Friday, March 9, 2007

   Saying goodbye

this week had been such a week, so I will replay it for myself! on monday I went to art and worked slightly hard on tuesday.... I got really sick an dcould barly stand up for about an hour and 15 min.s so I didn't go to PE and I know why I got really sick and I wish it wouodn't happen but I don'[t know how to stop it. wedsday- I went to art again and theres this new kid who is so cool! I love him [he sits right next to me] and I changes my sit so I sit next to james! so now i sit by a friends in art [i wasn't before] yeah!! i loves it! then in 3ed block we watched a movie about some cute owls that was interesting but just that. on thursday- we had this math thing me and ramen went to! it was so much more fun than the other math thing we went to. I bet its becuase mrs.utley was there! and on thursday everyone keep thinking it was friday! on friday.... we partyied like it was 1999 this whole week I've been having a wish to do something utterly violetent and bloody. its the kind where was so mad I had imgs in my mind about stabbing a heart again and again and carving it into something nasty and horriable. and other very violetent things[of this nature] i hate it. I think that someone wants me to like them more then i'm letting them know i like them, it can be so weird. [rant] the song Parade from naruto makes me think of what it would be like to live in a place with nicer people, closer house, lovable friends, people who whouldn't say anything if they saw you on the street.{ mosty the first and last one, really thought how hard is it to not be harassed just for walking outside?} a place where each day rolls lby as if it was didn't want to stab you in the heart and then take off running with it. and yet in this parade city pain still happens expect mabye it happens to every equaly or mabye there is someone to pick the piece [of that person] for every body. its like teh person signign is tlelling about his pain and how noboy was there for him or no one i wlling to go as far as they need to [for him] and he sees someone who always ask if he;s okay but they just don't relize what he feels, [he needs a random hug from behind[so you see teh person comeing] at teh begging of the day saying I Care about you!] the song [i]sayonara[/i] makes me feel like I'm being hugged by the person i love the most and the he pulls me back and kisses me softy. Then laugh a little about random Memorys to make the mood better. I know he has to leave and it happens, and then the song kinda skips all that time and goes to some time [a time after that] and I still havn't seen her, but I'm in the forest with a book I proabley won't be reading, and just start thinking about all those fun times we had with each other and smile as the barely breaths onto my pale skin{me pale skin right}. and after that I get up and [still smiling} run towards nothing it makes me so sad, that song does. Himtsu Kichi- a song about growing up is what i think when ever I think about this song, I think of a boy just trying to do his best and yet he barly keep that his foucus. at the start of the cong i htink the boy is looking up to the sky, and all it clouds. I think the boy like the adventure and likes to do it by himself becuse that theh only option he had. I see the boy spinning himself around. I see hime smiling and crying at the smae time, and then walking to a new destiny. and then he grows up and thinks about him self as a child. and then it goes to his child and he think how much alike they are. I also see a paint bush being deeped into red paint, a big bucket of read paint [like a gallon] [none of that made any sense did it?] "Saying goodbye doesn't mean anything. It's the time we spent together that matters, not how we left it." Trey Parker and Matt Stone -but it still hurts-

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