Sunday, September 2, 2007

I'm so emo! Dx

I think I may need like, happy pills, or something. Depression runs in my family, and I've been getting random moments of emo-ness for years now. Only now they have been getting more frequent and lasting longer. It sucks, because just the most stupid things make me depressed, and lately, what's been making me depressed is my friend Brenna and random things in Color Guard. And text books, but I can explain that one. xD So yeah... Maybe I should talk to Mom about some meds or something... But Ionno. I mean, on meds, I might get uber hyper, and that's the last thing I want now. Hmm... I finally did it. I was finally able to talk to my Mom about letting me have more freedom when it came to late nights and going to diners with friends. I'm a diner kid. I can sit at a diner into ridiculous hours of the night talking about whatever, and I enjoy that. But the last time I tried to do that, Mom said I couldn't. It made me feel /really/ restricted and so I made a compromise with Mom. I told her that if she extended my curfew to... the actual state curfew, I would try to drive more. I decided on this because Mom doesn't want me out late, and I don't really think I'm ready to drive yet. So it's like a win/win-lose/lose situation, and I'm fine with that. Anyway, she agreed. I think that she knew that I wouldn't use my new curfew very often, so she'd be getting the better deal out of this. xD If that's the case, she's right. It was more of a freedom thing. I hated that feeling of being restricted like that. So now I can hang out at Village Inn and drink strawberry lemonade until I puke from too much strawberry goodness, like last time. xD I was watching anime, and I got to thinking... What if Sleeping Beauty or Snow White didn't /want/ to wake up? What if they knew what was going to happen to them, and they chose that fate? Knowing that, would the Prince's have woken them up? I mean, asleep, they are free from pain, sorrow, loneliness, and anger. Knowing that, would the right choice have been to let them sleep for all of eternity? Or would the right choice have been to wake them even if they didn't want to be? I think it would be right to wake them. Even if they still had to suffer, at least they would have the chance to be happy, know love, feel gratitude, and live. Random thought just from watching anime, huh? xD Actually, there is a huge chunk of this anime that basically goes around that idea, only I added my own thoughts to it, and made it sound cooler. B] If anyone can guess what anime I was watching that made me think that, I'll make you graphics. Like, icons, banners, or anything. Maybe even a custom profile just 'cause I'm awesome like that. [[And... I want the practice. xD]] So, before I head off, I was wondering if anyone wold be able to help me with a code. I want to be able to have my post background picture just stay and have my text scroll over that. I'll trade graphics for the code, too, because I'm like, desperate. I'm too afraid that I'll mess up my MyO just by playing around with the HTML and I can't find what it's called so I can't use my HTML/CSS books, either. Hmmm... ~Nove saying... "Look at me. What color am I?"

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