Thursday, August 14, 2008

Well, my life is a living hell as always.

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Monday, August 4, 2008

OM NOM NOM NOM.

The Happy Family by ~PinkChii009 on deviantART
I drew yet again, another picture.
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Friday, August 1, 2008

I drew a picture. :]

Why So Serious by ~PinkChii009 on deviantART
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Wednesday, July 30, 2008

See. It's freaking depressing.




And today is Ruckles Birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!


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Monday, July 28, 2008

Wow.
I'm listening to an extremely depression song.
WOW Kimya Dawson.


Anyway, I'm going to the Ruckles' hosue today.
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Friday, July 25, 2008

lol
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Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Welll.
I'm moving to Utah for 2 years.
Until I'm about 17.
I dun wanna.
I'll still be in Jr. High.
Ew..
9th grade is supposed to be Highschool.

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Thursday, July 17, 2008

I'm going to the theater at 12PM today with Angie, Amber, and Adds.
I can't wait.
It'll be fun.
Then we are going to hang out in the mall for about 1hr 1/2 to 2hrs.
:]
I'M PUMPED.
Anyway, I woke up at 8AM and started cleaning until 10:14AM.
:/ It was all so me and my friends could get a ride to the movie... I'm cool. I know.
:]
K.

1. What color is your iPod/MP3 if you one?
2. Do you like cheese.
3. Proper grammar or not?

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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
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Sunday, July 13, 2008

Well yesterday.
I hung out with Addie and Sara.
Then I waited 5 hours for Ruckles to get home.
I was like whatevs.
We were supposed to have a sleep over... but again... her mom said no.
So of course, I got all emotional like I always do, and started crying.
Ruckles got mad, and started being a bit mean, so I hung up.
5 mintues later, her sister calls me and cusses me out.
She said that "she knows I'm depressed but I shouldn't bring other's down with me"
"I've never make friends because of how I treat people."
"Ruckles is the sweetest girl she's ever met and how dare you hurt her..."
"I come in to her crying so much, please stop being so cruel to her."
I've stood by her so six years. She's done this to me every night.

Ruckles crys every night.
I don't know why, but usually I'm ALWAYS there for her. Trying to bring her out of her depression, cheering her up.
I do so much for her.
I had no idea that she cried every night because of me.
I feel like a worthless piece of shit that can't do anything.
I had no idea I was such a terrible person.
I'm sorry Ruckles.
Her sister's words keep replaying in my head.
They won't leave me alone. It's driving me crazy.
I'm sorry I've been relying on you so much.
I'm sorry.
I just needed a friend.... I'm sorry.
I had no idea I was hurting you.
I'm sorry I ruined Jen's birthday.
I'm sorry I've been ruining your life.
I'm sorry I can't deal with my sister's boyfriends death, then a cousin's death, then my sister attempting suicide, then my mom trying to burn the house down, then Keifer moving out, then all of your problems, then my mom getting a brain tumor, then her breaking her ankle, then finding out I have to move.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
And no, I'm not trying to make you feel bad.
Just simply saying I'm sorry.
And yes, I cut. I'm sorry about that too.
And it's deeper then you've ever done.
I did it again about 30 mintues ago.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I wish I wasn't having a mental break down, but I am.
I'm sorry.


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