .after the day i posted. lol. ugh. was horrid. but lol. tHAT came. and now she doesnt have any excuse to call me pregnant XDDDDDDDD *is the only fact thats positive about this all* +i wonder how senile i would be whe im 75 too. who knows how long i'll live anyway? XD hmmmm *sttrange smirk* speakni of strange smirks. oli is a scary one. freakish laughter that creeps ya out. freakish expressions that makes ya suspect her mentality... mnnn. thats why shes on my 'friends requiring places in mental hospitals ASAP' list XDDDDD next up is her partner,wan ying. equally horrifying. but in her case. she suddenly goes with the 'cute' noises which are creepy i forsee the world needing many mental institudes,for all these cuckoo people around ..... pic-storm! viv's birthday cake. Death by Chocolate. this year's is from Swensons,yes,the ice cream company. yeeeaa........ the birthday gal and poking the cake. the cake's majority ice creammmm. only the thin top and bottom layers of the cake are ...cake. its like. only 1cm. ^^ the random piccie of the mess after lunchh lol scary piccie~ >< eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppp!! yep. taken in 'negative colours'. is onii-chan. with the xbox controller on his lap. and his hair white XD and the claws of terror reaching out to you.... *ARGH!!!!!!!!* this was one thing we saw while shopping for our new shiny fridge early this year. lol. took it with my dad's handphone. there was oe apple tree too. a tree covered with apples. hm. shall upload another time. yes. taken with my dad handphone too. this. is prettyness. yes. and since i toook another one witht he same scenery 1 minute later with my phone. it became : ^^ lol. so yea. the colourful one was probably one of my most favourites pics ever ^^ pretty~~~~~ lol. ends post. gonna go for heaven- i mean. noodles ^ ~ ya know my life revolves around food n sleep. without any of them two,i'll die. and no, suicide by lacking either is not a good idea. i'll claw everyone and bite them hard if that happened. lol. -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Wednesday, September 26, 2007

emo

listening to winter sleep from nana it has nice songs. stressed like shit fine. so i was wrong for not doing my past year papers like i should. well. i wasnt the only one. so my teacher was like blahblahblahblahbalbhalah about it. feh. and then she was gonig through this revision notes. fine. i searched damn hard for it. forgot where it was. so it wasnt under my desk. and i didnt wanna interrupt her so i kept my mouth shut and didnt ask permission to go to dig it out from the locker. she was obviously unhappy. fine! ugh like hell its my bloody fault?! sorry for being a senile child of 14~15! ugh teachers suddenly reminding us EOYs are bloody hell next week. fish them. like bloody hell i know! my teacher came in to class. bitched about me not collecting the class newspaper from her pigeon hole/locker. ugh. like bloody hell. she was the one who wanted me to do it in the first place./ i just so happened to pick it up since my friend wan ying the monitress passed by there,and a teacher was distributing them. ugh!! wth! soory i are forgetful. and senile. and i dunno when exactly they bring up the newspaper. UGH! yea bloody hell's its my fault so yea. i was in a terrible mood because of this. i dont like being stressed out. i dont. well. these ignorant bunch of peeps just HAD to do that. they just do it. and do they care how we ever feel?! i KNOW the exams are near. i KNOW i forgot to do my 'homework'. i KNOW I KNOW!!!!!!!!! but what do ya want me to do?! theres so little i can do. theres too much for me to handle... maybe im being a bad friend, i mean, not sharing this with my friends. in school. at most. al i will ever be is the 'terribly pissed off and cursing' kitty. i wont ever cry infront of them. i couldnt. maybe i dont trust them. maybe i dont trust them well enough. maybe i dont even feel like it. i just cant trust them i think ive mentioned this before last time. yes. i have my pride. and these world of asses and bitches just hasta take it down. an old saying goes 'wounds will heal someday'. well. when the wound closes and the scab drops off. there will forever be a scar left behind. burn it. apply layers of medicine. it never goes away people just dont understand me. well. actually. i still dont trust them well enough.depite the world slowly,bit by bit,expanding....im hurt. too much. too much for me to move. ....im scared....im frightened.... i dont know what is gonna happen in the end.. i dont have the courage to step out of this cage of mine. the doors are opened slightly. i dont dare to push it open. i dont dare to step outside. i dont wanna be hurt again... well. sorry for being such a dark n emo child. theres nuthing u can ever do for me now...the darkness has taken over my heart. wounds close,yet new ones are formed. it hurts. sometimes. looking down at this pathetic world. i wanna jump and end it all sometimes................. p.s had ice cream for reccess.was happy. but my friend was acting like a total kid. so yes. i wanna disown my friends. p.s.s. ah lun has cramps. so pain she cant move. we said she was in labour.(jokingly) it was random but i said before that 'i think i havent got that thing for quite sometime'. and she went saying. NO u are the one who's pregnant. TT am so not! and she insisted its goaty. TT and zoe tha blabermouth+crazy+embarrasingly getting too hyped up by ice cream girl,was gonnab lurt out bout the other guy i think i used to like. grr.(note: same class alert) UGH. i wanted to strangle them. bleah.... grrrrr. and they said before. when the body aint in very good condition,the cycle gets disrupted. thus u dont get THAT. grrr. whatever. not like it was a pleasant one. and i dont do that kinda stuff. *if ya know what i mean* yuck hell no. unless i can totally trust that guy......which is probabLy why adoption is more feasible yuck hell no~ yes i can be a nice n caring person. if i want to. but get me on the wrong time wrong days and u are in for a good whupping! lyrics **It keeps coming back to me I remember this pain It spreads across my eyes Everything is dull Everyone's smiling, they're smiling It pushes me far oh far away I can't understand Everything is blue Can you hear me out there? Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart I'm gazing from the distance and I feel everything pass through me I can't be alone right now Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart I'm lost in a deep winter sleep I can't seem to find my way out alone Can you wake me.... -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Saturday, September 22, 2007

