Friday, June 27, 2008

June 27, 2008

LiLstening to: Nothing. Wanting: McDonals French Fries, Steve to call, somone to cuddle with, to get my hair died, and to freaking get it cut!! Mood: Down yet excited. Quote: You're a liar, a fake, and a whore. Why does he love you again? I'm getting my hair Died Wednesday. I'm so excited. I'm still trying to get my mom to let me put pink in it. *sighs* I swear that woman is so damn moody. Sometimes she'll let me do anything and actually do it with me. Other times she won't let me do anything at all and calls me lazy. Kyle is coming home from Florida Sunday. I'm really excited about that. I can't wait to talk to him. I can hardly go a day without talking to him, and I've had to go an entire week! Gah! I'm not going to delete the post from... whenever it was. But to let you all know Morgan and I did fix things. And I will continue to post and reply to messages. And also comment on your sites. Whenever your lazy asses post. Lets see.... Oh yeah! About my hair. [Sorry, I got distracted.] What should I do? Put more Burgendy in it? Or but blonde streaks in it? [If I put blonde streaks I will have pink in there too with or without my mothers permission.] And how should I get it cut? Right now it's tapered around my face and is half way down my back and brown with burgendy in it. I really am considering the blonde. I may dye it black and put blonde highlights on the front and lime green in the back later this year. Anyway, give me your ideas. :] Laterz.

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Thursday, June 26, 2008

June 26, 2008

I didn't delet the post. I'm still debating. I have work today, and when I get home I probably won't get on. Laterz.

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Monday, June 23, 2008

June 23, 2008

FUCK YOU ALL. Don't worry if you never hear from me again. I'm either one, dead. Two, gone. Or three, Happy. EVERYONE!! Look at what my best friend had to say about me. "If I want to FUCK UP MY LIFE let me! It's not like you ever fucking cared... You always tell me, "That's stupid." Or "You're an idiot." I CAN FUCK UP MY LIFE IF I WANT YOU SLUT! You fucked up yours so why can't I fuck mine up? And no, I don't look up to you. Why would I? You always say, "Oh please. You don't know how hard I have it." FUCK YOU! I am going fucking insane to try to keep you happy! I GIVE UP! I don't care if you hate my guts, I will always count you as a friend. You could atleast fucking sugar coat your damned words though. I know I am right now. I don't give a shit if he cheats on me. I don't give a shit if you give a shit. I don't need your help. Or atleast that's what you call it. You tell me the same things over and over again. I HEARD ENOUGH! Shut up already!! I know I am stupid! I am a worthless, naive, selfish, brat! I accept it too!! Why can't you accept some people can barely stand you and love you at the same time! You aren't who you used to be! You're always acting like everyone loves you or hates you! The people you think love you probably hate you and the people you don't care about and think they hate you probably love you more than you could ever know! Just because you fucked up your life and think you could never fix it doesn't mean you HAVE THE RIGHT TO FIX MINE!! Back off. It's my life. Let ME ruin it. Sorry if you got upset about me yelling about this shit. You deserve to know what I think. Anyway, you promised you wouldn't cry remember? I told you what I think. I hate you so much I can't stand to live without you. Just like a girl should feel about her sister. I never try to fix your life so don't try to fix mine. You have too much on your hands anyway. Don't you worry about this worthless piece of shit. In other words, me. Anyway, just thought I would tell you how I felt." Anyone know who said it!? I DO! FUCKING BITCH! I only tried to help you, because I didn't want you to fucking get hurt again. I don't want you to end up like me. And next time you get hurt. Don't come crying on my shoulder. And don't worry, I don't care if any of you hate me, because guess what? I HATE YOU TOO! BITCH! Alex: I love you very much, and if you don't read this, I'm sorry. I hope you find that right girl and have a good life. Jae: Thank you for all of your help, I appreciate you very much for that. [I will still talk to you on MSN] Addie: Keep rocking man! XD Ruckles: I love you so much. Don't ever take any crap from anyone. Stand up for yourself. Fuz: I love you also, and what I said for Ruckles applys for you too. If I delet this post, it means that I had a change in my bitter heart and decided not to fuck everyone over.

