Wednesday, January 10, 2007
I MISS U!
k so I saw a picture of my cousin on myspace and his changed dramatically, cause the last time I saw him I was 6 years old and he was like 10. And he used to be a lil brat and lock me in my room and hold the doorknob so I wouldn't come out and I would shout and scream and bang on the door and cry. And now I found him and his 19 and I'm 14 (gonna be 15 this February) and were both so different. And before I wanted nothing to do with him, cause I always thought about all the childhood memories and all my memories of him were always bad ones. ANd he used to only live 2 hours away from us and now he and his family moved away back to Ukraine, Kiev. So I was like "well, he always hated me and probobly doesn't remember me and doesn't care about me. So why should I care about him??" and now my sister-in-law told me that my cousi and his sister have been asking about me all these year and been wanting to see me. But I've been so stubborn to go see them cause I thought we would just argue, but now that were both older and were so different and matured. I wana go see him and talk to him and just hold him and cry and apoligize for being so stupid, all these wasted years and now that I want to see him and his family I can't cause his gone back to Ukraine. Nut I'll get to see him and his family this summer because my mom and I are flying to Ukraine to see them. I'm gonna cry so much and beg for forgivness, wow my family is so important to me and I don't know why I always act up like this. ANd it's rueins everything, it's driving me crazy and then I found a different family friend named Anna who I have known since i was like 4. And the last time I saw her I was 8years old and she was like 12, and it's the same thing as me and my cousin. Anna and I have changed drastically, and i miss her so bad. Thank god she's still here in the US and she only lives 3 hours away from me so I can go see her.