meep. tired

yessh. morn was cip. we went around helping pitiful old folks who either live by themselves with a sibling or two or has children who are studying. and are financially challenged. >< so we went around helping them clean. >< and then i rushed home. and rush back out. to some deco thingy for tomorrow. its like. a bonaza or something. a...food fair! yes! thats the word. food fair~ lol the decos were being judged today. somehow. i ended up being the one who has to describe this shit,when i didnt know anything!!!!! >< so yea. being me. first reaction: what?! *tears brim of shock* *IIYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA* *abyss* so yea. somehow. with notetaking and memorising(good thing i can remember stuff for short periods of time). >< somehow that felt like knowing a pop quiz last minute and ya have not much time to study for it so the judging draaaaaaaaaaaaaaged till 7~8. >< hunger~~~~~ good thing there were people preparin food ^^ yay!!!!!!! luvs u! *hug* and so i managed to get some porridge. note. steaming hot porridge which remained hot for a minute or two despite you trying your bestest to chill it down and dispersin the heat. lol. so yea.as i ate more. it became cooler. lol. cus its faster for heat to disperse ne~? ^^ so yea. although it was still porridge + ginger (there were supposed to be other yummies in there. but that waits till tml) so yesssh. it saved me. or i wouldha been dead by now so yea. was forced-fed today. against my will. and it wasnt ice cream or anything nice. it was mock mutton soup. they said it was famous for its powdery(spice) taste. yukk. i like soup as mainly water with nice flavour and prefably less oil. i hate powdery ones. that why i hated drinkin up the last few spoonfuls of soup(cus thats where the powdery still used in flavouring of the soup eg pepper ) yukk. furthermore. the person stuck 2 bits of french loaf into my RIGHT HAND(yes im a righty. righthander) so i wasnt able to eat. so i was stuggling with my food. had to finish off the bread first(it was eaten by dippin into the soup. cus its the same with curry). and the soup dripped down my chin. ewwwwwww..... >< i never ate food in my entire life so miserably. my face would have probably said 'please save me ><' replies to comments: +i think theres somethin wrong with ya too,elvsie XDDDDD lol. i looooooooooove peanuts. and hate peanut buter WITH bread. since i've had it for almost the entire of primary school life of 6 pathetic years +me neither. i aint as nice as i looked. i aint as evil as i can be(i can be the 'sweet' lil thing that would cause ya to wish u werent born if i had ta ^^ tormenting people could become my pastimes) +mmmmm^^ cookieeeeeeeeeee~ *munches happily* i wish my weekend was nicer. dditn really expect this deco thing to take so long it WAS supposed to end at 5. meow. meep. that idiot hasnt been replying my messages again. -thinks negative- oh no maybe he realised or heard that i kinda not need him during my emo rant. maybe hes too busy. maybe hes at a camp. maybe something happened to him. again in the family.... NONO!!! cross that out! i dont want my foul thoughts to come true!!! >< lets just hope hes being a gooooooood boy and is studying hard for the EOYs. unlike meeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~ lol. meow. shall attempt to get off the com. meep. shall wake up tml to buy cookie mix(was comparing prices) lol. ^^ shall try my bestest! and hope they dont burn! shall get my paws on some shinshi doumei cross manga chapters~ i mean my eyes. lol. -edit: 1+am. due to laggyness. its like. man. i've only read 50 pages tonight. guh. definately gonna get sleep- -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Friday, September 21, 2007

