Wednesday, February 21, 2007

   I'm Tainted...
Current Mood: Sleepy/Content
Current Song: The Fatal Believer by Dir en grey

DIRU in Arizona

Just in case you guys didn't read the edit of my post yesterday, I did eventually get "THE MARROW OF A BONE." In case your Hot Topic is a buttfuck and doesn't carry CDs like mine is, then please, check Best Buy. They're my new home now. ^-^

Today was... odd. Whenever I got to school, I saw Nicole and Devon and proudly thrust my chest out to show my DIRU shirt. Nicole kept on poking my boobs but I didn't care because I knew it was because she just wanted a piece of the greatness of DIRU. XD In Orchestra my DIRU fandom just suddenly depleted. o_o It was super weird. I don't know why the hell it did... maybe it was because our orchestra teachers were working us to the bone and I was already tired so I just didn't have the energy to jump up and down and squeal. It was like erectile disfunction. X_X In Art we tidied up our drawings we finished and it gave me some time to work on homework I didn't finish last night. Also, I had my notebook with some "Kisou" lyrics in it, so I listened to a couple of songs and mouthed the words. The only problem was that the chick next to me wanted me to sing two lines of "-kigan-" whenever I was looking at the lyrics. -_- She keeps on fucking interrupting me whenever I'm listening to my Dir en grey... and everyone knows that if you want to continue living without the aid of a machine, you will fucking leave me alone when I'm listening to my music. The only exception is if you're my friend, there's an emergency (and I'll probably still be grumpy), or if DIRU is in the hallway. *hmph* Lunch was weird. Okay, it started out as normal. Nicole begged me to get food with her, but I said no and started eating. Not even after I was half-way through, Stacie wanted me to come to the bathroom with her. I told her to go by herself (I hate going to the bathroom with people... bathroom time is alone time) but she begged me for 10 straight minutes before I finally gave in. I don't remember what I or she said, but she tried to flick me in the head but I turned and she got me in the eye. Not on the eyelid-on the actually eyeball. It hurt so bad, I got dizzy and the pain was throbbing for a long time. Luckily, it didn't appear to hurt my eyesight. Stacie said she was really sorry, though, so that kinda made me feel better. But, whenever I went to go put up my lunchbox, I said that I had a headache on only the region of my head where my eye was. So, Nicole thought it would be a fucking bright idea to hit in the back of the head to even it out. I hit her and she hit me AGAIN on the head. That really pissed me off. I sat back down and I called her a bitch and she hit me. So I hit her back and she started hitting me over and over again. I don't know what it was... maybe it was the fact that I hurt all over my body... maybe I just had a breakdown. Maybe I had had enough of all the shit my friends put me through. But I started crying. I couldn't control it, tears just started streaming down my face. I don't know what the hell happened. I think my brain just had an overload or something. But everyone was freaking out and trying to cheer me up. Korki kept on flashing my Kyo picture at me trying to cheer me up... then everyone kept on saying "think of Kyo! He's naked lying on your bed!!!" I just started laughing with tears slipping down my face... I was so freaked out, I didn't know what to do. So I'm sort of suspicious that I may be bipolar. I don't know any of the symptoms of bipolarity, except for the fact that they have serious mood swings. Maybe I'm just fucked right now. But I want it to stop. In Science I finally was able to not want to cry anymore. I think I was too bored. XD I mostly just took notes and while letting my thoughts wander and messing around with one of my peeling nails. @_@ In English we turned in an assload of stuff and talked about "Edward Scissorhands." It added a whole lot of depth to the film and helped me understand it a whole lot better. ^-^ After school I rode home with Nicole but there wasn't a spare seat so I had to sit on her lap. -_- She kept on jumping up and down so I would jump up and down on her lap. @_@ Damn her.


Awwwww, Kyo, you always make me feel better, you little dork. >w<

Well, I guess I'll have to show my parents my crappy progress report for orchestra. I'll probably get yelled at and get my new DIRU CD or the internet taken away. *sighs* Great.
+Momo+
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