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Thursday, June 19, 2008

June 18, 2008

LiLstening to: Strawberry Wine by Deanna Carter Wanting: Fast food, company, books, to go shopping, sleep. Mood: Alittler bit of everything. Quote: Is it really him or the loss of my innocence that I've been missin' so much? Well today has been... Hard. I had to go to work, no break at all. I worked my but off and I already didn't feel good. Last night was hard on me. I had an anxiety attack. Didn't get much sleep. I'm sorry I haven't posted in a few days. ;_; I'm also sorry this is so short. I'm just not in the talking mood.

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Saturday, June 14, 2008

June 14, 2008

LiLstening to: She Fucking Hates Me by Puddle Of Mudd Wanting: I'm quite content. ;D Mood: Content Quote: I fucking love you becth! Omg. The song just changed to Superstar!! WooT! I love this song. Anyway, I finished moving into my new room. I'm so happy now. Anyway. Everyone is calling me naughty because my cam is right infront of my bed. XD Anywayz, I don't really have to much to say. Sorry about the really short post. I know, you all hate me. Deal with it. ;D

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Friday, June 13, 2008

June 13, 2008

LiLstening to: The kitty purr. Wanting: Sleep, pain reliever, and someone to talk to. Mood: I dunno. Quote: Who is that girl I see, staring straight back at me? When will my reflection show who I am inside? First off, let me apologize for all the typing errors. I'm slouched in my chair and the kitty is laying on me. D: So anyway, sorry I didn't post about work last night. It was fun, but I'm really sore. That damn patients are so fucking needy! I almost told one to shut the fuck up because he kept calling! Anyway, there was one lady that was leaving, she was so sweet. Teehee. She had the most amusing things to say. But she is going blind. Which was kinda sad when I found out. There was also this man who I hated. Thank God he left and went to a bigger hospital. Damn freak. I know all the nurses names! :D Me and this other girl [Never got her name] were playing in the wheel chairs. XD It was so much fun. My break was boring, but like Heaven. ._. Anyway, done babbling. :]

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Thursday, June 12, 2008

June 12, 2008

LiLstening to: Nothing Wanting: To be at the hospital, to cuddle, and to listen to music. Mood: Excited. Quote: Sometimes, I wish I would have never met you because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing somone like you was out there. Yay! I go to work today. That's exciting. Even though I'm sore as Hell. D: My mum and I bought some things for my room last night. It's going to be so pretty Awesome. I'm excited about my room too. Wow, I really hate Brittany's cousins, err, sisters, whatever they are. They are annoying. Anyway, I don't really have anything muchMaybe.

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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

June 11, 2008

LiLstening to: The cat purr. Wanting: To cuddle, advil, clean, and run. Mood: Depressed but calm. Quote: Everything will work out in the end, and if it doesn't work out, then it's not the end. The cat it sleeping in my lap. Purring. And he looks so adorable. ;D Anyway. I was at the haspital earlier. I had to get me TB results, schedual, and shirt. I don't have TB, that means I can start work at the hospital tomorrow tomorrow, and I am going to. I work for One to Five in the afternoon on Thursday. I've been majorly cleaning my room. I told my mom this morning that I thought I needed to be tested for some mental disorders. She told me to give it time, or she came up with some excuse. So yeah, looks like I will be having to find out on my own. Joy. Brittany may be coming over this weekend. Hahaha. That's going to be fun. Anyway, someone IMed me on MSN. I'm going to go. ;] Laterz. Btw. [Wow, haven't said that in awhile!] I need some phone calls. Call meh and say Allo. (706)-594-5379 ;] That's right betches. Phone meh!

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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

June 10, 2008

Listening to: Nothing. Wanting: To cry, leave the house, hit something, throw something, yell, advil, water, food. Mood: Pissed and depressed. Quote: Would you even miss me if I was gone? I am so considering throwing this cat across the room right now. Besides that. I'm still very depressed over everything that happened. My mouth is fucking killing me. I hate just about everyone right now. Including my once best friend. Oh God. If you could only hear some of my thoughts. Steve called me this morning. Yeah... Not going into that, but I do still talk to him and I am going to continue to talk to him. 'Cause I'm awesome like that. Yeah, not really. You know what I'm noticing? No one ever tells me what's really on their mind. They always sugar-coat it. And I am also noticing that I have the habit of falling way to fast and much to hard for a relationship I know isn't even going to last. Yeah. I'm just kinda thinking and typing. Anyway, I'm gonna go.

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Monday, June 9, 2008

June 9, 2008

Well, just filling you in. Steve left my last night. Kyle is most likely coming up here in July. I'm pretty upset. I'm starting work at the hospital soon.

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