emo

yes. i got into a fight with my mum. remember me being rudely awakened by the blasted tv and sis's handphone alarm? grr. twas horrid. so my mum was aying 'where got? u slept for 3 hours from 5 till 8'(i woke up at 7~7.20) and i was totally peeved. JUST because u were friggin busy with cooking. JUST because i was cursing the hell n trying to catch more sleep in the beddyroom. JUST because i came out at 8pm. doesnt MEAN i woke up at 8 its like. the blasted tv was loud that she can hear it from the kitchen. she would know that it was SWITCHED OFF. the bloddy living room was with lights not switched on,she would KNOw that it was SWITCHED ON! bloody f* 'what DO you know about ME? u were always being so conceited. in yer own world. all u want is your tv. all u want is to watch your beloved TV .fish!u gave birth to me into this pathetic world. all u do is to hurt me. wheres the love and care? where the concern?' (she ALWAYS does that. and i,left crying heartbrokened by myself in the room) thats what i typed in the handphone as a message. i was dead heartbroken. crying myself out. looking at my pathetic self in the bloody mirror,crying. i wanted to call up goaty. but i couldnt. its equally hard on him. he has even more to study for the test(same period today). and i know he has difficult times himslef. (besides. its totally wrong to be disturbing someone else's sleep at 12++ midnight) i realised. so much for 'at least we can rely on each other now'. i was all alone again. alone to face my pain. my sorrow. my sadness. i shouldnt be too selfish and bother him. me. back to square one. by myslef again. *tears brim* *rubs away* i was so sad that even this morning when i woke up. i was still feeling sore and teary about it. i walked out of the house. and on the way to the bus stop. tears came brimming my eyes. i rubbed them off. trying to be strong. 'yes. i shouldnt impose on him. i should focus on the test(which i havent studied yet ><) this is not the time!!' i amazed myself. i was a good girl. i held back my tears and sorrow. or to be exact.this was drowned in my *must study hard or i'll die!!!* -ness i was able to talk to him normally with smiles. ^^ . i dont know how i managed to do that at least im glad. i didnt break down and gave him even more stuff to worry about. not to mention create a scene infront of the school(the only time we get to talk verbally,even if its for a short while,is on the way from the bus stop to the school foyer) god grants my wishes. he gave me the firend i was looking for. he had goaty reply my sms after i typed previously in the post that he doesnt reply. he made me type an emo post. yet. this wasnt exactly gratifying in any way... .......................................... whatever ^^ me have been reading Shinshi doumei cross. ^^ fyi. its by the one who did full moon and kamikaze kaitou jeanne. ^^ lol. rather cute. yes. i am back to manga-ism .at least. for today. cus its the weekends!~~~~ *in a singsong voice ^^ was reading bleach and naruto- no wait? did i mentioned that in the last post yesterday(wait i posted yesterday?) the lingering feel...... of........ PEANUTS!!!!! IN MY MOUTH! ^^ yay. i love that. had them for my lunch at 4pm(me went prezzie shopping just now for viv's bdae. had unfortunately failed to find stuff for nissie. shall try to get her something. was thinking of baking cookies from cookie mix or cupcakes. havent made a trip down to the bakery-stuff shop yet. the actual pressie hasta wait when me had more cash on me nissie~) so hm. the people involved are near. the...walls....have..ears *whispers* lol XD btw. my bio teacher was being a pervy person again >< my friend said 'perm' and she heard it with the 's' infront. cus she was teaching us the component of skin and also a bit of hair so she was being random and was talking about people wanted their hairs in the (not very nice places to speak of on the body) straightened. whatever. shes a pervy one sometimes. we werent even thinking that way. she's the only one thinkin hentai >< whatever. more manga! and i shall get my beloved sleep sometime later. edit: replies to comments:(i forgot to do this!) +hm. they say my ascendant sign's the cancer. like. that sign affects ur personality. lol. yea. but thats gotta wait for even longer +ooooooh~~~~~~~ baaaaaaad girl sesshy!! tsktsk. but as i said. mr SS was a funny one. lol. but when it truly gets boring. i can nod off.... +>< EVVIL LS!!! NOOOOO *no whippies nooo >< *trembles* hm. but i DO have a friend who indeed runs on caffine all day. remember Caffine-san(aka Ah Lun)? lol. yep. thats her -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Thursday, September 20, 2007

