Saturday, April 14, 2007

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Current Mood: Impatient
Current Song: Conceived Sorrow by Dir en grey
Currently Watching: I love the 80s 3D

Konnichiwaaaaaaaaaaaa~. Last night was okay, I suppose. I made some more paper cranes for Kyo and studied a bit of Japanese. I had a really bad dream last night, though. ;~; I dreamt that I was playing in concert with DIRU in America, but Kaoru was absent because he was sick (WTF?! >O). We were playing in an American venue and I was able to scream really well and everything in sync with Kyo... at first the crowd seemed to like it, but whenever I closed my eyes to scream, I opened them and saw that the venue was empty. I looked around and saw that everyone was gone, even DIRU. I walked out into the hallways to see where everyone was, and I saw them throwing their down their beers and screaming and everything. I got really pissed off and went backstage to see how the band was doing. The backstage was really big and bright, and I saw Kyo sitting in a chair without his shirt on (he still hadn't put it on from the concert). I came up to him and saw that he was crying. My heart sank. His eyes were red and watery, his nose was red, and lips were quivering. I immediately went "oh, Kyo, honey..." and hugged him. He started sobbing into my shoulder and wrapped his arms around my neck like a lonely child. I just closed my eyes and help him tightly. He was so warm and soft. I held him until he was done crying, and then looked for the rest of the band. I eventually found Kaoru reading and smoking in a rafter of people. I called him down and gave him a hug before he asked what was wrong. I told him about Kyo and he just sort of sighed. We went to go look for the rest of the band, but then my dream ended. Still thinking of it makes me hurt because I saw Kyo crying. But I think what the dream means is that I know there are some people in the world who don't like DIRU, and I think it's a huge gamble for them to be coming to America.... but I'm proud of them. (Me standing on the stage with them was a sign of me staying true to them.) Seeing Kyo crying meant that I can see his pain and it tears me apart, and me hugging him expresses how I want to comfort him. (I'm not saying that he's weak-FAR FROM IT!!!-but I can see what hurts him.) Kaoru's stoicness and absense could mean that I think Kaoru is really stable in the transition to America and doesn't let his emotions show as much... or I don't know him as much as the others (ie: Kyo).


This has been driving me crazy, so I'm asking you guys' opinion. There are three little scars (at least, that's what they look like) peeking out of the front of his pants. What do you think they are? It could be self-mutilation, a type of tattooing (that's Nicole's opinion), veins, or just his body. I just want to know, it's driving me crazy!!! >_<

Today I woke up at 10 in the morning by my dog screaming bloody murder. @_@ She woke me up by barking and I was wondering if anyone was going to get her... then I heard her screaming and I ran outside as fast as I could and saw that she was screaming at the mail man. -_- So I held her back and got the mail. He tried not to laugh at me, partially because of how ridiculous my dog looks and that my hair was all messed me. -_- Luckily, "Withering to Death" came in the mail!!! :D Yay~!!! So I immediately ripped the package open and admired the cover art. I forgot that a DVD came with it, so I squealed and watched it. XD I'm so happy because I can watch "THE FINAL" and "-saku-" with out having to go to YouTube and watch its crappy quality. Hellz yeah!!! >3 I watched the clips for "THE CODE OF VULGAR[ism]" (basically a commerical for the DVD XD) and started crying just from the clip of "AMBER." XDDD I'm a pussy, especially whenever it comes to DIRU stuff. X_X I took a shower and wore my Kabuki shirt (that I just found XD) while sitting around afterwards. Whenever my family were taking their showers and everything, I found some pictures of Miyu and Yuyu on the internet. XD They're so fucking spoiled... Shinya loves them so much. >w< After that I styled my hair and put on my put on makeup. We headed out to get something to eat and we had Jack in the Box for lunch. We headed down for bass practice and I listened to DIRU while my brother took his guitar lesson. My teacher and brother laughed at me whenever I dropped my iPod and screamed, though. XDDD My teacher gave me some new tabs and hopefully I'll get better at the bass and want to play it more. ;~; After that, I came home and my friend Nicole came to pick me up to come to her house. We went to her house and watched some TV and messed around on the computer. She did let me get on the computer occasionally, so got my good fill of Kyo-kun pictures in. :3 She eventually kept on screaming at me to shut up because I kept on "awwwwww"ing. XDD I can't help it, he's adorable. ^3^ *wiggles* I also showed her the fake-Kyo porn. XD Yay~!!! I wanna watch it again. *o*

Japanese question!!! What does purikara mean? D:

Well, I better finish watching Comedy Central because my attention is slowly dwindling. XD Also, Nicole might kick my ass if I stay on the computer more. @_@ Mata ne~!!!
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