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+hm. well. if i have the chance eg free period. i might just whip out my phone. lol. XD but then again. i do that s e c r e t l y of course. XD. and besides. sleep seems more appealing to me +nah its okie ^^ we know u are a busy one *hugs Faroe-chan +yea. but its like. i sholdnt really be getting tooo hooked onto this right now. since the exams r near. the end is near. very near. >< *faint~~~~~~* +i am really not a nice person u might wanna be with when im a) really really starved b)not awake fully. yyup. yessh. as that person said(whoever that was) sagittarius girls are so cute--they view eat and sleep most important in their lives. well. no idea about being 'cute' (fyi. taboo word grrrrrrrrr) but i will DIE if i ever go on a diet or go without sleep. noooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! *abyss of gloom* abscence yea. why didnt i post yesterday? my bro was hogging the computer. whaaaaaatever. hes going away to austrailia on monday ^^ feh~~~~ im sure i had rejoiced over this before but WHOOOOOOOO!!! and if he dares provoke me, his stuff shall. *fufufufufufufufufufuuuu* hm. the day before? what happened then? what date was it? oh yes. the 18th. how i was able to remember the date? i remember asking my friend(being in a sleepy mood. ah yes. the day i was deprived of sleep no? i dont remember) 'whats the freaking date today?' thrice. ^^ lol so yes. i guess it kinda helps today got back my chinese test results. while my friend was asking my other friend how come she could get such a high mark(78/100),i was there thinking 'how the hell did i get an 81..O o' lol. the secrets to me studying? i study like everyone else. just read the meanings of the words and how it was used to make sentences. me was never the diedie study very hard kinda person. lol. me r laaaazy~~ that i am ^^ well. i have realised i havent got much rant and emo rants especially. lol. maybe,like he said so himself, theres finally someone we could share our troubles with. but then again. me have been too preoccupied with sleeping to be emo. u dont gimme slweep,me bite GRRRROWLLLL!~~~~~~~*in a cutesy voice. no idea. remember me cursing in animaniacs voice? i think i have the narutal tendency for these stuff O o* *pokes. pokespokes. pokespokespkkes.* no wait. i remember what i wanted to post SS teacher our teacher for Social Studies(SS) is a mr S.S himself. lol. so he's mr SS. and our maths teacher mr JJ(cus of the names loo). so mr SS was being funny yesterdae. he was rambling on about the terrorist stuff and all and then suddenly he stopped and in an instant asked us: 'blahblahblahblahbal-*!!*no wait. dont you guys read the newspapers? O o' and we burst out laughing. he is a fast speaker so it was really almost immediate. lol. 1001 classic moments we SHOULD have captured on video camera! too bad we arent allowed handphones legally in class,nor do we have in built pin-holes. and then he showed us this funny clip from youtube on an australian tv show which were making fun of the terrorists. and then there was this guy who booked two air tickets for 'mr al kyder' and 'mr terry wrist' . get it? Al quaeda and Terrorist?! yes. and once again we burst out laughing. p.s. mr JJ and SS and so are every teacher, killers. they killed thousands,millions even. what did they kill? T R E E S . they waste ALOT of paper. especially JJ. he massacres them!!! hes the evilest man on earth. and in contrast. the trees must have loved PE teachers. cus they dont use much paper. or at least. majority of them. TT whatever. me gettin nap now ^^ toodles~~~~ -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

nuthin much

yep. nuthin much. except that i mixed up vivs birthday partay's date lol. well. got that prob solved. no replies to commentings since no one left a coment lol XDDDD yay saves me trouble. if ya didnt read the previous post. please scroll down to read it. grumpyness. yup. i can totally identify myself with Honey-senpai and Kyoya from Ouran. grrrr. was woke up by my bro this morn cus my alarm was at 6. grrr. so fine! ugh. and then. being terribly sleepy. i went to the sofa as usual and attempted to catch some winks(just so ya know. take forty winks= nap. english proverbs ^^). BUT then again. a few seconds later. BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHLBALHLABLHAH! goes my pop's handphone alarm its friggin loud. and somehow no matter how many times u stop it. it repeats after a few minutes. grrrrrrr. GROWLLL! and the whole point with pops and his phone: he bought it cus it was loud. so yea. i was supper annoyed and peeved off (sleep is very i m p o r t a n t). and i went sotrming into the kitchen to wash up. and i told my dad. feh! next time im gonna take a hammer and wham your phone into pieces!! (he was saying something like wanting to set the alarm tone as something which says 'wake up. idiot. pig. baka.' or something along those lines. i know that u can do that by recording your voice down and setting that as the tone. but why should i tell him that?! it would make everything else worse i'll hammer that thing and .....hammer it till its totally wrecked) so yess. the lack of sleep was being the main fuel source the whole day. as in. fueling the raging fire in me. i totally snapped at those idiots who said 'please proceed to the indoor sports hall for assembly' and then later at the friggin indoor sports hall the teachers went 'oh no.uh students. please proceed to the quadrangle for assembly' GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRROWL!!!!! and many other stuff i snapped at. curse it. no free periods today(there were 5 yesterday. so i was sms-ing goaty in class. he replies rather quick. so i s'ppose its the same for him lol. but having the feeling that your handphone vibrates in class is weird. i has this 'oopsies!' look on my face whenever it did. yes i am a good girl i dont use my handphone in class. not often cus there was no one to sms and u cant sms ur friends in the school in the class cus thats a waste of money and smses) no free periods= no time to catch up on sleep. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. yes. i literally growled and hissed the whole day. however. my annnoyed self doesnt end very quick. my bitched-off-ness can last for more than half the day. and it did. grrrrrrrr . curse ya teachers!!!! smses hm yea. that baka didnt reply at all today. lol. maybe its the 'delete messages from your inbox cus theres no space for new messages' thingy i experienced. fweh. did i mention that last time i did that. i had to ask my friend to re-send the message cus the inbox didnt receive it because of 'no space for them. deleted. but no messages received' shit. feh. so now i am apparently cleanin up my inbox very often chapel it was tuesdae. me n goaty were smsin the day before on 'we hope its thisthisthis teacher and not Elaine(the christian ministry one who was horrid)' well. turns out to be the latter. (where did all the teachers who could sing go?! NOOOOOOOOO!! COME BACK AND SAVE THE KIDS!!!!!) ugh. so chapel was an extremely grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr period of the day. i was still pissed from lacking sleep. and i was h.u.n.g.r.y.(its right before reccess) AND those pathetic 7 guys from our class just hadta talk so in the end we were released last for that. WILL I KILL YA TO SHUT YER TRAP!!!!! i have a puuuurrfect idea who the hell was talking though grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr* fumes* so yea. todays a day filled with anger and hostility. yes. random people who knew like to ask 'do u still like B' now and then. TT i just ignore them all. ^^ fyi in case some peeps from here doesnt know. they should re read my earlier posts from several months back. bwahahhahaha! happy finding it though ^ ~ (has decided to focus on studies. and sleep. and i cant think when im hungry. and having a friend to talk crap with in school n in class was enough to divert my attention lol. no. none of those *hinthint-ism. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRrrrrr.... yes i am a growlin kitty today. nope. not THAT MONTHLYNESS THING. nope. i growl and bite and hiss when i feel like it notes to self +gotta watch out for cars(has more luck in almost gettin run over by them recently) +gotta watch out for that rear view mirrow thing on the bus(cus it protrudes outside. almost knocked my head into it yesterday. think goaty saw that) +gotta rush out geography homework. yes. i am a bad kitty. who can bite ya to death if i really wanna whne i m pissed +gotta stop behavin like an otaku n stop readin mangas from spectrum nexus for now. >< exam horror. chao~~~~~~~ -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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